Re: hi, I need some support please... I ve had it,........

[Guest guest]

IGGY, PLEASE TRY TO UNDERSTAND THAT ANYONE WHO HASN'T BEEN THROUGH WHAT WE GO THROUGH EVERY DAY CANNOT POSSIBLY UNDERSTAND. MY FAMILY IS THE SAME WAY AND REALLY I PREFER IT THAT WAY. IF THEY TRULY UNDERSTOOD HOW BAD OFF I AM THEY WOULD JUST WORRY THEMSELVES SICK AND THAT WOULD JUST BE ONE MORE BURDEN I WOULD HAVE TO CARRY. I'M SORRY YOU HAVE BEEN HURT BUT REMEMBER THAT ALL OF US DO UNDERSTAND THAT YOU ARE JUST TRYING TO HANG ON AND GET THROUGH THIS. I AM OFTEN TEMPTED TO GIVE UP BUT I CAN'T BECAUSE OF MY FAITH AND MY FAMILY. THE LORD HAS HIS HAND ON US AND HE UNDERSTANDS INTIMATELY WHAT WE ARE DEALING WITH. HANG IN THERE BABE, ANITA K. ----- Original Message ----- From: iggyangel7 Sent: Sunday, January 25, 2004 8:04 PM Subject: hi, I need some support please... I ve had it,........ I just found out thru my favorite nephew, that he overhears the rest of the family talk about me, and they think Im addicted to my pain meds... this just happened and it broke my heart... I am dependant but I have never allowed these pills to ruin my life, but they only helped me to function.. I know my family does not have a blue what Im going thru, I know this... This just breaks my heart, cuz we put up w/docs doing the same thing, and mistreating us.... I just have lost my faith in family...... Im thru w/them........ my sis was gonna come out to Ohio tohelp me, but forget it, they are so evil in talking behind my back... and they do, cuz they use to discount this illness for the longest time... now years later they finally believe me.... but the first thing to come out of their mouths are "are you on drugs?" you should not go on those, etc.... Yes I do know that,,,, Ive tried everything prior to the opoids... My heart is breaking, Im being scuffed by my own family, who I trusted........ Ive had it....I really do not care what anyone thinks of me, I have had to take care of myself thru out all of this, so how can they think to intervene and help when they feel like their helping?????? what BS... I tell you, whenever Things go great, the enemy pulls people apart..... Iggy

[Guest guest]

Iggy girl, I know how you feel. Believe me!!! Even though my family

is just now " coming around " since I got the implants out, I know they

still question why I need pain meds. They look at me and see a

normal looking, healthy appearing person. The only way they know I'm

hurting is for me to tell them. I try to fix my hair and put makeup

on even if I don't feel like it. I can only imagine what they say

behind my back. It's true that the enemy does things to pull us

apart. My family was so close up until 3 years ago. My brother in

law was a preacher and we all went to his church. We were all

together 3 times a week. Each of us had a roll in the church. I was

the last one to become a Christian and for several years we just grew

together and got stronger and stronger. Then a terrible thing

happened. I can't tell anyone what it was, but it involved my

brother in law. He lost the church, his minister's license, almost

lost his wife (my sister) and the family hasn't been the same since.

It still blows my mind that something actually happened that tore us

apart. But, it did. Most of us in the family have forgiven him but

there's still some that haven't. Family get togethers used to be so

fun and we would have them almost monthly but now we only get

together on Christmas Eve because " we have to " . It was the enemy

that did it, and the members of my family that choose to not forgive

and forget are the only ones being punished, not the wrongdoer

(sp?). Don't stress over them not believing that you need pain

meds. I'm not. I know I need them and I know that I'm not abusing

them, I don't take them more often than needed, I don't chew or crush

them or snort or shoot them up, I take them as prescribed. Iggy,

just keep taking them however your doctor prescribed and ignore what

your family says or thinks. One day you will be well and you will be

able to tell them how much they hurt you when they questioned your

illness and your need for the meds. Hang in there girl, it's almost

over!

