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I know this is for Xolair but many know I have undergone surgery

My job called today. I am on famiy medical leave act. however, I am out of sick

days, so it's without pay.

I did no sign up for short term disability or social security disability so I

won't get any $$

I read the FMLA from the school board. It turns out, since I am out without pay,

I have to pay half my premiums, but the school board won't tell me the amount.

My principal called and said to find out the payment or they will drop me. I

can't believe they would do that bc my contract ends July 31...but if the

premium is not paid they can do this

Also, as teachers, we get 5 paychecks at the end of the year, bc I am on FMLA,

that will be 2 paychecks and it won't be a lot of money. That is to last me til

Mid Aug.

I don't know if there is anything else that can be done in the great sunshine

state of Florida, where it seems I have a black raincloud over my head.

I can't afford to lose insurance bc I have the hysterectomy June 8th and they

say the Xolair counts as chemo. Dr warned not to have insurance lapse bc I am

considered a high risk with a pre-existing condition

My meds, as you all know are expensive. The medical bills are climbing faster

and faster.

I am on too many meds...more than one med for a condition(s)

asthma

allergies

BCP

pain meds

antianxiety

antidepressant

ulcer

anti-inflamatory

etc etc

I have a family that does not acknowledge I need help. Friends who have been

kind enough to help but I dont want to take advantage of them either

They stop by but in the end,. I am alone and the depression is getting worse and

worse

I am at the point I need to go back to work so I don't have to pay the premium

but it's only two weeks from a traditional open surgery. I have 17 inches of

staples down my torso. We have 2 weeks left of school. I love teaching but the

thought of going back when not fully recovered and this punching feeling in my

gut, where I have to sit down at the time., is killing me, the thought of going

back to work exhausts me, but I don't see any other choice

Do any of you have suggestions besides sucking it up and just doing it?

~Alone, scared and depressed