self-esteem or self-confidence?

[Guest guest]

Hello!

Excuse me - I have a " language " -question. To me it´s a difference between

self-esteem and self-confidence, is it that for you? To me a high

self-esteem means that you think about yourself as an important person who

others have to count with - in our case despite CMT for example. In that

case I don’t think I have so much trouble with my self-esteem. But with

the self-confidence it´s worse - especially when I was young. I thought of

my self as a very ugly and bad person with a weird way to walk who none

ever would like or love. It has been better though even if I still from

time to time feel I have a quite bad self-confidence. It was a time when I

really wondered why I had got such bad self-confidence and in my mind I

blamed my parents. Now I think the cause is a mixture where CMT is one of

the parts. To get the diagnose when I was 33 has helped me to a better

self-confidence - I know now I’m not tired and clumsy just because I

don’t care or is lazy – but I don´t think I ever have looked upon myself

as a worthless person –like one with a bad self-esteem. But I think this

thing with my bad self-confidence really has effected my life in a

negative way.

Oh so many words – does anyone understand what I mean (I hardly understand

myself)?

Regards Rose-Marie from Sweden