Guest guest Posted February 27, 2011 Report Share Posted February 27, 2011 You know, at the risk of sounding sappy.... oh Hell... I'm gonna do it anyway. I just HAVE to believe that we were given this virus for a reason. Those of you that have been on this forum long enough know about my " silver linings " those that have come on in the past 6 months to a year might not... I have to believe that something good comes out of everything. I just have to. When I sit down and think about my hep c hiccup and what it has done to me, I can find good stuff there. Really, I'm not trying to yank anybody's chain here. Steve and I brought this up to the group over a year ago.... I'm going to bring it up again because a lot of you haven't heard this before. Think about your hep c experience so far... I know it's a crummy experience for the most part BUT what have you learned about yourself because of it? What have you done differently because of it that has a good ending? Is it that maybe now you are taking the time to appreciate some things that before you overlooked or took for granted? Do you see family and friends in a different light? Sometimes for the good and sometimes you find out who your real friends are... that's a good thing. I found a side of me that I didn't know existed. Yes, my life is different now. Different in a whole lot of ways... financially, things pretty much suck but ya know what? There are people way worse off than we are right now.. We function on a different financial level than we are used to but it hasn't killed us. My hubs and I have gone thru things in the past 6 years that most couples never have to go thru. My poor hubs said " I do " and about 2 years later got " in sickness, for poorer and for worse " . But the man hasn't wavered one bit. He stood strong by my side the whole time. I really know not everyone can say that... My family.. wow. Some of them showed their true colors and we don't associate with them anymore.... less hassles and that's a plus too! And the rest of the family... stand right beside us... stronger than ever. I really think that everything happens for a reason. Maybe we needed to slow down a little so we could see what was going on. Reality check in a great big way. In my case, I found a cause. Hep c has come full circle for me, only now, I'm in control. And hopefully this book I am working on will bring us full circle financially as well. There is a reason. I don't think God gives us anything we can't handle. When I stopped saying " Why me? " and started saying " Why not me? " things changed. Okay, I'm off my soap box now. Hugs, TeriOn Sat, Feb 26, 2011 at 8:49 PM, Gloria <gadamscan@...> wrote: DonnaAs a rule, I agree with you 100%. I know it's all for a reason; but, some days I just wish I knew what that was. I've been dealing with this liver since 2004. Yes, thank heavens that I fought hard enough in 2009 that I can say that I don't have Hep C any longer. However, then there was the cancer and that will always hang over my head now. I really only whine very little and I certainly know that there is folks out there that have it a whole lot worse. My life is mostly in the Spiritual Power's hands and I just wait to be steered in the direction that I'm supposed to be on. Well, actually, it wouldn't do any good if I got in the way anyway. Usually I can screw things up pretty good, so it's best when I stay out of my own way.Gloria Reply to sender | Reply to group | Reply via web post | Start a New Topic Messages in this topic (2) Recent Activity: New Members 4 New Links 35 Visit Your Group Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 27, 2011 Report Share Posted February 27, 2011 Teri, hepc has shown me how strong i am & how much i really want my life. Blessed be marie--------- Sent from AT & T's Wireless network using Mobile Email - Re: [ ] What's the WHY? *You know, at the risk of sounding sappy.... oh Hell... I'm gonna do it anyway. I just HAVE to believe that we were given this virus for a reason. Those of you that have been on this forum long enough know about my " silver linings " those that have come on in the past 6 months to a year might not... I have to believe that something good comes out of everything. I just have to. When I sit down and think about my hep c hiccup and what it has done to me, I can find good stuff there. Really, I'm not trying to yank anybody's chain here. Steve and I brought this up to the group over a year ago.... I'm going to bring it up again because a lot of you haven't heard this before. * * * *Think about your hep c experience so far... I know it's a crummy experience for the most part BUT what have you learned about yourself because of it? What have you done differently because of it that has a good ending? Is it that maybe now you are taking the time to appreciate some things that before you overlooked or took for granted? Do you see family and friends in a different light? Sometimes for the good and sometimes