To From NJ

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Dear ,

I want you to know that it is hard to be in your situation and I

totally understand where you are coming from. I mean we all were

there once, we all wanted bigger breasts, nicer breasts, we all felt

that it would complete us, make us feel like real women. I know it is

hard to be around other women with implants, I wish women could see

what they are doing to each other with this whole implant thing, but

they don't. Anyhow, I too thought saline implants were safe, and that

only gel were a problem. Just remember that saline implants are still

silicone on the outside. There are many many theories about these

implants and why some of us are getting so ill. I will tell you that

if it is not infection, then it may be the reaction to the foreign

body itself, or the many toxic chemicals inside the shell itself. No

one is studying any of us, so no one really knows, or for that matter

seems to care. There are many many of us who are ill. Some of us got

ill in a matter of months like me, but others did not get ill for

several years, so you never really are in the clear. Daryl got ill 10

years later I think, and like 7. It can be triggered by

anything, who knows. There are no cut and dry answers to these

horrible questions, so we really cannot quote any facts, other than

our own testimony, which is pretty powerful in my opinion. I can also

tell you that once you get ill you don't always recover. I was one of

the lucky ones I got well pretty quickly after explant and feel

extremely blessed. However I would give anything not to have gone

through this nightmare. It almost ruined my life, my relationship

with my young daughter suffered tremendously, i was able to get

through it only because of my inner stregnth, I am an extremely tough

individual and have been through many other trials, so I was still

able to force myself to go to work to hang on to my home, and job,

and somehow I still managed(i think out of anger) to even stay fit,

but everyday was hell. I lived on vicodin and oxycontin (narcotics)

and anything I could get my hands on to escape the pain and get

through another day. I had all the classic symptoms of autoimmuine

disease, inculding the elevated ANA test. I had rashes, I had

dizzyness, brain fog, muscle pain, headaches, anxiety, nightsweats,

insomnia and fatigue, felt like I was spaced out all the time. I

thought I was getting MS, then Lupus, I lived at the Dr office. This

all happend swiftly for me, it was within 3 months that I became ill.

I got explanted at 18 months, I so did not want to give up those

boobs! It amazes me how much they mean to us! I was living in hell

but I still did not want to part with them. MAN THAT SUCKED! I

remember finally coming to terms with it, and then just sucking up

and taking the plunge and spending another huge amount of money to

travel to an expert because I could not trust any local PS to do it

right. Removing implants is much much more difficult to do then to

put them in trust me! It sucked. I had to do it, and it took so much

effort to go through with it. Then I was still ill, for many months

you still are sick, plus your breasts are scarred for life, and even

smaller than before, although I had a lift that really does look

good. I don't know what else I can tell you. I told my sister all

this too, and yet 6 months ago she decided not to listen to me and

went and got silicone gel implants herself. I cannot believe she did

it. It really made me question all I am going through to help others,

but I guess it is still worth it to help others to know th true risks

right? I mean it may not stop anyone but at least if and when they

get sick they will know the symptoms.

I understand how hard it is when your best friend has them, one of my

good friends at work got them and I do hate being around her now too.

I would not like her over my home with my hubby around even though I

know my husbands dislike of implants, men still look at them. It is

impossible not too. They are making women bigger and bigger today

too. It is sickening really. It is sad that women feel this need to

alter thier bodies but in the end I realized that it is not going to

change who we are anyhow. I know it sucks to have ugly boobs. I am

glad for my lift but I still do not feel like I am extremely gorgous

in the chest dept. it has however motivated me to improve the things

and parts I can. So i work out allot and try to make the most of the

parts I can change with weights and stuff. It is satisfying to be 38

years old with 19% body fat and going down, and be fit and have a

good relationship and be able to travel and enjoy my life.

It really is tough because you do see so many women with implants who

all seem fine, but you cannot know by looking at someone, so just

thing hard about what you are going to do. You at least have the

knowledge now.

good luck

In , " ltiedeken " <ltrn449@a...> wrote:

> Hi. I am scheduled for surgery on June 19th, bur your testimony is

> haunting me. I am healthy, 33, the mother of three children.

> Although I want to change my 34AA, I just dont know if its worth

the

> risk. Also, I am an RN and have always had a respect for health,

but

> it seems so many women are getting implants and everyone seems to

> think (including my ob/gyn and family doctor) that the implants are

> safe now. I don't hear anything on TV like with the silicone

> implants. I have read over Mentors book and statistics, and even

> though I'm a nurse, I can hardly understand all of the studies. I

> strongly feel that silicone implants can cause illness, but Im not

> sure about the saline. I keep telling myself that I should get the

> implants, because it is so hurtful for me to look at others

> with " normal " breasts. My daughter is 13 and has bigger breasts

than

> me! Two months ago my best friend had implants,and I feel so self

> consience when I am around her, and especially when my husband is

> near. I feel deformed. I keep telling myself that I should take

the

> risk, but something is holding me back. I already scheduled

surgery

> last year and cancelled the day before (lost $450.00 for doing

> that). I hope to hear from you soon, as I am so confused right now

I

> really dont know what to do. Thanks for anything you can share

with

> me.

> Sincerely,

>

> New Jersey