Tina

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Tina, You have really struggled. We all make decisions hoping they are the best at the time but sometimes the outcome isn't how we hoped or planned. You will get through this and once you are banded and the weight begins to drop, the past will seem like a bad dream. Please don't feel badly for spending money to either save your life or improve the quality of your life. Your daughter will be more grateful to have you around longer and her needs will get met. I am in the same situation. I am not banded yet but schedule for May 9th. I had to change the date a couple of times because of finances. I too, have trouble justifying spending 8000.00 on myself which is nearly all my savings. I had to fight my company tooth and nail to withdraw what I needed from my 401k. I only know that I cannot

continue life as I have for the past 5 or 6 years. The constant pain, limitations and social stigma is more than I can bare at times. I live on motrin and dread the day I will need to give it up. Motrin and Ultram usually make my physical life tolerable. My advice to you is spend the money on yourself. Now that you have had your disability approved, there will be more money coming in so that your daughter's needs are met. Time is so short. Make this investment in your future. I move slowly and have researched this for nearly 2 years. I believe you and eventually, I are putting ourselves in good hands with Dr. A's team. apetsub436 <petsub436@...> wrote: ok...this is part 2 for those of you just tuning in! anyway...There's multiple symptoms, but the worst are breathlessness with minimal activity, muscle weakness/fatigue, it's hard to concentrate, and my memory sucks. And pain.Sometimes it's not bad...gets worse as day progresses. I rely alot on motrin(which I had to stop for surgery)but sometimes it's really bad.Stops everything. I'll see a pain specialist in a few months. I hope surgery (weight loss) helps the pain and fatigue, at least some. In part, it's the anxiety related to the pain and not knowing how bad it will get, or if there's nothing that will stop it.

It's being helpless, and at the mercy of someone, and their lack of understanding that because percocet (or whatever)helps other people, it SHOULD be enough.It's not, but I feel so desperate and am grateful because it is better than tylenol, so I don't want to say too much.It's like someone telling you how easy it is to lose weight...'eat less and excercise'.If only it was so (place cuss word here)simple! Truly I am grateful for soooo much, and I don't want to sound whiney. I am beyond words grateful to be able to get this surgery.It was all my social security back pay...and I feel guilty spending it all on myselfbecause my daughter needs dental work and school fees I still haven't paid all year! Besides other stuff....but I want to LIVE..longer and better.I can't afford to mess this up....make sense? please respond...Tina

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