you find out who your real friends are... that's a good thing. I found a side of me that I didn't know existed. Yes, my life is different now. Different in a whole lot of ways... financially, things pretty much suck but ya know what? There are people way worse off than we are right now.. We function on a different financial level than we are used to but it hasn't killed us. My hubs and I have gone thru things in the past 6 years that most couples never have to go thru. My poor hubs said " I do " and about 2 years later got " in sickness, for poorer and for worse " . But the man hasn't wavered one bit. He stood strong by my side the whole time. I really know not everyone can say that... My family.. wow. Some of them showed their true colors and we don't associate with them anymore.... less hassles and that's a plus too! And the rest of the family... stand right beside us... stronger than ever. * * * *I really think that everything happens for a reason. Maybe we needed to slow down a little so we could see what was going on. Reality check in a great big way. In my case, I found a cause. Hep c has come full circle for me, only now, I'm in control. And hopefully this book I am working on will bring us full circle financially as well. There is a reason. I don't think God gives us anything we can't handle. * * * *When I stopped saying " Why me? " and started saying " Why not me? " things changed.* * * *Okay, I'm off my soap box now. * * * *Hugs, Teri * On Sat, Feb 26, 2011 at 8:49 PM, Gloria <gadamscan@...> wrote: > > > Donna > > As a rule, I agree with you 100%. I know it's all for a reason; but, some > days I just wish I knew what that was. > > I've been dealing with this liver since 2004. Yes, thank heavens that I > fought hard enough in 2009 that I can say that I don't have Hep C any > longer. However, then there was the cancer and that will always hang over > my head now. I really only whine very little and I certainly know that > there is folks out there that have it a whole lot worse. > > My life is mostly in the Spiritual Power's hands and I just wait to be > steered in the direction that I'm supposed to be on. Well, actually, it > wouldn't do any good if I got in the way anyway. 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Guest guest Posted February 27, 2011 Report Share Posted February 27, 2011 Love your story. Put me on the list for your book.Sent from my Verizon Wireless BlackBerryFrom: Theresa Gottlieb <theresagottlieb@...>Sender: Date: Sat, 26 Feb 2011 21:06:24 -0600 < >Reply Subject: Re: [ ] What's the WHY? You know, at the risk of sounding sappy.... oh Hell... I'm gonna do it anyway. I just HAVE to believe that we were given this virus for a reason. Those of you that have been on this forum long enough know about my " silver linings " those that have come on in the past 6 months to a year might not... I have to believe that something good comes out of everything. I just have to. When I sit down and think about my hep c hiccup and what it has done to me, I can find good stuff there. Really, I'm not trying to yank anybody's chain here. Steve and I brought this up to the group over a year ago.... I'm going to bring it up again because a lot of you haven't heard this before. Think about your hep c experience so far... I know it's a crummy experience for the most part BUT what have you learned about yourself because of it? What have you done differently because of it that has a good ending? Is it that maybe now you are taking the time to appreciate some things that before you overlooked or took for granted? Do you see family and friends in a different light? Sometimes for the good and sometimes you find out who your real friends are... that's a good thing. I found a side of me that I didn't know existed. Yes, my life is different now. Different in a whole lot of ways... financially, things pretty much suck but ya know what? There are people way worse off than we are right now.. We function on a different financial level than we are used to but it hasn't killed us. My hubs and I have gone thru things in the past 6 years that most couples never have to go thru. My poor hubs said " I do " and about 2 years later got " in sickness, for poorer and for worse " . But the man hasn't wavered one bit. He stood strong by my side the whole time. I really know not everyone can say that... My family.. wow. Some of them showed their true colors and we don't associate with them anymore.... less hassles and that's a plus too! And the rest of the family... stand right beside us... stronger than ever. I really think that everything happens for a reason. Maybe we needed to slow down a little so we could see what was going on. Reality check in a great big way. In my case, I found a cause. Hep c has come full circle for me, only now, I'm in control. And hopefully this book I am working on will bring us full circle financially as well. There is a reason. I don't think God gives us anything we can't handle. When I stopped saying " Why me? " and started saying " Why not me? " things changed.Okay, I'm off my soap box now. Hugs,TeriOn Sat, Feb 26, 2011 at 8:49 PM, Gloria <gadamscan@...