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[Guest guest]

Daryl,

I made up a folder of my diet and brought it everwhere with me, on my diet, studies, anything to keep me motivated, and also as a reminder. . Also, I started taking spec pills with spec meals, so I have gotten in a routine by now I take about 6 pills per meal. If you take them straight for about three weeks, you will finallly make it a habit. I have 4 old prescription bottles, labeled in permanent marker : B (breakfast,) L (lunch) D(Dinner) and S(Sleepy bedtime ) with a permanent marker. Every morning, first thing- I fill all my bottles and put them in my purse. So no matter where I go , I have them on me, and no fumbling over all these bottles, as they have the easy to read initials on them in dark print! Then as I see I am getting low in the morning while I am refilling, above all my vitamins & herbs (they are all in a big basket) is a blank peice of paper that I write in low vitamins/herbs on. And once a week, I grab that list and buy whatever I am low on, so I am never out. Once, you get a system, you arent so overwhelmed. And I take my natural thyroid in the am, and the 2nd doasge in the pm, and you arent sopssed to take anything from about 2 hours of taking it, so it realy got tricky!!!! So I made a plan. Dr Mercola has on his site, "If you fail to plan, then you are planning to fail!" It is so true. its no big deal anymore to take all these things! And whenever I get depressed or overwhelmed with the supplements, fasting, special baths, enemas, wierd diet, I tell myself that this is just a short dark wintery season in my life. And it may seem long, and intolerable, it will pass just as seasons do, and life will begin a new season again for me! Fresh & brand new. I am just in a "post explant-still ill, roller coaster ride, need to detox " season. It has to get better, I believe it will!

Tyler, my son is doing awesome. He is talking up a storm, and as always clinging by my side. He is definitly a mamma's boy. I am feeling better, a little every day. My blood work show I am improving, (even the candida-like 40% better on my live cell)but I take listen to what Dr Kolb and Patty says. Some women need years before they feel fully better,and having them for 8 years, all that abuse on my poor body, I should at least give it half that to start feeling the best! It has alot of work to do! It is sad to hear you say, you also wanted another baby at this time. Me, too. I realy wanted to have two children, about three years apart before I was 30.But I know I need to for both the next baby and me(if there will be one) to be my strongest, and to be as cleaned out as I can possibly be. I should at least give it 2 years post explant, see how I am feeling. I am very sad sometimes, when I watch Tyler play alone, and I have that ache in my belly. Or when my husband questions when will I be ready....but thank the Lord, I dont have 2 now. I dont know how I would have done it. And I think a higher power sees that I need time to focus on me, my health, my spirituality, first!! I know how you feel though, its a very emotional topic for me as well. Very sad, is all I can say. Who would have thought this would effect our decisions in child bearing!? I dont think I could handle a pregnancy right now, would I need another c section, and I would be high risk with this thyroid mess, and then Id worry about the baby......But, things do work out for a reason, and its just not meant to be (I tell myself all the time) Daryl, I am praying for you, realy I am. Of course, I have never followed the plan perfectly, I fell off of it for a few weeks, and believe me, got realy ill! I learned my lesson. My joint pain has improved, not so bad when I type now (obviuosly-look at the length lately!) my white and red blood cell count has also improved, I no longer am anemic, I feel like I have a lot more energy, my thyroid antibodies came down by the thousands, I am improving, slowly. You will too. Love you ,

[Guest guest]

I hear ya girl. Some times you are really not in the mood to talk about it

and other times, its like you want to scream it out to the world. " listen to

me, I have cancer! "

I don't think any of us want a pity party (unless its one of those days that

we give one to ourselves) but every now and then, a little whining is

necessary for our sanity. I think sometimes its hard for people close to us to

remember that even though things look good and better on the outside, sometime

we are still fighting to keep the smile on through pain or fatigue and that we

DO still have cancer.

We are a strong bunch of people and like you said, the world would be a

great place if everyone had a supportive group of friends like this. We need

to

all get together and have a big party!!!!

Hugs and Hope-

35

CML 5/13/05

Gleevec 800mg until 8/07

Spyrcel 100 mg since 9/07

Wife and mother of 3 (12,9,7)

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[Guest guest]

I'm ready, where do you live?? Bobby

vegasrnjen@... wrote: I hear ya girl. Some times you are really not

in the mood to talk about it

and other times, its like you want to scream it out to the world. " listen to

me, I have cancer! "

I don't think any of us want a pity party (unless its one of those days that

we give one to ourselves) but every now and then, a little whining is

necessary for our sanity. I think sometimes its hard for people close to us to

remember that even though things look good and better on the outside, sometime

we are still fighting to keep the smile on through pain or fatigue and that we

DO still have cancer.

We are a strong bunch of people and like you said, the world would be a

great place if everyone had a supportive group of friends like this. We need to

all get together and have a big party!!!!

Hugs and Hope-

35

CML 5/13/05

Gleevec 800mg until 8/07

Spyrcel 100 mg since 9/07

Wife and mother of 3 (12,9,7)

# 907 in Zavie's Zero Club

**************It's Tax Time! Get tips, forms, and advice on AOL Money &

Finance. (http://money.aol.com/tax?NCID=aolprf00030000000001)