RE: [SPAM] Karma

[Guest guest]

I believe in God and I think God permits

illness and evil in the world to encourage everyone to take time to think of

Him.  When things go too smoothly we tend to forget about God and when we see

things go bad we are encouraged to think about God.  The message may not be

directed at the person or people who suffer, but to those who are aware of the

suffering.  I don’t look at it as punishment so much as a wake-up call.

I’m sorry that you have been chosen

by God to be a vehicle of His message to others to turn to God.  I don’t

think it is punishment for anything you have done or failed to do, but is a

message for others (and also for you).  I am sorry that you have suffered so

much and I will pray that God relieve your suffering.  God bless.

From: Rheumatoid Arthritis [mailto:Rheumatoid Arthritis ] On Behalf Of newnichol

Sent: Thursday, July 26, 2007 6:56

AM

Rheumatoid Arthritis

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Karma

Does anyone out there believe in Karma? I just do not

know in which

lifetime I went very wrong. I must have been Jack the Ripper in

another life and I hope that each since has gotten just a little bit

better so maybe one day I can come back as something beautiful and

carefree...like a butterfly.

I thought that I had been living a good life...a right life. I have

always been good to people and animals. I went to college and then

law school. I thought my life was just beginning. That is

where...somewhere...somehow...it took a major left turn.

In 1997 I started to get very, very sick and I went everywhere...and

I mean everywhere and no one could tell me what was wrong. Four

years later, still undiagnosed and by this time in a wheelchair, I

just wanted to know what was wrong. I didn't even care if it would

be something that would result in my death...I just wanted to know.

Finally...I was diagnosed with a rare neurological disorder called

Startle Disease. Little did I know that was the beginning of the end

for me.

No...Startle Disease does not kill you but I have been though

hospitalization after hospitalization since then.

Than April of last year I got a PE (Pulmonary Embolism) and was

hospitalized for that. In june I had to have my gall bladder removed

and I finally thought I was done. How much can one person take?

Not to mention that in March and April my mom...my best friend...went

into a coma because she just stopped breathing. They did not think

for the longest time that she would ever come off. Thankfully she

did.

Then this past November I went to the ER for a migraine. The IV left

me with a systemic staph infection that was MRSA. I had to have

surgery on my hand to save it.

Since November I have known that something has just not been right

with my health. Now I know what it is...RA. I am told that it has

been caused my the MRSA. So I went from a migraine to MRSA and now

RA on top of my Startle Disease.

How much can one person take? What on God's Green Earth did I EVER

do to deserve all the suffering I have gone through? I just cannot

figure it out and am tired of trying.

I give. UNCLE for Christ's sake! I am sorry but my shoulders are

just not this big! Do you think all of those butterflies were once

where I am now?

Please just let this end and let me be a butterfly!