Re: Do not give up on me yet- I am still vacillating

[Guest guest]

wow CJ...you sound so smart talking like that. Making me jealous!

[Guest guest]

what do you mean Khadi?? Are you making fun of me or are you

serious??

> wow CJ...you sound so smart talking like that. Making me

jealous!

[Guest guest]

CJ:

I'm sorry, CJ. I should not have given up on you. I did, didn't I??!! Sorry.

And I'm sorry to hear about your mom.

I do know how you feel. I've been there.

You, though, are luckier than me. You are size "A" to "B" breast size. I consider you fortunate. I had cute "A" boobies. I was attractive and men thought so too. No problems there. Got married. Had a baby. When I nursed my son, I became a "D." They were fun! After I stopped nursing..........my boobs disappeared off the face of the earth. Not even a pinch of boob did I have left. My son was 2 1/2 when I got a divorce and I thought "who is going to want me? That's why I got my implants. Mine don't look huge or unnatural. I'm a sick person with nice proportionate looking size "C" boobs. When I see before and after pictures of women who were A or B before implants, I always think, "What the heck did she get implants for?" I wish I were flat and healthy again............so does my son.

I think your idea of going on a nice vacation is perfect! Do it! I fully support that!!

----- Original Message -----

From: cjvon666

Sent: Sunday, July 13, 2003 7:20 PM

Subject: Do not give up on me yet- I am still vacillating

I am seriously thinking of at least postponing this thing to another time. maybe right now I am doing it for all the wrong reasons anyway. I know I sound annoying to you guys after you have been kind to tell me all your stories.Even now I was on the other website implantinfo.com reading other people's messages and they are talking about all kinds of problems to each other like :hey my boob is flat what do I do" someone responds -oh that happened to me twice- then someone else says "well my boob is going into my armpit" or "help I am depressed they are really hard-what do I do"And you know what Lena YOU ARE RIGHT!!! My mother is missing one breast!! and it does not even look flat and nice but the skin looks bad and all because at 32 she wanted bigger breasts after going through a divorce with my father. If she had never been injected with silicone in the first place then she would still have two small perky breasts and would never had to have gone through three surgeries in her life. I was looking at her breasts today.I THINK I NEED TO TAKE MY THOUSANDS OF DOLlARS AND TAKE A NICE VACATION TO CLEAR MY HEAD-- or have my head examined!!A lifetime of padded bras is starting to sound real good right now!

[Guest guest]

Ok. Thanks. This is a very serious matter and in a way if I am

already having so many doubts then I do not need to go forward on

August 1. After all it could always be done at a later date if I

really wanted it. Maybe taking a vacation and getting away will

clear my head. This whole " thing " just baffles me. Again on the

one hand when I go out I see lots of women out with their nice

implants. I live in Florida (Tampa) I have also lived in Miami.

Fake boob heaven. Yet I do not live their lives behind

their " look " I have no idea what troubles they are or are not

experiencing. Probably most of them just go to a surgeon and rely

on what they are told. Plus, they probably do not broadcast

problems as they may be " embarassed " that they in a way did this to

themselves. Even talking to my friends there is a lot of

misinformation out there. Most of the people I know had no idea

that women with " saline " also report autoimmune problems they keep

telling me oh surgery is more advanced now it has been ten years

so many people have them!

I REALLY AM NOT SURE I AM WILLING TO TAKE THIS RISK ANYMORE-I

probably need to work more on my self-esteem rather than on my

outside!!

BY THE WAY WERE IS THE SO CALLED LIST OF CELEBRITIES WHO HAD

EXPLANTS THAT SOMEONE MENTIONED I have not seen that

Thanks

> no i am very serious. I think the post you just made sounded like

a rational

> intelligent decision. It was a compliment, hoping you would feel

good about

> making a decision I wish I had made for myself 9 years ago.

> ~kim

[Guest guest]

That's Ok I can understand the frustration. I am examining my own

motivations. Its funny all of us women say " Oh it is not for men

that I am doing it " " I am doing it for me " But then again are we

really? I am not married or in a serious relationship but I

recently had a bad break up (and all of a sudden within a month I go

to a PS and schedule a surgery within 3 weeks!!!) and women with

husbands maybe still think they want their husbands to have at home

what they see in the magazines. When I am alone and naked or

showering- I do not dislike my breasts. In fact they are quite

comfortable!! So in a way I desire bigger breasts precisely for how

those bigger breasts will make other people (women included) to view

me. I guess that is a pretty silly resaon to do a procedure THAT

CARRIES SO MANY COMPLICATIONS. It is not like other plastic surgery

that if you survived it -it was a success-and you are done- it is

QUITE different than that. You have actually placed a foreign

object in your body that is active every day. I think most people,

myself included, kind of thought well you get your nice boobs- you

hurt for a while and then all is great. But in reality you keep

having to worry about it and have issues such as redos and all

that. Well I hope to be brave and call that PS latest by Tuesday

morning to give up that slot. At this point, I would just forfeit

$300 dollars. Any closer to the surgery and i forfeit $1K

> CJ:

>

> I'm sorry, CJ. I should not have given up on you. I did, didn't

I??!! Sorry.

