Words 04/06/10

[Guest guest]

Truely, this is the hardest thing to put into words;

How inside I feel like I have lived and died

so many times in one lifetime.

Countless tragedies, cloudy days,

and the cold empty feeling of being lost and alone.

Questioning life to an unanswering sky.

Now, finially, through you, I got a hint and a taste

of real happiness. A sense of purpose and belonging.

Many times in many ways I thought I knew love,

and they each turned out to be like shapes in the clouds-

All imagination and blown away by the wind.

They were... they were not you.

I have looked long and deeply into your eyes.

Savored your embraces, locked in the moment,

and tasted your kisses, each born from your heart.

I surendered my very soul to you.

Yet truely, the hardest thing for you to put into words

is the three words; "I love you",

even though I have affirmed mine over and over

to the point now where I must simply stay quiet and smile.

In honesty, I haven't a clue who or what we are together.

I do not know the courtship rituals and such.

Yet you gave yourself, guided by your heart, to me,

and I denied God my soul and placed it at your feet.

....And here we stand, seperated by distance, fear,

or who knows what.

As I continue my journey of living and dying over and over.

Lost and alone.

-Randy