Guest guest Posted September 9, 2007 Report Share Posted September 9, 2007 What a heart-felt message. I KNOW you will feel better with Xolair. Don't beat yourself up about your past. You did it and that is behind you. Focus the rest of your life on creating a stronger body and new relationships. When we know to do better, we do. You encouraged me to do better as well. --- In , " in.breath " <in.breath@...> wrote: > > I have to call an 800# about the " prescription my doctor called in > for me. " I sent in a form to a 3rd party liason who works with the > insurance company, and I think I passed. I have had asthma all my > live, 8 nasal polypectomies and sinus surgeries starting from when I > was 12 and I am on advair 50/500, pulmicort inhaler, intal inhaler, > albuteral inhaler and nebulizer, singulair, claritin and over the > counter bronkaid. I have been on prednisone for most of my life and > have not been successful transferring over to the oral steroids. I > contantly wheeze and when I had my latest PFT I got the sigh and the > look from my new pulmoologist. I am a recovering addict and smoked > cigarettes and pot cumulatively for 16 years and I am 47 years old, > and I hate myself for compromising my health. > > When I had asthma attacks as a child, my parents did not obtain > medical treatment for me until the last moment possible, thinking > that I would " get through it " or " snap out if it. " I had to suffer > a long time before I got relief, and I thought I was going to die. > This was in the day of the vapor tent and IV medications. My asthma > caused a lot of resentment and anger and tension because god forbid > my parents would have to pay attention to me. I remember my father > making me rake leaves with him outside when I was 9 or 10, and > knowing that I would start to wheeze, the total fear that came over > me when I did and the long time it took me to stop raking, fearing > that I would incur my father's criticism. When I couldn't take it > anymore and had to stop, he told me that I was giving up and that I > was lazy. Sorry for the long post. I probably need another > group for this part of it. The older I get the more I realize the > extent of the abuse, and while I have come a long way, I know that I > have a ways to go to have peace of mind. Maybe xolair will help me > to have a better life. I am clean and sober now one year, have > seperated permanently from my family of origin and want to go > dancing. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 9, 2007 Report Share Posted September 9, 2007 Unfortunately, some of us have parents who undermined our health, consciously or unconsciously. Your dad goes into our " asthnostic " category - people who refuse to understand or believe in asthma. My mom goes in the abuse category as well. She continued to smoke all over the house with her terribly asthmatic, always sick child AND took me to my grandfather's house - he smoked some horrible sort of mini cigar - about one every hour. Welcome to the group that feels your pain. THank you for sharing your story. I agree - don't beat yourself over previous bad decisions - just take as good care as you can now. Addy Group co-owner > > > > I have to call an 800# about the " prescription my doctor called in > > for me. " I sent in a form to a 3rd party liason who works with the > > insurance company, and I think I passed. I have had asthma all my > > live, 8 nasal polypectomies and sinus surgeries starting from when > I > > was 12 and I am on advair 50/500, pulmicort inhaler, intal inhaler, > > albuteral inhaler and nebulizer, singulair, claritin and over the > > counter bronkaid. I have been on prednisone for most of my life > and > > have not been successful transferring over to the oral steroids. I > > contantly wheeze and when I had my latest PFT I got the sigh and > the > > look from my new pulmoologist. I am a recovering addict and smoked > > cigarettes and pot cumulatively for 16 years and I am 47 years old, > > and I hate myself for compromising my health. > > > > When I had asthma attacks as a child, my parents did not obtain > > medical treatment for me until the last moment possible, thinking > > that I would " get through it " or " snap out if it. " I had to > suffer > > a long time before I got relief, and I thought I was going to die. > > This was in the day of the vapor tent and IV medications. My > asthma > > caused a lot of resentment and anger and tension because god forbid > > my parents would have to pay attention to me. I remember my father > > making me rake leaves with him outside when I was 9 or 10, and > > knowing that I would start to wheeze, the total fear that came over > > me when I did and the long time it took me to stop raking, fearing > > that I would incur my father's criticism. When I couldn't take it > > anymore and had to stop, he told me that I was giving up and that I > > was lazy. Sorry for the long post. I probably need another > > > group for this part of it. The older I get the more I realize the > > extent of the abuse, and while I have come a long way, I know that > I > > have a ways to go to have peace of mind. Maybe xolair will help > me > > to have a better life. I am clean and sober now one year, have > > seperated permanently from my family of origin and want to go > > dancing. > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 9, 2007 Report Share Posted September 9, 2007 Thank you for your post and congratulations on getting approved. You are now among friends who understand and have been in your shoes. It takes some of us up to a year to see any relief, others it takes only a few shots. It is my prayer that you are one of the ones who gets quick results. Doug Group founder Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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