Self Defeating behaviors - Do I want to live?

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Hi my name is ,

I have been semi-part the group for over a year now but struggling, and alot

of members say it takes years to " get it " meaning " Follow Bee's diet to the

tee - no cheats " .

My father just suffered a stroke, we are super stressed here, I know Bee's

diet is the answer...but why do I have these self defeating behaviors,

eating the wrong things.

I feel I need therapy to unleash the pain, all that is keeping me from

respecting my body, where is my will to live?

Anyone have any thoughts?