HELP: Very sick; fundraising to find a safe living situation...

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Hi, all. Just had a really bad glue/formaldehyde exposure @ the Income Suppor

tDivision and am literally bumping in to everything. Need to fundrais, ^ fast to

get away from tis woman that's making me really physically sick by constantly

emotionally abusing me. I don't get Medicaid here, & won't qualify for cash

assistance for 6 months, so it's urgent that I get finnancial help to pay for

rent, gas etc. The mimimum I can bring ot the table for rent is about

$100/month, & I also have no money for gas, so am hoping some individuals can

help w/ $100-150 per month for rent + gas, as I'll neeed to travel to find

another place to stay. I also cannot tolerate the water in NM, so have to by

spring water, which automatically uses up another $50/month on my food stamps,

my only income. Please help if you can. Thaks very much If you have a few

minutes, LONG EXPLANATION BELOW: 

Hello, fellow EHSers. I am in an untenable situation and

need financial help. I  sent in my SSI

Appeal forms & moved to New Mexico on Aug. 1, escaping Smart Meters for what

I expect to be about a year or so. I really

like the enviro here, but am being

psychologically tortured by the person I’m staying with. Other than food

stamps, I’m completely financially dependent on a very unstable and

emotionally

abusive person. (IF YOU KNOW WHO THIS PERSON IS, PLEASE DO NOT DISCLOSE HER

NAME PUBLICLY). I’m very ill after 10 days of this abuse, and have had a fever

of about 103 for the last 4 days b/c I can’t get any sleep, digest my food,

walk around when I want to, eat when I need to etc. I’ve been unable to treat

my Lyme (or anything else) for the last 6-8 months b/c my folks can’t afford

any more supplements, herbs etc.

I’m living outdoors w/ a person who

berates me all day and wakes me up in the middle of the night to spend hours

giving me “suggestions†about how to behave. I can’t sleep b/c she loudly

resents me every time I sit or lie down. She forced me to give her my last $40,

(the most and only $ I’ve had for 6 months), for medicine for her dogs, &

when I said I didn’t have any more money beyond that, she accused “Don’t

lie to

me!†She blames me for EVERY repercussion of my temporary financial

dependence,

even going so far as to say that my energy is making her dogs sick, and that,

even when I’m sleeping silently, I’m somehow preventing her from sleeping.

Then she cries and apologizes a day or so later,

then the cycle begins again. She’s explosively irascible, and flips out when I

can’t intuit her moods and act according to her whims, expecting me to sit in

complete silence so she can sleep, regardless of time of day or my own needs

(food, bathroom etc.) She accuses me of not listening and of me forcing her to

repeat herself, when in reality, she often assumes she’s said something aloud

(an instruction, a doctor’s contact info, advice on disability app. process),

when she merely thought it. All of

this is b/c she’s extremely noise &

light sensitive, & noise quickly exhausts her both cognitively and

physically. It’s like torture for her when I walk around, zip zippers, and use

plastic bags, flashlights etc. My grandfather died of ALS on the morning of Aug.

8. Later that night, she woke me up & kept me awake until 3 a.m.,

repeatedly asking me if I was “retarded,†how it could be that no one had

noticed that I had cognitive & developmental disabilities, and saying that

I was now in “boot camp†and there was no need to ask questions, only follow

orders. I haven’t even gotten a chance to grieve for my grandfather, b/c

neither

my mind nor body can get a break from this person.

Neither of us realized how much

trouble she’d have living w/ another person, & although she feels bad about

this, she’s unable to stop her behavior. She paid for my plane ticket out

here,

offering it generously as a gift, and after about 8 days here, she began

demanding the money back for the ticket, as well as the gas money she used to

pick me up and the food she’s bought for us so far, totaling $700. She told me

yesterday I had to pay the rent & phone bill (outdoor landline on a gravel

cul-de-sac) for the next 3 months, then she fled to a national forest for the

next week, leaving me w/ insufficient food & no transportation. She watches

& criticizes everything I do, as if, at any moment, I’m going to

spontaneously produce the money I owe her. It’s going to take me 6 months

to qualify for the $200 I can get in “general assistance†through Income

Support

Division. That means that I’ll have to use at least ½ my food stamps to pay

for rent, gas etc. and will be left with only $60-100/month for food, which

is totally insufficient for a person like me who has malabsorption and is

chronically hungry.

Another stress is that I can barely

tolerate her car & she never has the energy to drive it. She’ll plan to

make the 15 min. drive to town, but then it takes her 5 days to muster up the

energy. I can’t drive her car b/c it’s a standard & it’s so moldy that I

have to be on O2 w/ my head out the window to ride in it. My parents are

currently scraping together the funds to get my car out here, (even though

it’s

falling apart and needs $1300 work), to enable me to get to a legal aid lawyer

& get some time away from this woman. This is a HUGE expense for them and

they’re

unable to offer me any help w/ gas, food, rent etc. I’ve explained my situ.

repeatedly

& in detail to extended family & friends as well, and NO ONE has come

forward to help, even tho they’ve all kindly sent telepathic hugs &

positive energy. I’m hoping some individuals in the chronic illness

community can help me w/ $100 to $150 per month for the next 7 months, so that

I can bring SOMETHING to the table for rent, otherwise I’ll have to trade all

my food stamps for rent & gas,

& won’t have any food. There’s some kind of food pantry thing every

Saturday, but I’m often in the woods & have no way of getting there, & am

told the selection/availability of organic produce & gluten-free, soy free

stuff is pretty limited.    

I really like NM & know I can

eventually find safe housing here, but it’s a long process. Both I and the

woman I’m staying with had previously agreed that I’d be financially

dependent

on her for several months, & that sharing a small amt. of my food stamps w/

her would be compensation enough. That agreement dissolved when she found out

that she had to teach me a few basic things: stringing up a tarp, keeping food

cool in the NM sun etc. She found out she does not have the patience to

instruct, and truly did not think things would be this difficult for her. The

reason I can be forgiving toward her is that she’s just as disabled as I am,

& cannot cognitively process many of her own thoughts or physically meet

many of her own needs. Unfortunately, my body cannot handle the stress of her

constant

abuse. It’s just shutting down w/ exhaustion & pain & fever, & I’m

now almost completely cortically blind in my right eye, from all the stress,

hunger,

seizures, & loss of sleep. If you or anyone you know would be willing to

provide any monthly financial

support, I’d very much appreciate it. My Paypal is thru this e-mail

address. Please e-mail me privately at necessejamais@...

if you’d be willing to help.

 

Love & blessings,

Elysia