> And I'm sorry to hear about your mom.

>

> I do know how you feel. I've been there.

> You, though, are luckier than me. You are size " A " to " B " breast

size. I consider you fortunate. I had cute " A " boobies. I was

attractive and men thought so too. No problems there. Got

married. Had a baby. When I nursed my son, I became a " D. " They

were fun! After I stopped nursing..........my boobs disappeared off

the face of the earth. Not even a pinch of boob did I have left.

My son was 2 1/2 when I got a divorce and I thought " who is going to

want me? That's why I got my implants. Mine don't look huge or

unnatural. I'm a sick person with nice proportionate looking

size " C " boobs. When I see before and after pictures of women who

were A or B before implants, I always think, " What the heck did she

get implants for? " I wish I were flat and healthy

again............so does my son.

>

> I think your idea of going on a nice vacation is perfect! Do it!

I fully support that!!

>

>

>

> ----- Original Message -----

> From: cjvon666

>

> Sent: Sunday, July 13, 2003 7:20 PM

> Subject: Do not give up on me yet- I am still

vacillating

>

>

> I am seriously thinking of at least postponing this thing to

another

> time. maybe right now I am doing it for all the wrong reasons

> anyway. I know I sound annoying to you guys after you have been

> kind to tell me all your stories.

>

> Even now I was on the other website implantinfo.com reading

other

> people's messages and they are talking about all kinds of

problems

> to each other like :hey my boob is flat what do I do " someone

> responds -oh that happened to me twice- then someone else

> says " well my boob is going into my armpit " or " help I am

depressed

> they are really hard-what do I do "

>

> And you know what Lena YOU ARE RIGHT!!! My mother is missing

one

> breast!! and it does not even look flat and nice but the skin

looks

> bad and all because at 32 she wanted bigger breasts after going

> through a divorce with my father. If she had never been

injected

> with silicone in the first place then she would still have two

small

> perky breasts and would never had to have gone through three

> surgeries in her life. I was looking at her breasts today.

>

> I THINK I NEED TO TAKE MY THOUSANDS OF DOLlARS AND TAKE A NICE

> VACATION TO CLEAR MY HEAD-- or have my head examined!!

>

> A lifetime of padded bras is starting to sound real good right

> now!

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Thanks for the info! Actually, before I found this site. I tried

to find something on ' story but I could not really find

anything by her -just some short sentences alluding to the fact that

she was against implants

> > no i am very serious. I think the post you just made

sounded like

> a rational

> > intelligent decision. It was a compliment, hoping you would

feel

> good about

> > making a decision I wish I had made for myself 9 years ago.

> > ~kim

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

This isn't a complete list, but some explanted are :

Mel B of Spice Girls-

http://www.mtvasia.com/news/Gossip/Items/0103/0103008.html

McCarthy

Pamela Andersen

Toni Braxton -

http://www.ironminds.com/ironminds/issues/001017/entertainmentroundup

..shtml

Eggert

Mariel Hemingway

Kari Wuhrer (her web site tells her story)

http://www.kariwuhrer.net/glamourmag.html This is the link of a

Glamour magazine article about her explant.

[Guest guest]

CJ,

You are on the right track...we just want the best for you, that's all, and I hope you make a wise choice.

Patty

----- Original Message -----

From: cjvon666

Sent: Sunday, July 13, 2003 7:20 PM

Subject: Do not give up on me yet- I am still vacillating

I am seriously thinking of at least postponing this thing to another time. maybe right now I am doing it for all the wrong reasons anyway. I know I sound annoying to you guys after you have been kind to tell me all your stories.Even now I was on the other website implantinfo.com reading other people's messages and they are talking about all kinds of problems to each other like :hey my boob is flat what do I do" someone responds -oh that happened to me twice- then someone else says "well my boob is going into my armpit" or "help I am depressed they are really hard-what do I do"And you know what Lena YOU ARE RIGHT!!! My mother is missing one breast!! and it does not even look flat and nice but the skin looks bad and all because at 32 she wanted bigger breasts after going through a divorce with my father. If she had never been injected with silicone in the first place then she would still have two small perky breasts and would never had to have gone through three surgeries in her life. I was looking at her breasts today.I THINK I NEED TO TAKE MY THOUSANDS OF DOLlARS AND TAKE A NICE VACATION TO CLEAR MY HEAD-- or have my head examined!!A lifetime of padded bras is starting to sound real good right now!