The life is sucked out of me

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I have been so strong and perfect for 3.5 years in diversion. I have

done every single thing they have asked me to and it is still not good

enough. I got my first pos ETG many months ago, supposedly low and

they said it was incidental. Never heard a word about it again. Had

DEC and they want to keep me 6 more months. I just feel like I can't

go on. I have never drank, never relapsed, never done a thing wrong. I

felt I was learning from this rehabilitation and second chance at my

license and life....but now I just feel so depleted...so faithless. I

don't know what caused my pos ETG, my only idea is the Tylenol I took

the night before about 10 hours prior to testing. The pharmacist told

me that Tylenol contains " polyethylene glycol " which metabolizes to

ethyl alcohol. I am scared to shower, scared to eat, scared to

continue on my weight loss plan, can't get my OB procedure done due to

fear of causing pos ETG. I am in fear. I turn it over 50 times a day

to God but it is just paralyzing.

Can anyone give me some advice? I have not taken Tylenol since my pos

ETG...but did take Motrin(without polyethylene glycol)the day before

my last test 3 days ago...and now I feel afraid that will cause a pos

ETG.

I will no longer take any pain medication OTC..I just am so scared.

And... I only take it like once a month! I am buying a heating pad for

my back instead.

What should I eat?

What should I do?