Pam

> I just found out thru my favorite nephew, that he overhears the

rest

> of the family talk about me, and they think Im addicted to my pain

> meds... this just happened and it broke my heart... I am

dependant

> but I have never allowed these pills to ruin my life, but they only

> helped me to function.. I know my family does not have a blue what

Im

> going thru, I know this... This just breaks my heart, cuz we put

up

> w/docs doing the same thing, and mistreating us.... I just have

lost

> my faith in family...... Im thru w/them......... my sis was gonna

> come out to Ohio tohelp me, but forget it, they are so evil in

> talking behind my back... and they do, cuz they use to discount

this

> illness for the longest time... now years later they finally

believe

> me.... but the first thing to come out of their mouths are " are

you

> on drugs? " you should not go on those, etc.... Yes I do know

> that,,,, Ive tried everything prior to the opoids... My heart is

> breaking, Im being scuffed by my own family, who I

trusted........

> Ive had it....

> I really do not care what anyone thinks of me, I have had to take

> care of myself thru out all of this, so how can they think to

> intervene and help when they feel like their helping?????? what

> BS... I tell you, whenever Things go great, the enemy pulls people

> apart..... Iggy

[Guest guest]

--

Dear Iggy

I am sorry that you found out about your family talking about you

and your pain meds. It really hurts when family discusses your

problems behind your back. Unfortunately, this often happens.

Unless we walk in another's shoes we can't truly understand how they

feel or what they go through. Please focus on the fact that your

family does

love you even if it isn't in the way that you need at this point in

your life. and that is what is most important. You are so very

right when you said the enemy does work to divide people when things

are going right. Don't let him win. Despite your hurt, continue to

forgive them and love them for who they are.

I know that in my family we are

always making judgements on what some other relative does. For

instance, my mom really thought my sister shouldn't take

antidepressants. think this influenced

my sister to hold off. But finally Becky went on them and it was

the best thing that could have happened for her. I told my mom that

becky was far more depressed than she could know and that she needed

to stop feeling that way. My mom really loves becky but still

doesn't think she should be on them. Or her son on ritalin. MY

sister becky thinks antibiotic therapy is some weirdo half science

and she is an rn. She only believes in anything the docs she works

for uses. She thinks I am nuts to use supplements. I am sure they

all think I am nuts and I certainly would never tell them about

liver cleanses, coffee enemas, etc. My oldest sister is a

pharmacist and she thinks pharmaceuticals are the answer to

everything. She will take all kinds of meds and never consider more

natural forms of medicine. So what I am saying is most people judge

others and their actions all the time. We don't do it to be mean--

but because we form opinions based on our knowledge, background and

fears. Your family is probably AFRAID you take too much pain med

and will get addicted. They care about you but their knowledge is

limited both about your condition and your type of pain and what

works and doesn't work. I just went through this with my mom. My

16 year old has terrible menstrual cramps for 4 days a month.

Terrible. She has tried midol, advil, and naprosyn which the doc

was sure would help. She tried it and was still in tears from the

pain. I told my mom that I might consider putting her on birth

control pills to lessen the pain and she flipped. She is against

it. I am researching other ideas first but if I can't get her to

feeling better, I will consider it despite what my mom thinks.

Please let your sister come and stay with you if you two really

usually get along. Or at least try not to let this interfere with

your relationship. We can still really love each other and not

totally understand or support each other. That is where forgiveness

comes in. My sister Becky and I have had many deep hurts through

the years--but we just keep moving on and forgiving. And most

importantly, we just don't talk about certain subjects (and breast

implants and illnesses caused by them are one of them) because if we

do, we will hurt each others feelings. She has saline implants and

is not sick and I am sure thinks my implants have nothing to do with

my problems. I KNOW her and my mom talk about me and I try to just

let it

roll off of me because I can't change them or make them understand

or believe me--but I still love them and want them in my

life. Besides, there are alot of things they do that I don't agree

with and have judged them for and have discussed with other family

members too. Your post is a good reminder for me to try harder not

to judge others and to discuss those judgements with other people.

I think most of us are guilty of this at one time or another in our

lives. Take care, hang in there, and don't let other people's

opinions hurt you too deeply. You know what you need and that is

the most important thing. I admire your strength of character in

doing what you need to do to live your life--for taking your health

in your own hands and stopping at nothing to try and get it back.

