Patty,,Rogene,, Colleen

September 6, 2003

You most certainly can use my story and THANK YOU FOR ALL OF THE KIND

WORDS and making feel better by sharing your experience. My health

has always been in the hands of GOD AND HE HAS ALWAYS TAKEN CARE OF

ME IN THAT WAY. I had a malignant cyst on my ovary and have been

malignant free for ten years. I can have children but it will be much

harder than normal. I have had two miscarriages and got thru because

when GOD GIVES ME A CHILD IS WHEN MY BODY IS READY TO HANDLE THAT.

OBVIOUSLY, RIGHT NOW OR IN THE PAST MY BODY REALLY ISN'T READY! I

HAVE ALWAYS GIVEN MY HEALTH TO GOD AND HE HAS TAKEN CARE OF ME AND

WILL NOW.

I must say though my body has been telling me things that I completey

ignored and now have come to realize that. When three months ago, I

though my left implant had gotten alittle smaller, I thought I was

crazy because if it was leaking, it would have completey deflated

like my right one did. AGAIN, I IGNORED WHAT GOD WAS TELLING ME. Two

weeks ago is when I noticed that the shape was different, that is

when I knew that something was wrong and called PS to schedule

reop .The next day is when my right one started swell. Every morning

before my reop I thought it would not be there, and it never got any

smaller. He said I had a partial deflate, which I thought saline

deflated in days or weeks when you had a leak, especially with the

textured implants. Every since last year, when he replaced the right

implant and only took out cc in left, they didnt look the same, so

three months when I thought the left looked a bit smaller, I thought

it was in my head because if it was leaking it would be deflating and

it never did, so I AGAIN THOUGHT IT WAS IN MY HEAD.

I have been in Denial what God was telling my body to tell me and put

all my trust in MY PS AND NOT WHAT MY OWN BODY THAT I LIVE WITH 24

HOURS A DAY, was telling me.

I HAVE ALWAYS believed in the good in everyone, so I AM SORRY

EVERYONE FOR being focused on the lies and deceit of my PS, when all

of you have been thru the samething. I have been very fortunate to

not have encountered people like my PS. People that don't care and

are driven by greed at anyone's expense or health. Now, I also know

there are people out there like that.

Thank you to everyone that has still emailed me, even though I look

like I am only obsessed with myself. I HAVE CRIED MANY TEARS FOR ALL

OF YOU WHEN I READ YOUR STORIES LAST WEEK ON THIS WEBSITE. Everyday,

I realize one my thing that GOD WAS TELLING ME that I was in denial

about and I have to get it out for some piece of mind and for my part

in all of this, so nothing like this happens again in my life.

Thank you to everyone for allowing me to do that and not judging me!

Teri

September 6, 2003

You do not seem obsessed with yourself. You are going through a hard time and you NEED to be selfish and focus on yourself right now so you can get on the road to recovery.

I too have had miscarriages. I know it was God's plan. If I had a child, I don't know how I would have gotten through the past few years of illness. He truly knows best!!

Colleen

From: " easygoingchickie " <coolchickie@...>

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