> wrote: DonnaAs a rule, I agree with you 100%. I know it's all for a reason; but, some days I just wish I knew what that was. I've been dealing with this liver since 2004. Yes, thank heavens that I fought hard enough in 2009 that I can say that I don't have Hep C any longer. However, then there was the cancer and that will always hang over my head now. I really only whine very little and I certainly know that there is folks out there that have it a whole lot worse.My life is mostly in the Spiritual Power's hands and I just wait to be steered in the direction that I'm supposed to be on. Well, actually, it wouldn't do any good if I got in theway anyway. Usually I can screw things up pretty good, so it's best when I stay out of my own way.GloriaReply to sender |Reply to group |Reply via web post |Start a New TopicMessages in this topic(2) Recent Activity:New Members4New Links35Visit Your Group Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 27, 2011 Report Share Posted February 27, 2011 It's funny... I started writing a book years ago... and then I stopped. Then back in November when I wound up with the hep c ambassador position they wanted a bio... they wanted to know about my life since my hep c diagnosis. They wanted 8 pages. So I started writing... 23 pages later I thought maybe I had gone too far... I sent them all 23 pages. This group I work with has a team of very skilled professional writers, they were impressed and several of them told me there was a book there and encouraged me to keep going with it. So I am. It's actually pretty healing too. You guys will be the first to know when it's done... or even halfway there! It's a work " in progress " that I have to get busy on! Hugs,Teri On Sat, Feb 26, 2011 at 9:47 PM, <dmgarr@...> wrote: Love your story. Put me on the list for your book.Sent from my Verizon Wireless BlackBerryFrom: Theresa Gottlieb <theresagottlieb@...> Sender: Date: Sat, 26 Feb 2011 21:06:24 -0600 < >Reply Subject: Re: [ ] What's the WHY? You know, at the risk of sounding sappy.... oh Hell... I'm gonna do it anyway. I just HAVE to believe that we were given this virus for a reason. Those of you that have been on this forum long enough know about my " silver linings " those that have come on in the past 6 months to a year might not... I have to believe that something good comes out of everything. I just have to. When I sit down and think about my hep c hiccup and what it has done to me, I can find good stuff there. Really, I'm not trying to yank anybody's chain here. Steve and I brought this up to the group over a year ago.... I'm going to bring it up again because a lot of you haven't heard this before. Think about your hep c experience so far... I know it's a crummy experience for the most part BUT what have you learned about yourself because of it? What have you done differently because of it that has a good ending? Is it that maybe now you are taking the time to appreciate some things that before you overlooked or took for granted? Do you see family and friends in a different light? Sometimes for the good and sometimes you find out who your real friends are... that's a good thing. I found a side of me that I didn't know existed. Yes, my life is different now. Different in a whole lot of ways... financially, things pretty much suck but ya know what? There are people way worse off than we are right now.. We function on a different financial level than we are used to but it hasn't killed us. My hubs and I have gone thru things in the past 6 years that most couples never have to go thru. My poor hubs said " I do " and about 2 years later got " in sickness, for poorer and for worse " . But the man hasn't wavered one bit. He stood strong by my side the whole time. I really know not everyone can say that... My family.. wow. Some of them showed their true colors and we don't associate with them anymore.... less hassles and that's a plus too! And the rest of the family... stand right beside us... stronger than ever. I really think that everything happens for a reason. Maybe we needed to slow down a little so we could see what was going on. Reality check in a great big way. In my case, I found a cause. Hep c has come full circle for me, only now, I'm in control. And hopefully this book I am working on will bring us full circle financially as well. There is a reason. I don't think God gives us anything we can't handle. When I stopped saying " Why me? " and started saying " Why not me? " things changed. Okay, I'm off my soap box now. Hugs, TeriOn Sat, Feb 26, 2011 at 8:49 PM, Gloria <gadamscan@...