Hi everyone, long time since I have been here

[Guest guest]

Hi ladies,

I hope your all doing well. I am not sure anyone even noticed I was

gone, but that is cool. This group was such a huge part of my life

for the last 4 years or so and this has been the longest time I have

been away. I did not really do it purposely, I just have been swamped

with stuff going on, first we all got ill, really sick with flu's and

coughs and crap. We have been on the road every weekend with hockey

trips, and that is winding down now. It has been fun, and we have

grown so close as a family that I could not love these kids more if

they were my flesh and blood.

I have been having some realy bad symptoms reapear, or actually not

even reapear, more like just new stuff going on that is weird and

have not wanted to depress anyone, because I was one of the few who

at least for a year or more was sure I was over all this implant

illness. Lately I have been having much pain, it is not just my feet

which I have always had, but also my hands. It is almost like

arthritis or something. It is very strange. I have an appt with my

pain Dr to discuss my option but I wanted to get some feedback on

what the ladies here think is better, oxycontin and some oxy IR for

breakthrough, methadone, or the fentanyl duragesic pathces? I am

leaning toward pathes because I don't want to do the pill thing very

much right now. I tend to want to take more when I am in pain, and

the patch just seems like something I could stick on and not think

about so much. So ladies let me know what you think, tell me how you

felt on the fent patches, tell me the side effects etc.

Also if anyone else can recomend other pain meds that would be good.

I may just go back to oxy if that is what I need to do but it could

just be the winter, the long trips and the long times sitting in icey

cold hockey rinks too. Also I have not been working out as much

because of the long times we have spent on the road, so I can notice

a difference when I work out, I am sure it has to do with that blood

moving around, something is going on with me though and it sucks. I

don't have any brain fog or anything like that so that is great, but

the pain sure sucks.

I also wanted to know when Kacey's MTV appearance is going to be on.

I thought I saw them advertising it on MTV for the week of the 15th,

which I will be in Mexico celebrating my anniversary so I need to be

sure to tape it. Can someone give me the exact dates and times if

possible? We leave on the 12th and will be gone for an entire week,

ah 7 days in warm weather I am praying will be enough to help with my

pain. The foot procedure was a total failure, which is really quite

depressing, and so I hope and pray that there will be some answer to

this persistent problem, I am beginnning to feel that I may have this

forever, but what is it? That is the question.

I have been eating more junk that usual with all the travel too, so I

need to eat better, and I am thinking of doing a fast but right now I

just don't see how to do it when I have school and work and then

vacations, my family and my daughter too is coming for a week in

April and I am very excited about that. I sure want to be feeling

good by then!

Anyhow I hope your all doing well. I have missed the group allot and

hope you all maybe missed me just a little.

hugs