Because of that, and your faithk, I am sure will succeed in getting

a large measure, if not all, of your health back. I will be praying

for you.

Take care,

kathy

- In , " iggyangel7 " <Iggys_girl@m...>

wrote:

> I just found out thru my favorite nephew, that he overhears the

rest

> of the family talk about me, and they think Im addicted to my pain

> meds... this just happened and it broke my heart... I am

dependant

> but I have never allowed these pills to ruin my life, but they

only

> helped me to function.. I know my family does not have a blue what

Im

> going thru, I know this... This just breaks my heart, cuz we put

up

> w/docs doing the same thing, and mistreating us.... I just have

lost

> my faith in family...... Im thru w/them......... my sis was

gonna

> come out to Ohio tohelp me, but forget it, they are so evil in

> talking behind my back... and they do, cuz they use to discount

this

> illness for the longest time... now years later they finally

believe

> me.... but the first thing to come out of their mouths are " are

you

> on drugs? " you should not go on those, etc.... Yes I do know

> that,,,, Ive tried everything prior to the opoids... My heart is

> breaking, Im being scuffed by my own family, who I

trusted........

> Ive had it....

> I really do not care what anyone thinks of me, I have had to take

> care of myself thru out all of this, so how can they think to

> intervene and help when they feel like their helping?????? what

> BS... I tell you, whenever Things go great, the enemy pulls

people

> apart..... Iggy

[Guest guest]

Gosh Iggy I feel so terrible that I have not been on here lately at

all I have just been so busy with school and work, but girl I need to

tell you to hold on to your pride and your honor, and just hold on to

the lord. He will be there for you. People don't really understand

our disease, our pain, or our need if we have the need, to take

narcotics, but they are there for a reason, and it is nothing to be

ashamed of. As long as you are taking your medication as it is

prescribed, then you know that your doing what is best for you and

you basically just have to say screw them. I know that is harsh and

all, but that is what I have had to do before and it helps knowing

that evenatually you will get well. I mostly kept the meds that I was

taking to myself and just took them, and did not tell allot of

people. I mean not that I was ashamed but because it is not really

their business anyhow. From what I think you have mentioned your not

really taking that much anyhow, 20mg of oxycontin 2x a day is very

low dose, it is certiainly not going to make you high or anything,

anyhow it is proven that people in real pain are affected differently

than people that use drugs to get high.Pain receptors in the brain

are the reason why and that is why these meds work. They do, and they

are made for a reason.

Hang in there and know that you have my full 100% support and

prayers. I want to say more, but I have no time, I have to get ready

for my English comp class, and I have to eat, but I do want to tell

you that it will get better, you may need the medication for awhile

yet, but so what girl? DON'T let others judge you, people who make

harsh judgements against others will end up learning someday, when

something happens to them and they need help or need medication.

Trust me, and trust in the lord, you will be taken care of and

watched over and with all of us pulling for you there is no way you

can lose!

Let me know too, when is your surgery date anyhow?

God bless

HUGS

PS if you ever ever need to talk you can always call me here in

Idaho, I am here for you. 208-522-1137

In , " iggyangel7 " <Iggys_girl@m...>

wrote:

> I just found out thru my favorite nephew, that he overhears the

rest

> of the family talk about me, and they think Im addicted to my pain

> meds... this just happened and it broke my heart... I am

dependant

> but I have never allowed these pills to ruin my life, but they only

> helped me to function.. I know my family does not have a blue what

Im

> going thru, I know this... This just breaks my heart, cuz we put

up

> w/docs doing the same thing, and mistreating us.... I just have

lost

> my faith in family...... Im thru w/them......... my sis was gonna

> come out to Ohio tohelp me, but forget it, they are so evil in

> talking behind my back... and they do, cuz they use to discount

this

> illness for the longest time... now years later they finally

believe

> me.... but the first thing to come out of their mouths are " are

you

> on drugs? " you should not go on those, etc.... Yes I do know

> that,,,, Ive tried everything prior to the opoids... My heart is

> breaking, Im being scuffed by my own family, who I

trusted........

> Ive had it....