> wrote: DonnaAs a rule, I agree with you 100%. I know it's all for a reason; but, some days I just wish I knew what that was. I've been dealing with this liver since 2004. Yes, thank heavens that I fought hard enough in 2009 that I can say that I don't have Hep C any longer. However, then there was the cancer and that will always hang over my head now. I really only whine very little and I certainly know that there is folks out there that have it a whole lot worse. My life is mostly in the Spiritual Power's hands and I just wait to be steered in the direction that I'm supposed to be on. Well, actually, it wouldn't do any good if I got in the way anyway. Usually I can screw things up pretty good, so it's best when I stay out of my own way.Gloria Reply to sender | Reply to group | Reply via web post | Start a New Topic Messages in this topic (2) Recent Activity: New Members 4 New Links 35 Visit Your Group Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 27, 2011 Report Share Posted February 27, 2011 TeriWhat you say is all true!! No, I didn't necessarily want to learn anything more about myself; but, it can't be helped along the way with Hep C. I'd like to say that I appreciate everything more than I did before Hep C; but, truthfully, I still need to work on that some days. Think I might have gone along a whole lot longer, not really seeing family and friends in reality. Now, I treasure my aloneness far more than being overly open with everyone around me.Yup, I've lost a whole lot of trust; but, that is more, because I became aware that too many folks really don't have what it takes to be a true friend, in the times of crisis. So, as sad as it is, I just can't continue on as a Pollyanna anymore. I have very little trust left for most people around me. However, I am learning that the people that I cross paths with, that have had a life threatening disease, read me better than I do at times.I still believe that I contracted this virus for a reason, for sure! I am truly grateful that the medication has given me more time on this planet. Now, I want to make that time count for something. That's what I truly believe is the path before me!! Perhaps my spiritual Higher Power has been walking me down these paths to teach me to get ready for something. I just hope that I'm ready and that I know it when that something comes along.Gloria You know, at the risk of sounding sappy.... oh Hell... I'm gonna do it anyway. I just HAVE to believe that we were given this virus for a reason. Those of you that have been on this forum long enough know about my "silver linings" those that have come on in the past 6 months to a year might not... I have to believe that something good comes out of everything. I just have to. When I sit down and think about my hep c hiccup and what it has done to me, I can find good stuff there. Really, I'm not trying to yank anybody's chain here. Steve and I brought this up to the group over a year ago.... I'm going to bring it up again because a lot of you haven't heard this before. Think about your hep c experience so far... I know it's a crummy experience for the most part BUT what have you learned about yourself because of it? What have you done differently because of it that has a good ending? Is it that maybe now you are taking the time to appreciate some things that before you overlooked or took for granted? Do you see family and friends in a different light? Sometimes for the good and sometimes you find out who your real friends are... that's a good thing. I found a side of me that I didn't know existed. Yes, my life is different now. Different in a whole lot of ways... financially, things pretty much suck but ya know what? There are people way worse off than we are right now.. We function on a different financial level than we are used to but it hasn't killed us. My hubs and I have gone thru things in the past 6 years that most couples never have to go thru. My poor hubs said "I do" and about 2 years later got "in sickness, for poorer and for worse". But the man hasn't wavered one bit. He stood strong by my side the whole time. I really know not everyone can say that... My family.. wow. Some of them showed their true colors and we don't associate with them anymore.... less hassles and that's a plus too! And the rest of the family... stand right beside us... stronger than ever. I really think that everything happens for a reason. Maybe we needed to slow down a little so we could see what was going on. Reality check in a great big way. In my case, I found a cause. Hep c has come full circle for me, only now, I'm in control. And hopefully this book I am working on will bring us full circle financially as well. There is a reason. I don't think God gives us anything we can't handle. When I stopped saying "Why me?" and started saying "Why not me?" things changed. Okay, I'm off my soap box now. Hugs, Teri Reply to sender | Reply to group | Reply via web post | Start a New Topic Messages in this topic (2) Recent Activity: New Members 4 New Links 35 Visit Your Group Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 27, 2011 Report Share Posted February 27, 2011 TeriYou are absolutely