feeling alone and misunderstood again to the nonasthmatics

[Guest guest]

I am sorry, I need to write here. I feel trapped and noone in my

immediate world understands

fresh cut grass sets my asthma off. Scented candles. My family has

expressed nondiscreetly their annoyance of this sensitivity.

I knew my dad was cutting the grass this AM. I had the mask, he said

give it up, get real. I knew then, it would be best to leave the

premises and return later. I did that.

I learned he does not empty the lawnmover bag. Rather has the blade

low to the ground so the clippings remain behind.

My mom, she does not have the scented candle but a glade plug in. My

eyes itched so badly I wanted to gouge them out.

The rescue inhaler was working OT. I called my dr because I was

concerned. He said go to the nebulzer. As I was sitting here doing

the machine my mom comes in to tell me to get real. No one has

allergies this bad. I moved two years ago and it is impossible to be

this allergic. She ordered me to stop all medications. I politely

told her that she was not an MD, not was she certified in any field

of medicine. I added that the fact I am on xolair is to cut down on

the meds but right now, the dr's are still working on getting the

asthma under control. Again. I Was told to give it up, I have had

asthma since I was 3. I should know and control it by now. It does

not matter to her that the asthma does not stay the same

I was slashed down, diminished and felt like I know nothing. She said

she is placing a call to my dr. She can, but she won't get any info

out of him. I am sure she and my dad are concerned, they just express

it in a different manner.

I more or less gave up stating how I feel, the condition, etc because

they do not understand.

It is hard feeling this sick and feeling alone in a house so large. I

wish they would hear me and try to understand. But they don't. So, I

had to vent here.

THanks for reading