> I really do not care what anyone thinks of me, I have had to take

> care of myself thru out all of this, so how can they think to

> intervene and help when they feel like their helping?????? what

> BS... I tell you, whenever Things go great, the enemy pulls people

> apart..... Iggy

[Guest guest]

Iggy, I totally know what you're going through. I am actually an addict in recovery, 2 years in Mar. 08. the first thing my Dad said to me was you can't do anything because you're so overweight. So I lost the weight. Now, its that I was an addict that has caused my daughter not to be in contact with me. My daughter's and my falling apart had very little to do with that. She even came to the hospital when I was admitted and had a good relationship with me and visited me twice since I was in recovery. It has to do with her choice of religion and I thought I was helping her by giving her my opinion of it. she always said, you should speak openly to stop something. Like she told me to go up to my gay cousin and tell him he wasn't going to heaven.... Long story..short. Point is they'll look every where else but NO ONES saying I can't do things becuase I've become disabled from two slicone breast implant ruptures. No

ones admitting that I have fibromyalgia. Isn't it baffling how they'll point the finger at every thing else in your life and not look at the most obvious. Next it will be that I drink coffee or smoke cigerettes. Which I'm trying to quite. Hey I know how hard it is to go without the pain meds. It's the only thing that has made me fell normal for a short period of time. Seemed to take away all the symptoms. I could walk again, have normal body temperature, have the motivation to clean my house and get into harder projects like organizing paperwork or rearranging a mantel. I have done quite well not to abuse the pain meds. but have to admit I have. they make me want to smoke more too. I personally am going to give up my patches and vicodane pills and try to just take 3 flexeril (non-narcotic muscels relaxers) per day, if my pain dr. will go for that. I get very constipated with the pain meds and can't sleep on the

50mg patches. the patches were the best because I would not abuse them. Just stick them on and forget about them. Trouble is I can't sleep with them then get fibromyalgia pain because I'm not sleeping. I thought of asking pain dr. to give me a sleeping pill so I could sleep through the patch. Have you ever tried the 25mg patch? I want to get off them too and its different than taking a street drug. I feel sorry for and I'm going through the same thing. Try not to get to upset with your family. Its better than being allienated from them like my daughter has aeilnated me. See she also thinks I'm not sick enough to be home from work. What I need so much is the love and support of my family and I think I could resume. A lot of my problems are emotional right now and it's so hard to function with out my daugther in my life. Please write back to me and we can cry on each others shoulders. I think sometimes

I was hit the hardest with this condition because I had two ruptures that migrated outside the capsule and was undetected for over two years. they don't support me on that. God Bless Honey, Love I've been supporting you all along! I hear your cries and feel your pain. It's got to be the worst, for one we don't have dr.s validating our symptoms then to have a family come up with the meanest of all things to say when we could get better sooo much faster if they would just believe us and support us. As if all we want to do is loaf on the couch. What's killed your motivation drugs and alcohol. I wasn't really that bad anyway, it was the ruptures that ended my life. But I praise God for it because it brought me real close to the Lord. Don't give up, you're family will have to come around, at least there talking to you. It could be worse.anita kessler <AnitaK001@...> wrote:

IGGY, PLEASE TRY TO UNDERSTAND THAT ANYONE WHO HASN'T BEEN THROUGH WHAT WE GO THROUGH EVERY DAY CANNOT POSSIBLY UNDERSTAND. MY FAMILY IS THE SAME WAY AND REALLY I PREFER IT THAT WAY. IF THEY TRULY UNDERSTOOD HOW BAD OFF I AM THEY WOULD JUST WORRY THEMSELVES SICK AND THAT WOULD JUST BE ONE MORE BURDEN I WOULD HAVE TO CARRY. I'M SORRY YOU HAVE BEEN HURT BUT REMEMBER THAT ALL OF US DO UNDERSTAND THAT YOU ARE JUST TRYING TO HANG ON AND GET THROUGH THIS. I AM OFTEN TEMPTED TO GIVE UP BUT I CAN'T BECAUSE OF MY FAITH AND MY FAMILY. THE LORD HAS HIS HAND ON US AND HE UNDERSTANDS INTIMATELY WHAT WE ARE DEALING WITH. HANG IN THERE BABE, ANITA K.