right and I know it well. I really don't believe the $$ bring happiness on it's own. Even your friend must be giving up a whole lot, in order to have the lifestyle she thinks is necessary.Friends that I had a few years ago, were both Drs. I don't think that you could meet more down to earth people if you tried. One Sunday, Rose and I were having coffee in the dining room of one of the resorts around here. Don't remember what we were talking about; but, she says "Gloria, Pete and I are just broke on a different level". Yes, their 3 boys went to private school and all that, but like she said - I've had to give up too much of their childhood for my work. At that time, she was down to 3 days a week and Pete was working on getting there too.The other day, I had enough money that I paid the only two bills I ever have, entirely. It felt so good not to be in panic mood. That's all it takes for me these days. As long as the bills are paid, I'm good. I'm broke; but, it feels OK.Now where I'm going to find the money to put into my truck, since the gas prices rose so much, is going to mean a real lifestyle change. But, I've been threatening to do that for over 6 months now. I've got enough to keep me busy, work wise, for at least the next 3 months, right in this RV.Actually, now that you've got my head turned that way, I can think of a whole lot of blessings I have. For instance, the very good relationship that I have with my son. No, we couldn't always afford to buy him everything he wanted; but, was that a bad thing?? I truly believe that our kids need our attention, more than they need another expensive techy thing. Whenever we are having a good talk and he mentions anything about his childhood, he never speaks about the things he didn't get.You are so right about the fact that either one of us is actually still sucking wind is almost a miracle!! Even just last year, at this time, I was getting real concerned about when they were going to cut the cancer out of me. Now, here it is another year and I'm still here and the cancer is gone for now.I really have a problem with people thinking that they are better than someone else, just because they have money!! My step-daughter is exactly that way. Then I realize how many of her family saw her in true form, after her father passed away. She did not impress any of them and money could not buy that back. The chances of her being asked to come for a family thing, that her Dad and I used to go to often, is about nil!! So, with her hauty nose up in the air, she tripped over the very things that I think are far more important.Yup, I did learn who my real family and real friends are through all of this. One might say, that I've literally swept the garbage right out of my life. Now it's me, the dog, the cat and my computer. But, it's good.Gloria Gloria, it all goes back to the same thing.. we have to realize that it could be worse. Remember me telling you about that so called friend of mine... the one I've known forever. She just went to Panama on a mission trip doing dental work in the remotest of spots. I saw the pics of the kids with no teeth at 7 years of age... just black spots where their teeth used to be. I can't help but wonder, did this trip change her at all? Did she realize that not everyone has 3 homes and a 2 million dollar a year career? This woman can write a check for anything she wants but you know what? As much as she thinks she is better than me, I can guarantee you I am happier than her. Yes, her kids are in the best schools and I'm sure their Christmas tree had so many presents under it that took days to open them all but... she's the one I think about when I say "just one diagnosis away from financial ruin." And she wouldn't know how to handle it. I've gone from living well to just making it sorta... but just making it sorta is okay. Today sucked pain wise. I went out to get my husband a birthday gift... I was going to 2 stores... I made it to one... His birthday is monday and I still didn't get his Tiger Woods game for the Xbox. I went into the craft store to get something to make a hep c bracelet with... I was in there for 5 minutes max. The pain got so intense so quickly that I never made it to Game Stop. Came home and took a Norco. BUT I'm here to feel the pain. If I hadn't been diagnosed when I was, I would have gone into end stage liver disease very quickly and probably died before the 's figured it out. Somebody wasn't done with me yet. I know there is more I have to do. I've come full circle with the hep c position and maybe that and the book are what I need to accomplish.... Hell, maybe the book will be good and I'll be able to get that little house in Key West and be warm all winter! Who knows. The friends and family... I'm glad I know who I can count on now. I believe in karma... some people are in for a rude awakening one day. It's on them. We just have to figure it out. Hugs,Teri On Sat, Feb 26, 2011 at 10:17 PM, Gloria <gadamscan@...