Re: TERI....was still very scared

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Teri,

Right now you are dealing with a lot of questions of a medical nature

that no one can tell you for sure what happened. It was only a month

ago that all this was hitting me too. You have every right to be

scared, i was too, imo what you need is to see a Doctor, i would

suggest a Rheumatologist, (but i may not know what i'm talking about

which is why i was hesitant to post to you to begin with) however,

you need a Doctor that can put some of your fears to rest, and give

you some good sound advice. I know that the ladies here would prefer

it be someone familar with implants and knowledgable about their

complications. As for me, just finding out that i " didn't " have

lupus was a great relief. Rogene gives you good sound advice when

she says : Let go and let God. Take it easy girl, your going to be

just fine. I go to a Rheumatologist who has been practicing longer

than i've been alive, and while that has good and bad points, you

know what his BOTTOM LINE advice to me has been???? LET GO AND LET

GOD. No one is assuming you don't have faith. What we want you to

do is relax...stress is verryyy hard on the body and it very well

does have A LOT to do with autoimmune diseases. You are going to be

fine, you could drive yourself absolutely insane trying to figure it

all out on your own. You could make yourself sicker than you have to

be. What you are doing now is negatively affecting your health. We

want you to slow down, relax, and get to a Doctor you TRUST. Thats

it. One step at a time. Your going to be allright.

~hugggs~

kim

> I have posted my messages ON this website and NOBODY BUT YOU HAS

> ANSWERED ME.(I have read all of everybody messages and felt pain

for

> everybody and that is why I decided to GET THE COURAGE TO ASK FOR

> HELP KNOWING HOW IGNORANT I AM AND HAVE BEEN FOR NOT KNOWING

ANYTHING

> THAT HAS BEEN GOING ON FOR THE LAST 4 1/2 years and how NAIVE I

HAVE

> BEEN AND NOT ONE PERSON BUT YOU has replied to me. ALL MY MESSAGES

> HAVE BEEN VERY VERY HONEST AND NICE AND I HAVE NOT ATTACKED ANYBODY

> OR ANY DOCTERS WHICH I HAVE SEEN MANY MANY TIMES ON THIS WEBSITE IN

> THE PAST BUT NEVER JUDGED PEOPLE'S OPINIONS OR THIS WEBSITE FOR

> THAT. FEELING EMBARRASSED AND ASHAMED OF MYSELF FOR NOT KNOWING

WHAT

> HAS HAPPENED, I STILL REACHED OUT FOR HELP KNOWING HOW IT MUST LOOK

> LIKE TO EVERYBODY.

>

> GOD IS TELLING ME SOMETHING, THAT IS WHY I AM SCARED. LAST WEEK,

> GOD TOLD ME TO GET ON THIS COMPUTER AND FIGURE OUT WHAT WAS GOING

ON

> WITH MY IMPLANTS because I felt something was just not right AND

THAT

> IS WHEN I FOUND THIS WEBSITE AND MANY OTHER THINGS I DID NOT KNOW

For

> the last 4 1/2 years. FOR ALL I KNOW(GOOD POSSIBILITY FROM THE

> PAPERWORK I DO HAVE) I MIGHT HAVE HAD SILICONE IMPLANTS IN ME AND

> DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IT. I WAS LOSING IT WHEN I JUST FOUND OUT THAT

THE

> SALINE IMPLANTS HAD A SILICONE SHELL AND WHEN I GOT OUT MY REOP

FROM

> LAST YEAR, IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE, THAT I WOULD CONSENT TO SALINE

> IMPLANTS, WHEN THAT IS WHAT IS SUPPOSED TO BE WHAT I HAVE.

>

> I have no idea what some of those terms means that my PS says was

> wrong with my implants and scar issure and so forth that is on the

> operative consent form and I am just trying to figure out what has

> happened to me and since all of you have gone thru this, I thought

> for sure with everybodys experiences (based on what I have

explained)

> I would get some insight to what might have happened just like

> everybody else on this website.

>

> I am NOT ANGRY or bitter. I AM VERY VERY SCARED RIGHT NOW. I

probably

> put more blame and anger ON MYSELF FOR MAKING THIS DECISION and NOT

> RESEARCHING MORE. THIS IS WHY I AM COMING TO THIS WEBSITE ASKING

FOR

> HELP.

>

> I NEVER SIGNED TO BE IN THE MENTOR SILICONE STUDY, NEVER, I WOULD

> HAVE NEVER HAVE EVEN GOTTEN SALINE IMPLANTS IF I HAD KNOWN THAT IT

> HAD A SILICONE SHELL, LET ALONE HAVE SILICONE IMPLANTS. IF I HAD

> SIGNED, HE WOULD NOT BE LYING TO ME TELLING ME THEY ARE TEXTURED

AND

> HAVING ME SIGN OVER MY IMPLANTS, HE WOULD JUST SHOW ME THE CONSENT

> FORM FOR THE STUDY. THAT STUDY CONSENT FORM IS WAY DIFFERENT THAN

> OTHER PAPERWORK, I WOULD HAVE NOTICED IT God is telling me

something

> AND I am just trying to figure this out. I GUESS AFTER 4 1/2

YEARS,

> IT PROBABLY IS ABOUT TIME AND THAT IS WHY I REACHED OUT TO ALL OF

> YOU.

