to Dimonds, re; insomnia and pain

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HI, does this sound crazy, but I want to get off of all these stupid

meds, they dont help anyway... I cant sleep , pain is usually always

there except for a good day, if im lucky. I want to write a letter

to my doc and basically tell her that I no longer need her services

or negativity towards my illness and pain. I feel that my integrity

is more important than getting my pain meds. Tell me if I should do

this, I get too emotional sometimes, so i need an opinion. she

mailed me a copy of my contract re; pain meds, and it just makes me

feel humiliated, like Im some slob who enjoys being sick. It states

that I have to go to the same pharmacy, and I can be refused by my

doc if she feels that the meds are not benefitting me. I dont know

what to do dimonds. When I take these pain meds, it does give me my

life back short term, where I can function for a few hours a day, but

not all day. I dont know, I have stopped these meds before cold

turkey, and never had withdrawl, only some diarrhea and thats all.

so please tell me what I should do... I called my rheummy and said

I want to stop w/all the meds and he can just prescribe something

lighter like darvocett if needed, but no more heavy narcotics....

Yes I need them, but NO, I will not be humiliated to get them.

Thanks for your ear, I feel the power of God on this one, and I know

he will take care of me... Blessings, IGgy