----- Original Message -----

From: iggyangel7

Sent: Sunday, January 25, 2004 8:04 PM

Subject: hi, I need some support please... I ve had it,........

I just found out thru my favorite nephew, that he overhears the rest of the family talk about me, and they think Im addicted to my pain meds... this just happened and it broke my heart... I am dependant but I have never allowed these pills to ruin my life, but they only helped me to function.. I know my family does not have a blue what Im going thru, I know this... This just breaks my heart, cuz we put up w/docs doing the same thing, and mistreating us.... I just have lost my faith in family...... Im thru w/them........ my sis was gonna come out to Ohio tohelp me, but forget it, they are so evil in talking behind my back... and they do, cuz they use to discount this illness for the longest time... now years later they finally believe me.... but the first thing to come out of their mouths are "are you on drugs?" you should not go on those, etc.... Yes

I do know that,,,, Ive tried everything prior to the opoids... My heart is breaking, Im being scuffed by my own family, who I trusted........ Ive had it....I really do not care what anyone thinks of me, I have had to take care of myself thru out all of this, so how can they think to intervene and help when they feel like their helping?????? what BS... I tell you, whenever Things go great, the enemy pulls people apart..... Iggy

[Guest guest]

--- thanks for your post. Its amazing how family can

nurture and love or totall rip your heart out... and usually they

dont even know it while their doing it. Youre a brave soul and I

admire your honesty about your past addiction. Just you knowing and

understanding how we function makes us stronger and keeps us in check

to not lose control.. its very important to know our weaknesses and

strengths... I pray for the day when we heal and dont need these

pills to sleep or take away pain. I quit smoking about 5 months ago,

due to an irregular xray. they found a mass and then I prayed for

the Lord to heal me, and 48 hours later the CT scan found nothing, it

was gone... HEALING GOD, YES!!! I threw them away, it took something

like that to scare the heck out of me... you will throw them away

when you are strong enough and sick of being sick and tired of them,

you will toss them when you are tired of the cig companies ripping us

off to kill us, and they make millions... michelle, I have decided

to tell the family Im off all the pain meds, and just leave it to

myself. they will never understand.. I do not get high off these

meds... I never tried the patch, Im not sure if I should ask or

not... My doc insists on taking me off the meds right after my

explant, so Ill be doc hopping to have someone work w/me to help me

and understand that when the pain lowers or lessens, I will wean off

of them. I will pray for you and your daughter and love and the holy

spirit to intervene. My heart goes out to the both of you... GOd

will heal that relationship. I know the feeling of people not

thinking that we are not sick enough, Im on medical leave, and I have

2 to 3 hours a day that I can function... I pray for the day the

truth comes out about our illness . I would be careful about

replacing the flexeril instead, cuz those benzos sometimes are more

difficult to get off of. I know that when I did not take my klonopin

for two weeks, I did go thru a withdrawl, and that is a benzo, not a

narcotic, I just recently stopped the narcotics for almost a week,

and did not have withdrawl, but only diarrhea, which was the only

side effect, along w/insomnia. But I am now on them again, I refuse

to torture myself, my explant date is 1 and 1/2 weeks away!!! I pray

for some instant energy at least... , call me if you ever

need to talk, e-mail me at Iggy_RN@... and I will give you my

number. I think its just safer that way, I dont mind anyone here at

the group to have my number, but I would not want it in someone

else's hands out of the group.... I pray for you and all of us here,

God bless, and love, Iggy

In , michelle king <michellerking1@y...>

wrote:

> Iggy, I totally know what you're going through. I am actually an

addict in recovery, 2 years in Mar. 08. the first thing my Dad said

to me was you can't do anything because you're so overweight. So I

lost the weight. Now, its that I was an addict that has caused my

daughter not to be in contact with me. My daughter's and my falling

apart had very little to do with that. She even came to the hospital

when I was admitted and had a good relationship with me and visited

me twice since I was in recovery. It has to do with her choice of

religion and I thought I was helping her by giving her my opinion of

it. she always said, you should speak openly to stop something.