>

> FOR ME, I WOULD LIKE TO GET TO THE TRUTH AS MUCH AS I CAN WITH AS

> MUCH HELP AS I CAN GET, TO BE ABLE TO DEAL WITH WHAT PROBABLY

> HAPPENED AND MOVE ON. That is why I reached out to everybody. In

> the last 4 1/2 years I have had my right implant replaced 2x(on my

> third) and my left 1x(On my second)and a CC removal surgery on the

> left. I KNOW SINCE 2 WEEKS AGO KNOW FOR SURE I HAVE MENTOR SMOOTH

> SALINE IMPLANTS IF MY IMPLANTS WERE SILICONE, since 1999, I would

> think that would be a WAY WORSE SITUATION BUT I DO NOT KNOW AND

THAT

> IS WHY I AM REACHING OUT TO SEE IF THIS HAS HAPPENED AND IF IT

> POSSIBY DID, WOULD IT BE WORSE, WITH THE THINGS HE SAYS I HAD GOING

ON

> (SYMMEtry infection, hemotoa, and the rest of what I stated.

>

> Lets face it, THERE IS A REASON THEY WANTED MY IMPLANTS BACK, and

> since I threatened with the attorney, only to get them to call me

> back to get my breasts fixed, and challenged him with all the

> questions on why he put textured implants in me and not getting

> paperwork or card from first BA, there is a reason they wanted them

> back. My Mentor card from last year is just a little paper ID with

> nothing marked, my Mentor card I just got is plastic like a Credit

> Card and I got one for my right and one for my left.

>

> I am just trying to piece the last 4 1/2 years together and I just

> wanted everybody's input and help(as much as one possibly could

from

> my " nightmare " } which I value and repect being that you all of went

> thru the same pain. IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ANY LEGAL ACTION, I

> just would like to get to the TRUTH AS much as possible. I HAVE

> ALREADY GAVE THEM WHAT THEY WANTED, WHICH WAS THE IMPLANTS, SO I

HAVE

> NOTHING TO GO ON LEGAL WISE ANYWAY. THAT IS WHY THEY HAD ME SIGN

> THEM OVER TO THEM, SO THEY TOOK CARE OF THE LEGAL END OF IT. I am

> reaching out because I JUST WANT TO GET TO THE TRUTH AS MUCH AS I

CAN

> FOR MYSELF TO MAKE PEACE, SO I CAN INFORM OTHER WOMEN WHAT HAPPENED

> TO ME OR WHAT I THINK HAPPENED TO ME BASED ON WHAT HAS HAPPENED.

> That is why I have been spilling my guts out to everybody on this

> website.

>

> Rogene, you have been a kind and dear soul for acknowledging

my " cry

> for help " . Everything is hitting me from the last 4 1/2 years of

lies

> and deceit and I just want to MAKE SURE FROM THIS DAY FORWARD, I AM

> EDUCATED AND UNDERSTAND WHAT HE MEANS BY ALL OF THINGS THAT IS ON

MY

> OPERATIVE FORM AND GET TO THE TRUTH AS MUCH AS I CAN BY SHARING

THESE

> THINGS WITH EVERYBODY

>

> Teri

[Guest guest]

Kim,

Okay, I like your rheumatologists advice!

I have never been so lucky as to have a doctor tell me to "Let go and Let God". Now that one might be a keeper...

Trusting your doctor is of utmost importance, and it is rare to find one who is humble enough to acknowledge that only God is the true Healer.

God bless.

Patty

----- Original Message -----

From: kim

Sent: Wednesday, September 03, 2003 1:41 AM

Subject: Re: TERI....was still very scared

Teri, Right now you are dealing with a lot of questions of a medical nature that no one can tell you for sure what happened. It was only a month ago that all this was hitting me too. You have every right to be scared, i was too, imo what you need is to see a Doctor, i would suggest a Rheumatologist, (but i may not know what i'm talking about which is why i was hesitant to post to you to begin with) however, you need a Doctor that can put some of your fears to rest, and give you some good sound advice. I know that the ladies here would prefer it be someone familar with implants and knowledgable about their complications. As for me, just finding out that i "didn't" have lupus was a great relief. Rogene gives you good sound advice when she says : Let go and let God. Take it easy girl, your going to be just fine. I go to a Rheumatologist who has been practicing longer than i've been alive, and while that has good and bad points, you know what his BOTTOM LINE advice to me has been???? LET GO AND LET GOD. No one is assuming you don't have faith. What we want you to do is relax...stress is verryyy hard on the body and it very well does have A LOT to do with autoimmune diseases. You are going to be fine, you could drive yourself absolutely insane trying to figure it all out on your own. You could make yourself sicker than you have to be. What you are doing now is negatively affecting your health. We want you to slow down, relax, and get to a Doctor you TRUST. Thats it. One step at a time. Your going to be allright.~hugggs~kim