> wrote: Reply to sender | Reply to group | Reply via web post | Start a New Topic Messages in this topic (2) Recent Activity: New Members 4 New Links 35 Visit Your Group Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 27, 2011 Report Share Posted February 27, 2011 You know Gloria, just a few months ago, this so called friend of mine and I went out to dinner for our birthdays... we were born just 3 days apart and have celebrated our birthday's together for most of our lives... we make it a point to do dinner, just us every year. This past year will be the last one I do with her. She said something at dinner that disturbed me and she doesn't even realize what she said. Before I tell you what she said, let me give you some background... we grew up across the street from each other. Her parents were struggling to fit into a neighborhood that was way out of their league. My dad could have bought and sold them 25 times without blinking. Her dad worked 3 jobs to try to keep them in the neighborhood. Operative word " try " . Fast forward to now. She makes money hand over fist. She is a dentist that doesn't take insurance. I have no idea how she is still making it in this economy but whatever... anyway, she was telling her partner about me that day we were going out to dinner and she told her that if her partner met me she would not think that her and I were friends... that I was nothing like her (now I say thank God to that) and that everything about us was different, from education to way of life..... funny, she has no idea that I have 2 college degrees... and that her and I were the unlikeliest of friends... In my mind that was a smack across the face. She basically said that she was better than me .... I told this to my hubs who said and I quote " If we met them today for the first time in a bar the conversation would end within 5 minutes. " And he is right. She has changed so much and put herself in a league that most people can't compete with. All her friends have money and expensive houses and brand new cars and wear designer clothes. Ya know what? I am not that kind of person. Even when I had money I didn't flaunt it. Her mom passed away this past summer... I thought that would have humbled her a bit. Nope. She did just realize though that her husband of over 20 years now has been " hiding " behind a business that didn't make any money all this time... he has basically been spending his days at the golf course and riding on her coat tails. At this point, I say GOOD FOR HIM! Money can't buy you happiness... but in her case... I think she's trying. I'd like to see her face when she realizes it doesn't work. Hugs,Teri On Sat, Feb 26, 2011 at 11:30 PM, Gloria <gadamscan@...> wrote: TeriYou are absolutely right and I know it well. I really don't believe the $$ bring happiness on it's own. Even your friend must be giving up a whole lot, in order to have the lifestyle she thinks is necessary. Friends that I had a few years ago, were both Drs. I don't think that you could meet more down to earth people if you tried. One Sunday, Rose and I were having coffee in the dining room of one of the resorts around here. Don't remember what we were talking about; but, she says " Gloria, Pete and I are just broke on a different level " . Yes, their 3 boys went to private school and all that, but like she said - I've had to give up too much of their childhood for my work. At that time, she was down to 3 days a week and Pete was working on getting there too.The other day, I had enough money that I paid the only two bills I ever have, entirely. It felt so good not to be in panic mood. That's all it takes for me these days. As long as the bills are paid, I'm good. I'm broke; but, it feels OK. Now where I'm going to find the money to put into my truck, since the gas prices rose so much, is going to mean a real lifestyle change. But, I've been threatening to do that for over 6 months now. I've got enough to keep me busy, work wise, for at least the next 3 months, right in this RV. Actually, now that you've got my head turned that way, I can think of a whole lot of blessings I have. For instance, the very good relationship that I have with my son. No, we couldn't always afford to buy him everything he wanted; but, was that a bad thing?? I truly believe that our kids need our attention, more than they need another expensive techy thing. Whenever we are having a good talk and he mentions anything about his childhood, he never speaks about the things he didn't get. You are so right about the fact that either one of us is actually still sucking wind is almost a miracle!! Even just last year, at this time, I was getting real concerned about when they were going to cut the cancer out of me. Now, here it is another year and I'm still here and the cancer is gone for now. I really have a problem with people thinking that they are better than someone else, just because they have money!! My step-daughter is exactly that way. Then