Like she told me to go up to my gay cousin and tell him he wasn't

going to heaven.... Long story..short. Point is they'll look every

where else but NO ONES saying I can't do things becuase I've become

disabled from two slicone breast implant ruptures. No ones admitting

that I have fibromyalgia. Isn't it baffling

> how they'll point the finger at every thing else in your life and

not look at the most obvious. Next it will be that I drink coffee or

smoke cigerettes. Which I'm trying to quite. Hey I know how hard it

is to go without the pain meds. It's the only thing that has made me

fell normal for a short period of time. Seemed to take away all the

symptoms. I could walk again, have normal body temperature, have the

motivation to clean my house and get into harder projects like

organizing paperwork or rearranging a mantel. I have done quite well

not to abuse the pain meds. but have to admit I have. they make me

want to smoke more too. I personally am going to give up my patches

and vicodane pills and try to just take 3 flexeril (non-narcotic

muscels relaxers) per day, if my pain dr. will go for that. I get

very constipated with the pain meds and can't sleep on the 50mg

patches. the patches were the best because I would not abuse them.

Just stick them on and forget about them.

> Trouble is I can't sleep with them then get fibromyalgia pain

because I'm not sleeping. I thought of asking pain dr. to give me a

sleeping pill so I could sleep through the patch. Have you ever

tried the 25mg patch? I want to get off them too and its different

than taking a street drug. I feel sorry for and I'm going through

the same thing. Try not to get to upset with your family. Its

better than being allienated from them like my daughter has aeilnated

me. See she also thinks I'm not sick enough to be home from work.

What I need so much is the love and support of my family and I think

I could resume. A lot of my problems are emotional right now and

it's so hard to function with out my daugther in my life. Please

write back to me and we can cry on each others shoulders. I think

sometimes I was hit the hardest with this condition because I had two

ruptures that migrated outside the capsule and was undetected for

over two years. they don't support me on that. God Bless

> Honey, Love I've been supporting you all along! I hear

your cries and feel your pain. It's got to be the worst, for one we

don't have dr.s validating our symptoms then to have a family come up

with the meanest of all things to say when we could get better sooo

much faster if they would just believe us and support us. As if all

we want to do is loaf on the couch. What's killed your motivation

drugs and alcohol. I wasn't really that bad anyway, it was the

ruptures that ended my life. But I praise God for it because it

brought me real close to the Lord. Don't give up, you're family will

have to come around, at least there talking to you. It could be

worse.

>

> anita kessler <AnitaK001@m...> wrote:IGGY, PLEASE TRY TO

UNDERSTAND THAT ANYONE WHO HASN'T BEEN THROUGH WHAT WE GO THROUGH

EVERY DAY CANNOT POSSIBLY UNDERSTAND. MY FAMILY IS THE SAME WAY AND

REALLY I PREFER IT THAT WAY. IF THEY TRULY UNDERSTOOD HOW BAD OFF I

AM THEY WOULD JUST WORRY THEMSELVES SICK AND THAT WOULD JUST BE ONE

MORE BURDEN I WOULD HAVE TO CARRY. I'M SORRY YOU HAVE BEEN HURT BUT

REMEMBER THAT ALL OF US DO UNDERSTAND THAT YOU ARE JUST TRYING TO

HANG ON AND GET THROUGH THIS. I AM OFTEN TEMPTED TO GIVE UP BUT I

CAN'T BECAUSE OF MY FAITH AND MY FAMILY. THE LORD HAS HIS HAND ON US

AND HE UNDERSTANDS INTIMATELY WHAT WE ARE DEALING WITH. HANG IN

THERE BABE, ANITA K.

>

> ----- Original Message -----

> From: iggyangel7

> Sent: Sunday, January 25, 2004 8:04 PM

>

> Subject: hi, I need some support please... I ve had

it,........

>

> I just found out thru my favorite nephew, that he overhears the

rest

> of the family talk about me, and they think Im addicted to my pain

> meds... this just happened and it broke my heart... I am

dependant

> but I have never allowed these pills to ruin my life, but they only

> helped me to function.. I know my family does not have a blue what

Im

> going thru, I know this... This just breaks my heart, cuz we put

up

> w/docs doing the same thing, and mistreating us.... I just have

lost

> my faith in family...... Im thru w/them........ my sis was gonna

> come out to Ohio tohelp me, but forget it, they are so evil in

> talking behind my back... and they do, cuz they use to discount

this

> illness for the longest time... now years later they finally

believe

> me.... but the first thing to come out of their mouths are " are

you

> on drugs? " you should not go on those, etc.... Yes I do know

> that,,,, Ive tried everything prior to the opoids... My heart is

> breaking, Im being scuffed by my own family, who I

trusted........

