Thank you Patty, Cricket, , Lena and Dee...

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Thank you to all of the ladies that have responded already. It is

amazing to be able to have this support and direct information from

real people-not from brochures or studies that are paid for by the

same people that have a particular interest in the result!!

I think I really am starting to change my mind but in a way there

is a sense of sadness. I guess like we all know there is always

that feeling that if we only look better ..or if we are " perfect " we

will have more confidence our lives will be better...Yet the things

we do to achieve that do not necessarily bring what is expected. We

just have to change the way we think about ourselves and not accept

the daily bombardment of " fake images "

On another note, my own mother had to have silicone implants (shell

and fill) put in 32 years ago due to them taking out her mammary

glands because of " benign " tumors. Her right breast got infected at

6 months (they found some staph bacteria in her chest cavity) and

had to be taken out but her left breast implant stayed intact. 32

years later having had a silicone breast implant my mother has

never had ANY health problems has more energy that people 30 years

younger and is in the best of health. She is 63 years old now and

has never complained of anything. Her implant got a little hard but

not too bad.

Makes me wonder whether if I go by genetics I could have the same

experience-no adverse effects-but there is no guarantee

On the other hand I could go the route someone else suggested and

get them anyway but at the first sign of any deterioration in my

health get them taken out

Since I only plan to get a very moderate implant -maybe a 270- cc

fill under the muscle- my breast should not be terribly disfigured

or saggy if it has to be taken out (I would hope)

Isn't this all crazy?? I sound somewhat ridiculous to myself that

in some way I a willing to justify or take that risk.

I have lived 30 years without implants. Based on what other people

tell me I am a very attractive person -I have a nice figure-my

breasts are probably an A to small B. I am not married and do not

have a serious boyfriend. I have to ask myself whether it would

make any difference to someone I may fall in love with

whether I fit the " image " that gets shown to men everywhere

What is sad is the thought that even for some people who got them

they ended up losing their spouses afterwards or maybe were to ill

to even date! It is ironic.

Anyway I have a lot of thinking to do this weekend. If I cancel I

want to do it early next week so that the surgeon can have time to

schedule someone else.

Thanks again all of you for your thoughts

CJ