'BELIEF' - is how we get there

[Guest guest]

Hi everybody

I personally believe that there is a reason we all walk down the paths that we do in life.

I guess we are searching for the 'real' us, one could say.

And we wont find that 'real' us, until we have walked all the paths that have been laid out for us in life.

When we are born, that person is not the 'real' us, because we have so many experiances yet to look forward to, that will mold our characters.

We think that we have found the 'real' us when we reach adulthood, but years later we look back and realize how much we have changed.

Even when we grow truely old, we think that we are set in our ways, and that this person is our true selves.

But is it true?

I dont know what happens to us after our physical body dies, but I do not believe that the journey ends there.

I am pretty sure that our spiritual body [self awareness] goes on and on for a long time, after we lay down our physical body.

This has nothing to do with religion, but rather maybe more with science.

My old Dad has been one of my greatest mentors, and he has always told me that our minds are far stronger than anything we can find in this physical universe.

I personally have proved this to myself many times in the past, when I was pretty sure that I would not be able to do something due to my doubts and fears, yet somehow I did them.

Like teaching myself to play a musical instrument, or to build a house.

No one sat me down and gave me these abilitys, yet somehow I ended up with them.

Granted the road was long and hard, and took a lot of self effort.

But I did it.

I wonder sometimes why we end up with some disease like Hepatitis and/or AIDS, or any other health issue.

Sometimes I want to cry out - 'why me God'?

But I dont, partly because what good would it do?

Im stuck on this path, and theres no getting off of it right now.

I cant go backwards, so the only way left for me is forwards, and seeing it through.

That alone forces me to change, and become ever closer to my true self, I guess - step by step.

I look back to 3 years ago when the doctor told me that I have HCV.

Man alive, how I have changed since then, in every imaginable way.

Back then I was wrapped up in ignorance and fear about what this disease ment for my future.

I was so sure that I was going to suffer horribly and die - but I havent yet.

I couldnt really believe that it was the end of myself, because all my life, I have been having too much fun.

I have grown used to my body, and have really enjoyed my life.

I love the me that I have been, and who I am today.

I love and am amazed at how I have grown, and what I have experianced.

I have truely learned a lot.

I was sitting on my porch just a bit ago in the sunshine.

The flowers are blossomming, the birds singing and playing, a bug flew in my mouth. LOL

It is a beautiful day here, but I found myself with this dark cloud hanging over my head.

'What is going to become of me now that I have HCV'?

My doctors wont let me treat with Interferon because of my damaged heart, and using Interferon is the only way to cure HCV at this stage of known medicine.

Then a voice, or a thought popped into my head.

'BELIEVE' don, and it will become so.

It was weird - just like that, suddenly the dark cloud in my head wasnt so dark anymore.

The dragon that was trying to rear its ugli head got stepped on.

I still have no answers, and I cannot see the future, but somehow now I feel that it is all going to be ok, no matter what happens.

I thought I would share this little story with everyone, and tell you all - 'stand strong, and BELIEVE'.

You each have many good things yet to come in your lives.

I am sure of this.

love and big hugs

don in ks