, doctors, and red pickup trucks

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You were right on target to post your letter to the list. Sometimes one of the

other members will have an idea that will kick loose what you need.

I hear massive frustration in your words and have a suggestion. Healing,

itself, is tricky enough. You've had plenty to deal with in regard to your knee

replacements. Add to that some PTSD from auto wrecks and the ongoing death of a

loved one, and it's easy to see why you've lost some of your balance.

Depression adds serious weight to the load you're already carrying and, if it's

a chronic condition for you it's even more serious.

Perhaps it's time to do an accounting. Have someone you trust sit with you and

make a list of your current actions. Include PT, " shrink " , hobby, family,

community, etc. When you have a full list, assess whether you're happy with

each of them. Is the PT still effective? If you're not getting any PT, are

there other movement kinds of things you can do on your own to increase your

activity level? Are you tapping into any activities that focus on helping other

people? (These can be dandy distractions in addition to building karma - your

grandmothers would approve....)

Is your work with your therapist productive? If you've been with him/her for a

while, it may be time to move to another with fresh ideas and plans for you.

If you're not a list maker by nature, (I'm not!) it'll be tough for you to do a

thorough accounting, but most of us could benefit from making a list of assets

we can tap into.

There are surely people out there who value you and can help you through the

rough spots, - just find them and give them a chance to help. Hang in

there.

Joyce

THR 20 June 2008, Pacific Northwest

9a. Doctors (Surgeons)

Posted by: " " susan71353@... montana79_81

Date: Mon Jun 30, 2008 6:45 pm ((PDT))

Hello Everyone,

I haven't really posted anything since my surgery on March 13th

because I really don't trust these surgeons anymore. They say they

can do this, that, and the other when they can't make any promises.

I have had it. I'm better off then I was but I had hoped for more

and I'm very discouraged now.

I am keeping myself pretty much homebound now. I don't want to go

anywhere or do anything. I have so much I could be doing in my house

but I have no motivation. I do go out to visit my shrink once a week

because I am on suicide watch. I'm tired of living. I want my life

back the way it was before I had my first knee replacement on this

right knee. That just isn't going to happen. Not only do I have

this on my mind, but I also am already grieving for my mom who is

dying a slow and very cruel death. Then I go out on June 10th to

meet my oldest daughter and my granddaughter for breakfast because we

hadn't done that for a long while, well this idiot in a red pick-up

truck decides that he's going to blow right through a non-working

traffic signal because there were so many power outages. A few more

seconds into the intersection and I wouldn't be typing this on the

forum. Well I'm still alive but I'm living that morning over and

over again. My car has been fixed but I'm very nervous to drive. Why

are there so many idiots driving on the roads? Don't drivers know

that when a traffic signal is out, it becomes a four-way stop!!! Yeah

right, NOT!!!!! Well I'm happy for all of you that have had

successful knee replacements, guess you just found the right

surgeons. I'm plain tired of trying anymore. Sorry to bore all of

you.

from Michigan