> Ive had it....

> I really do not care what anyone thinks of me, I have had to take

> care of myself thru out all of this, so how can they think to

> intervene and help when they feel like their helping?????? what

> BS... I tell you, whenever Things go great, the enemy pulls people

> apart..... Iggy

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Sweet, sweet, Iggy,

I'm so sad to see your family treating you this way. It breaks my

heart. But I want to let you know that I was just put on an opiod

yesterday...turns out it's the only way to help with the pain. I

was taking WAY WAY TOO much Tylenol. I thought that it was okay to

take more than 8 extra strength pills a day....nothing worked,

though. I know that I will become addicted to these new pills, but

it's okay, it's the only way to get through everything. And doctors

will be monitoring me every step of the way. I never even use to

take medicine for my headaches! People don't understand that we are

only taking pain meds to survive...to literally get out of bed.

Gradually your family will understand this, and this is exactly why

I want so much for the breast implant issue to be made extremely

public. We need support and people need to understand and not

condemn. We need people to acknowledge what has happened to us and

help us to work to repair our bodies.

By the way, I only had my saline implants in for two years and now I

have RA, Fibromyalgia, Ankylosing Spondilitis (arthritis of the neck

and spine), and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome....I'm disabled at 21.

My heart goes out to you,

Kacey

IGGY, PLEASE TRY TO

UNDERSTAND THAT ANYONE WHO HASN'T BEEN THROUGH WHAT WE GO THROUGH

EVERY DAY CANNOT POSSIBLY UNDERSTAND. MY FAMILY IS THE SAME WAY AND

REALLY I PREFER IT THAT WAY. IF THEY TRULY UNDERSTOOD HOW BAD OFF I

AM THEY WOULD JUST WORRY THEMSELVES SICK AND THAT WOULD JUST BE ONE

MORE BURDEN I WOULD HAVE TO CARRY. I'M SORRY YOU HAVE BEEN HURT BUT

REMEMBER THAT ALL OF US DO UNDERSTAND THAT YOU ARE JUST TRYING TO

HANG ON AND GET THROUGH THIS. I AM OFTEN TEMPTED TO GIVE UP BUT I

CAN'T BECAUSE OF MY FAITH AND MY FAMILY. THE LORD HAS HIS HAND ON

US AND HE UNDERSTANDS INTIMATELY WHAT WE ARE DEALING WITH. HANG IN

THERE BABE, ANITA K.

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> ----- Original Message -----

> From: iggyangel7

> Sent: Sunday, January 25, 2004 8:04 PM

>

> Subject: hi, I need some support please... I ve

had it,........

>

> I just found out thru my favorite nephew, that he overhears the

rest

> of the family talk about me, and they think Im addicted to my pain

> meds... this just happened and it broke my heart... I am

dependant

> but I have never allowed these pills to ruin my life, but they

only

> helped me to function.. I know my family does not have a blue what

Im

> going thru, I know this... This just breaks my heart, cuz we put

up

> w/docs doing the same thing, and mistreating us.... I just have

lost

> my faith in family...... Im thru w/them........ my sis was gonna

> come out to Ohio tohelp me, but forget it, they are so evil in

> talking behind my back... and they do, cuz they use to discount

this

> illness for the longest time... now years later they finally

believe

> me.... but the first thing to come out of their mouths are " are

you

> on drugs? " you should not go on those, etc.... Yes I do know

> that,,,, Ive tried everything prior to the opoids... My heart is

> breaking, Im being scuffed by my own family, who I

trusted........

> Ive had it....

> I really do not care what anyone thinks of me, I have had to take

> care of myself thru out all of this, so how can they think to

> intervene and help when they feel like their helping?????? what

> BS... I tell you, whenever Things go great, the enemy pulls

people

> apart..... Iggy

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