I realize how many of her family saw her in true form, after her father passed away. She did not impress any of them and money could not buy that back. The chances of her being asked to come for a family thing, that her Dad and I used to go to often, is about nil!! So, with her hauty nose up in the air, she tripped over the very things that I think are far more important.Yup, I did learn who my real family and real friends are through all of this. One might say, that I've literally swept the garbage right out of my life. Now it's me, the dog, the cat and my computer. But, it's good. Gloria._,___ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 27, 2011 Report Share Posted February 27, 2011 Hi, Sorry to butt in but I now know that even though i just have the antibody for HEP C, I have the pain that many of you all do. I think that is so strange too. WHy if I don't have the disease and fought it off, do I have so much pain in the muscles and some joints?? And why do i feel so sick all the time? I guess i will never know since i have been to 16 doctors and not one can tell me why. Bek TeriWhat you say is all true!! No, I didn't necessarily want to learn anything more about myself; but, it can't be helped along the way with Hep C. I'd like to say that I appreciate everything more than I did before Hep C; but, truthfully, I still need to work on that some days. Think I might have gone along a whole lot longer, not really seeing family and friends in reality. Now, I treasure my aloneness far more than being overly open with everyone around me.Yup, I've lost a whole lot of trust; but, that is more, because I became aware that too many folks really don't have what it takes to be a true friend, in the times of crisis. So, as sad as it is, I just can't continue on as a Pollyanna anymore. I have very little trust left for most people around me. However, I am learning that the people that I cross paths with, that have had a life threatening disease, read me better than I do at times.I still believe that I contracted this virus for a reason, for sure! I am truly grateful that the medication has given me more time on this planet. Now, I want to make that time count for something. That's what I truly believe is the path before me!! Perhaps my spiritual Higher Power has been walking me down these paths to teach me to get ready for something. I just hope that I'm ready and that I know it when that something comes along.Gloria Reply to sender | Reply to group | Reply via web post | Start a New Topic Messages in this topic (2) Recent Activity: New Members 4 New Links 35 Visit Your Group Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 27, 2011 Report Share Posted February 27, 2011 Bek,It really sounds like the pain you are having is from Fibromyalgia. That can strike with or without ever having hep c. It is an autoimmune disease. It is brought on by a serious stress in your life. You say you have been to 16 doctors.. Are you considering the alternative medicine practitioners that you have seen doctors or is this 16 MD's that have not been able to help you? Part of the problem is that MD's usually will not work with alternative medicine. They don't believe in it. If they have a patient that is using alternative medicine they usually back away. You can't go to a doctor and say you have Leaky Gut Syndrome because the medical profession does not acknowledge that as a real diagnosis. In this case there is no such thing as the best of both worlds because one group does not play well with the other. I have said this in the past to you.. If you want to find a doctor that can diagnose you and take you seriously and treat you, you are going to have to drop all the charlatans you are dealing with. Everything you have told us about the alternative protocols you have gone thru and been diagnosed with has been shady at best. You gave me the names of lab tests that are not real medical lab tests. They have no value. They are not approved by the FDA or CLIA or recognized by State and/or Federal Medical Boards and Licensing. You need to start fresh with a doctor and let go of all this other stuff that you've been doing. It's not helping you. Here is my point on this... If what you were doing with all this alternative lifestyle/medicine was working, you'd feel better.. You still feel bad, you are still in pain so obviously it's not working. Time to put it aside and try a real doctor. Hugs,TeriOn Sun, Feb 27, 2011 at 12:50 PM, Hill <pooderdog@...