Re: craziness -

October 15, 2008

-> Hey ! I have been going through exactly the same thing for

years with a very similar underlying emotional pattern, but different

manifastations. Welcome to my world. Try to enjoy the ride! I had

childhood stuff and some of my deepest fears coming up out nowhere

and multiply magnified. I try to take it a a chance to work on it.

Max

>

> Yeah I understand. I used to tell my mum every week end ( coming

back

> from the city where I was studying at the time) that I thought I

was

> becoming crazy. Sometimes, I thought my girlfriend could stab me in

> my sleep because we had had an argument (sometimes only because

> I " felt " she was angry - nonsense). I thought my mind could not

> follow the speed of events around me and that I had " gaps " or faces

> seemed bigger than normal and changing size and moving when the

> person was standing still (I considered these events as crisis of

an

> unknown origin, that were, thank god, rare). It was really

> frightening, I was feeling trapped inside my crazy mind... Now I

have

> ups and downs, sometimes I feel strong mentally and sometimes I

think

> speaking to someone in a coherent way is a challenge and it's

> frightening. I used to be quick-witted... Now I'm happy when I can

> actually think properly. lol

>

> ah là là... It's also hard to think that I could actually not be

> anxious, that I could be free of fatigue and memory losses.

Sometimes

> I think I'm someone else, not the one I used to be and that I have

to

> act so no one realizes it (lol completely crazy idee but there it

is.

> Iread somewhere that someone felt like in a movie.. that's exactly

> how I feel sometimes, like nothing's real.

>

> But it's good to hear that I'm not the only one being anxious

without

> concrete reasons in the outside world and having brain fogs.

>

> Thanks a lot every one for your experience that supports me when I

> feel like all hope has gone long ago

>

> .

>

October 15, 2008

, you are not alone. When I first got this crazy candida I was having full

blown panic attacks. And I am a guy who was never afraid of anything, now I was

afraid to be alone. Its like someone gives you an injection of truth serium,

only its crazy serium, and there is nothing yoiu can do about it. There is

nothing worse for me than no having complete control of my own mind. Rambling

speech, foggy thoughts, like sitting at the table and staring at my fork and

wondering what its called, and what was I going to do with it.

What helped me the most was the Custom Probiotics my wife found on line by

chance. I tried them and I have to tell you that within 30 minutes my mind

calmed down, there was silence in my head, and I started having die off and went

to sleep in the middle of the day. When I wokeup, I was hungry and my liver was

hurting from all the die off. Now I take 3 or 4 about 45mins before each meal,

and they support my recovery like nothing else I've tried. You can get back to

normal, just starve the candida of sugars, starches, high sugar veggies etc, and

do all the other right things.

Also check out this page we recently came across:

http://www.ei-resource.org/treatment-options/treatment-information/leaky-gut-syn\

drome-treatment/

I started trying NAC, and it is definately changing something in my gut. But I

will let you know good or bad later.MJ

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October 15, 2008

>

> -> Hey ! I have been going through exactly the same thing for

> years with a very similar underlying emotional pattern, but

different

> manifastations. Welcome to my world. Try to enjoy the ride! I had

> childhood stuff and some of my deepest fears coming up out nowhere

> and multiply magnified. I try to take it a a chance to work on it.

>

> Max

lol, thank you Max for your support. It makes me feel really better

to know that i'm not the only one in the situation. My biggest fear

was that I would end up in an asylum. I think that would have

happened some day, as I was loosing my sanity and was emotionnaly

weak.

.

>

> >

> > Yeah I understand. I used to tell my mum every week end ( coming

> back

> > from the city where I was studying at the time) that I thought I

> was

> > becoming crazy. Sometimes, I thought my girlfriend could stab me

in

> > my sleep because we had had an argument (sometimes only because

> > I " felt " she was angry - nonsense). I thought my mind could not

> > follow the speed of events around me and that I had " gaps " or

faces

> > seemed bigger than normal and changing size and moving when the

> > person was standing still (I considered these events as crisis of

> an

> > unknown origin, that were, thank god, rare). It was really

> > frightening, I was feeling trapped inside my crazy mind... Now I

> have

> > ups and downs, sometimes I feel strong mentally and sometimes I

> think

> > speaking to someone in a coherent way is a challenge and it's

> > frightening. I used to be quick-witted... Now I'm happy when I

can

> > actually think properly. lol

> >

> > ah là là... It's also hard to think that I could actually not be

> > anxious, that I could be free of fatigue and memory losses.

> Sometimes

> > I think I'm someone else, not the one I used to be and that I

have

> to

> > act so no one realizes it (lol completely crazy idee but there it

> is.

> > Iread somewhere that someone felt like in a movie.. that's

exactly

> > how I feel sometimes, like nothing's real.

> >

> > But it's good to hear that I'm not the only one being anxious

> without

> > concrete reasons in the outside world and having brain fogs.

> >

> > Thanks a lot every one for your experience that supports me when

I

> > feel like all hope has gone long ago

> >

> > .

> >

>

October 15, 2008

>

> , you are not alone. When I first got this crazy candida I

was having full blown panic attacks. And I am a guy who was never

afraid of anything, now I was afraid to be alone. Its like someone

gives you an injection of truth serium, only its crazy serium, and

there is nothing yoiu can do about it. There is nothing worse for me

than no having complete control of my own mind. Rambling speech,

foggy thoughts, like sitting at the table and staring at my fork and

wondering what its called, and what was I going to do with it.

>

> What helped me the most was the Custom Probiotics my wife found on

line by chance. I tried them and I have to tell you that within 30

minutes my mind calmed down, there was silence in my head, and I

started having die off and went to sleep in the middle of the day.

When I wokeup, I was hungry and my liver was hurting from all the die

off. Now I take 3 or 4 about 45mins before each meal, and they

support my recovery like nothing else I've tried. You can get back to

normal, just starve the candida of sugars, starches, high sugar

veggies etc, and do all the other right things.

>

> Also check out this page we recently came across:

> http://www.ei-resource.org/treatment-options/treatment-

information/leaky-gut-syndrome-treatment/

>

> I started trying NAC, and it is definately changing something in my

gut. But I will let you know good or bad later.MJ

>

> Thanks so much, I really appreciate your support. I didn't tell

that I had several panic attacks. One day even when I was peacefully

enjoying a movie with my girlfriend on my birthday I had a panic

attack(could hardly imagine any more peaceful situation!).

.

>

October 16, 2008

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