ARGH!

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Well, I'm back from appt...and frustrated.

Not with my DR though, I am frusrated with this hip! There's so much

going on with the " bad " hip, that I never even discussed or asked

questions about my " good " hip that's been hurting and popping more

since it is nothing compared to the other side.

So, all in all, no answers as to what is going on inside right now

though. Things looked good in there with all they did during the last

surgery he said. He has no explanation for my groin pain though, but

he heard the popping in the groin when I walked during the appt. as

well as feeling another area that is catching/popping, which he said

is the screw (which is where I've been having achey, radiating like

pain). He said he doesn't think the there is a loose fragment or the

screw is backing out though, which is good.

The plan right now is anti-inflammatories, focus on stretches with

PT, and stop using crutches...or at least a cane or one crutch would

be better he recommeded. Then, follow-up in a month. In the

meanwhile, he said he's going to talk with someone about possibly

some injections (he mentioned accupuncture) and talk with another PT

about some other possibilities.

I'd like to give all that a shot, but, as so many times before, it

feels like something more...and there's always been something more,

since every surgery has found underlying issues and I've gotten

relief with each surgery.

So, as recommended though, I tried to go down to one crutch when I

went to get my meds. No joy, I barely made it from parking space onto

the sidewalk (which was right by the parking space) and I felt like

CURSING 'cause it hurt so bad! CRACK, GRIND, POP! ARGH!!!

The Dr had said I could use 2 if I absolutely needed them to get

around though, and I certainly did. Without body weight it hurts, but

not like when the cracking/grinding/popping is happening...that pain

is absolutely unbearable. I just don't get it!

So, Dr isn't suggesting any other surgeries at this point, and has no

clear indication what would be causing this. No new xrays were

ordered, no new MRA, no new anything else...which I am okay with, as

I feel like a human pin cushion right about now anyway from

everything...and my body has had enough radiation already for a

couple lifetimes.

I want to move my body, I want to play, I want to have fun, I want to

keep smiles on my face, I want to live without pain...and I want this

hip to stop controlling my life! I was always the happy go lucky,

easy going girl with a good head on her shoulers but who liked to

have fun. Everytime I get going in a positive direction with this hip

though, things go in reverse...so now, I'm just a gimp.

Some people put cars on a lemon lot...my hubby might put ME there

soon! (just j/k)