> wrote: Hi, Sorry to butt in but I now know that even though i just have the antibody for HEP C, I have the pain that many of you all do. I think that is so strange too. WHy if I don't have the disease and fought it off, do I have so much pain in the muscles and some joints?? And why do i feel so sick all the time? I guess i will never know since i have been to 16 doctors and not one can tell me why. Bek TeriWhat you say is all true!! No, I didn't necessarily want to learn anything more about myself; but, it can't be helped along the way with Hep C. I'd like to say that I appreciate everything more than I did before Hep C; but, truthfully, I still need to work on that some days. Think I might have gone along a whole lot longer, not really seeing family and friends in reality. Now, I treasure my aloneness far more than being overly open with everyone around me. Yup, I've lost a whole lot of trust; but, that is more, because I became aware that too many folks really don't have what it takes to be a true friend, in the times of crisis. So, as sad as it is, I just can't continue on as a Pollyanna anymore. I have very little trust left for most people around me. However, I am learning that the people that I cross paths with, that have had a life threatening disease, read me better than I do at times.I still believe that I contracted this virus for a reason, for sure! I am truly grateful that the medication has given me more time on this planet. Now, I want to make that time count for something. That's what I truly believe is the path before me!! Perhaps my spiritual Higher Power has been walking me down these paths to teach me to get ready for something. I just hope that I'm ready and that I know it when that something comes along. Gloria Reply to sender | Reply to group | Reply via web post | Start a New Topic Messages in this topic (2) Recent Activity: New Members 4 New Links 35 Visit Your Group Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 28, 2011 Report Share Posted February 28, 2011 I have been to 13 MD's and 3 Naturopath/Alternative dr.s. All the nd's were in other states. Only one did those tests that found what i have. The only thing he offered was a diet change. So i stopped going, i knew i needed more. I am now going to a Wellness coach. He is looking for a place where i xcan get Iv mag,. and Vit C. WE have few places here. He plans to have me follow an oral chelation method. DMSA. RIght now he has changed two supplements, and told me to up my mag., and eat fermented cabbage. It provides good probiotics. I also add indian spices ya'll never heard of which are supp. to fight candida and it helps move the food from my stomach quicker too. I use a lot of ginger too. He told me to lessen my exercise. I only walk for 30 minutes now. Which to me is no time at all. So, who knows if these things will ever help. I do know it can take up to two yrs. to heal LGS. I only eat whole, organic, hormone, and antibiotic free foods. NO sugar, no white foods, all since August last yr. I doubt i will ever get well. I feel sick all the time and get exhausted so easily. And of course hurt all over. Actually i have pretty much just given up. I go to him to make my father happy. But i am really not thinkin i will ever be well or feel well ever again. Most days i want to die. I am severly depressed and anxious. I don't care abt anything anymore. I have given up. The tests were real tests. Heavy metals test, Amino Acids test and Organic Acid test. They showed i have Candida, Leaky GUt Syndrome, mercury, lead and cadmium toxicity, and a damaged endocrine system. THis is all what the naturopath dr. told me. I also have food allergies and an allergy to mold. I also have too little magnesium, Vit. C, and Boron, and chromium. This is what the tests revealed. Why not believe that? I don't understand. TeriWhat you say is all true!! No, I didn't necessarily want to learn anything more about myself; but, it can't be helped along the way with Hep C. I'd like to say that I appreciate everything more than I did before Hep C; but, truthfully, I still need to work on that some days. Think I might have gone along a whole lot longer, not really seeing family and friends in reality. Now, I treasure my aloneness far more than being overly open with everyone around me.Yup, I've lost a whole lot of trust; but, that is more, because I became aware that too many folks really don't have what it takes to be a true friend, in the times of crisis. So, as sad as it is, I just can't continue on as a Pollyanna anymore. I have very little trust left for most people around me. However, I am learning that the people that I cross paths with, that have had a life threatening disease, read me better than I do at times.I still believe that I contracted this virus for a reason, for sure! I am truly grateful that the medication has given me more time on this planet. Now, I want to make that time count for something. That's what I truly believe is the path before me!! Perhaps my spiritual Higher Power has been walking me down these paths to teach me to get ready for something. I just hope that I'm ready and that I know it when that something comes along.Gloria Reply to sender | Reply to group | Reply via web post | Start a New Topic Messages in this topic (2) Recent Activity: New Members 4 New Links 35 Visit Your Group Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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