Guest guest Posted January 23, 2008 Report Share Posted January 23, 2008 Fritolay- it seems that today was not a good day for a lot of people. If this is a test of emotional endurance I am failing big time. After a couple of weeks of very limited activity, today I was covered entirely in white dust. If I shook my pants I could see the entire air space filled with tiny white particles moving randomly. I think today has been the worst since a long time and my family is scheduled to return home next week. I can't possibly bring them back like this. Today I'm now considering putting my dog up for adoption and don't know how my daughter and wife are going to take it. My daugther is been counting the hours to see me again and I just don't know how to handle that situation. I was considering selling one of the cars to get some cash but I can't risk infecting anybody else, so I'm running out of ideas to replenish the pocketbook. The only good news so far came from Golfingnut regarding the worms identified at the lab. I think a parasite to the bird mites is a real possibility at explaining why we don't seem to rid ourselves from this %^ & crap. If you loose money you've lost nothing, If you loose a friend you've lost a lot but the courage to continue is our most valuable piece (Norwegian) Please don't loose hope as the day when we reclaim our lives will come soon. MM > > It would seem I lost my job today, I made arangements for my cats to go, > my condo has been leased and I am out on the 23rd, and my car had two > flat tires. This has been a far worse experience than losing my mother. > Oh GOD, what am I going to do? I have never had a panic attack in my > life and I almost did today. I started hyperventilating, but I caught > it quickly and just breathed. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 23, 2008 Report Share Posted January 23, 2008 SOM, MM, Mel.... Thank you Mel...I laughed and then I cried. Emotionally MM, I am failing too. You guys, what GF dude is experiencing is Scrub typhus. It is caused by infestation or infection of the mite that infects you. It is commonly referred to as mite fever. It can be a rickettsia infection. Quite similar to the Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever, except it doesn't usually end up that bad. Som...thank you....MM...I will pray for your family. I am sorry, I am upset, and going to bed. I just have to make it and fake it until friday. I can't go to work with swollen eyes or else they will know that they have beat me up. fritolay66 <fritolay66@...> wrote: It would seem I lost my job today, I made arangements for my cats to go,my condo has been leased and I am out on the 23rd, and my car had twoflat tires. This has been a far worse experience than losing my mother.Oh GOD, what am I going to do? I have never had a panic attack in mylife and I almost did today. I started hyperventilating, but I caughtit quickly and just breathed. Looking for last minute shopping deals? Find them fast with Search. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 23, 2008 Report Share Posted January 23, 2008 Ms. Frito Bandito. You are strong. Things will get better and better for you. I don't usually pray, but tonight I will. Thanks for posting about scrub typhus, even though you are feeling bad, you still come through for us. you are too much, girlie. Melfritolay66 <fritolay66@...> wrote: SOM, MM, Mel.... Thank you Mel...I laughed and then I cried. Emotionally MM, I am failing too. You guys, what GF dude is experiencing is Scrub typhus. It is caused by infestation or infection of the mite that infects you. It is commonly referred to as mite fever. It can be a rickettsia infection. Quite similar to the Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever, except it doesn't usually end up that bad. Som...thank you....MM...I will pray for your family. I am sorry, I am upset, and going to bed. I just have to make it and fake it until friday. I can't go to work with swollen eyes or else they will know that they have beat me up. fritolay66 <fritolay66 > wrote: It would seem I lost my job today, I made arangements for my cats to go,my condo has been leased and I am out on the 23rd, and my car had twoflat tires. This has been a far worse experience than losing my mother.Oh GOD, what am I going to do? I have never had a panic attack in mylife and I almost did today. I started hyperventilating, but I caughtit quickly and just breathed. Looking for last minute shopping deals? Find them fast with Search. Never miss a thing. Make your homepage. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 24, 2008 Report Share Posted January 24, 2008 FL66, I am so sorry about everything going on. I have been so busy at work due to some people trying to take advantage of the fact that I didn't get some things done a few months ago. They are using it as a way to try and kiss up and make themselves look better. I no longer look at people the same anymore. Nobody knows what you are going through unless they have really been there. If I don't get the results I want out of someone I just figure that maybe they have other issues going on in life that I don't understand. Understanding one another is what draws us together. You and others here have been a friend to me when it seemed I lost all my friends. People who I thought would really understand and try to help me would avoid me. Some still do avoid me. I've had some really bad days but you are really having a bad one. MM- I'm sorry you are still dealing with this. Being held captive and at the mercy of some invisible mite is awful. I remember sitting on my mom's front porch with my 5 yr old daughter and I couldn't touch her and she would say, " Its okay " and want to sit right next to me. I'd have to move real fast or tell her firmly to " Stay away from me! " Inside I felt like the biggest A-hole for pushing her away and at the same time it would just break my heart. You want to hold your baby and confort them. I finally lost it one day and started crying on the front porch. Kids shouldn't have to see that. She was the one who comforted me that day. My eyes are tearing up at work just thinking about you all and what you are going through. I will continue to pray for all of you. Ray > It would seem I lost my job today, I made arangements for my cats to go, > my condo has been leased and I am out on the 23rd, and my car had two > flat tires. This has been a far worse experience than losing my mother. > Oh GOD, what am I going to do? I have never had a panic attack in my > life and I almost did today. I started hyperventilating, but I caught > it quickly and just breathed. > > > > > > --------------------------------- > Looking for last minute shopping deals? Find them fast with Search. > > > > > --------------------------------- > Never miss a thing. Make your homepage. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 24, 2008 Report Share Posted January 24, 2008 Fritolay- PLEASE keep your chin up right now- I'm holding you up in my prayers and I believe that you will be free of this pestilence before 2008 ends... I REALLY BELIEVE THAT! Now, after praying literally for hours last night, this is what God told me to tell you and everyone else- The one thing that I've gotten from Dr. Staninger that has worked the best and really cleared these things from my body are the " Opaline oxygen pills " . They seem to kill these things off and believe me FL, after having this as long as I have and trying all the stuff that I have, I KNOW WHAT WORKS! (on me atleast) In the past 3 weeks I have been in the steam room 7 times and tried sulfur and mineral oil 3 times to extract these fibers and black specks from my skin and I cannot get anything to come out- nothing comes out when I do this and as I have said in my previous posts, when I did the steam room or sulfur / mineral oil before I had hundreds if not thousands of crawlies come out of my skin immediately. This is not to mention the fact that I feel great and my appearance has improved dramatically. I believe that when I got so sick it was because there were probably millions of little mite carcasses in my system that most likely poisoned me and clogged up my system for a minute. I think the oxygen kills these things or atleast has done something to my body that makes me stronger or at minimum, less palatable. You're smarter than me so you could probably figure out exactly how it works much sooner than myself. BUT! I think you should call Dr. Staninger and order atleast a small bottle of these pills and give them a chance... I am not trying to sell anything FL- I really believe this works as I've seen the results on other people who were covered with lesions from head to toe and myself and I desparately want you to be healthy so that you can continue helping other's. Please call her today and talk to her about this. If you can't afford it then tell her and I'll see what I can do for you on my end. The small bottle if 29.99 and the large (300 pills) is 59.99. If you need help with this let me know and I'll see what I can do. PLEASE CALL HER TODAY FL- I really believe that this will give you the relief that you need right now. I'm praying for all of us but especially you and Cyndi........ CALL HER!!! som > It would seem I lost my job today, I made arangements for my cats to go, > my condo has been leased and I am out on the 23rd, and my car had two > flat tires. This has been a far worse experience than losing my mother. > Oh GOD, what am I going to do? I have never had a panic attack in my > life and I almost did today. I started hyperventilating, but I caught > it quickly and just breathed. > > > > > > > --------------------------------- > Looking for last minute shopping deals? Find them fast with Search. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 24, 2008 Report Share Posted January 24, 2008 Ray- thank you for your conforting words. I too have started to look at people and life so differently because of this problem. I had about 20 boxes of documents and belongings stored for a couple of months and over the weekend I decided to bag them and gas them to try to clean them and I think that's how I got so heavily reinfested. I'm going to throw away everything I had in boxes except the most important documents. I remember you mentioned that you would see the white little things moving in the air and you were sure there were not dirt. I'm confirming the same, except that I see tons of it. If I shake my pats at the end of the day I can see a bunch of these crap flying around. Could they be colonies of protozooa? I bathed on windex for a couple of days and it just made my skin really bad. Please don't try that anybody. Thanks-MM > > It would seem I lost my job today, I made arangements for my > cats to go, > > my condo has been leased and I am out on the 23rd, and my car had > two > > flat tires. This has been a far worse experience than losing my > mother. > > Oh GOD, what am I going to do? I have never had a panic attack in my > > life and I almost did today. I started hyperventilating, but I > caught > > it quickly and just breathed. > > > > > > > > > > > > --------------------------------- > > Looking for last minute shopping deals? Find them fast with > Search. > > > > > > > > > > --------------------------------- > > Never miss a thing. Make your homepage. > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 24, 2008 Report Share Posted January 24, 2008 Dear SOM, Thanks for sharing your message with all of us. Do you have Dr. Staninger's phone number and her address by chance? And are those oxygen pills or something similar available at a health food store or do you know? Thanks so much! Lady Dee > > It would seem I lost my job today, I made arangements for > my cats to go, > > my condo has been leased and I am out on the 23rd, and my car had > two > > flat tires. This has been a far worse experience than losing my > mother. > > Oh GOD, what am I going to do? I have never had a panic attack in my > > life and I almost did today. I started hyperventilating, but I > caught > > it quickly and just breathed. > > > > > > > > > > > > > > --------------------------------- > > Looking for last minute shopping deals? Find them fast with > Search. > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 24, 2008 Report Share Posted January 24, 2008 give 'em hell, ray rey. you are better now, so don't take any s from those people at work. i love your stories. you always touch my heart.castiar <castiar@...> wrote: FL66,I am so sorry about everything going on.I have been so busy at work due to some people trying to take advantage of the fact that I didn't get some things done a few months ago. They are using it as a way to try and kiss up and make themselves look better.I no longer look at people the same anymore. Nobody knows what you are going through unless they have really been there. If I don't get the results I want out of someone I just figure that maybe they have other issues going on in life that I don't understand.Understanding one another is what draws us together.You and others here have been a friend to me when it seemed I lost all my friends. People who I thought would really understand and try to help me would avoid me.Some still do avoid me.I've had some really bad days but you are really having a bad one.MM-I'm sorry you are still dealing with this.Being held captive and at the mercy of some invisible mite is awful.I remember sitting on my mom's front porch with my 5 yr old daughter and I couldn't touch her and she would say, "Its okay" and want to sit right next to me.I'd have to move real fast or tell her firmly to "Stay away from me!"Inside I felt like the biggest A-hole for pushing her away and at the same time it would just break my heart.You want to hold your baby and confort them.I finally lost it one day and started crying on the front porch. Kids shouldn't have to see that. She was the one who comforted me that day.My eyes are tearing up at work just thinking about you all and what you are going through.I will continue to pray for all of you.Ray> It would seem I lost my job today, I made arangements for my cats to go,> my condo has been leased and I am out on the 23rd, and my car had two> flat tires. This has been a far worse experience than losing my mother.> Oh GOD, what am I going to do? I have never had a panic attack in my> life and I almost did today. I started hyperventilating, but I caught> it quickly and just breathed.> > > > > > ---------------------------------> Looking for last minute shopping deals? Find them fast with Search. > > > > > ---------------------------------> Never miss a thing. Make your homepage.> Be a better friend, newshound, and know-it-all with Mobile. Try it now. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 24, 2008 Report Share Posted January 24, 2008 MM...Thank you...I look at people so differently but I also look at myself differently as well. What you are going through at work is along the same lines as me but I lost. Don't give up, what amazes me is the development of my tolerance. Where I was once active, laughing, bouncy happy, I am now quite and withdrawn. Quite the serious sort the past year. Lost my sense of humor most hours of the day. It rips me up knowing my son is suffering. He actually broke down about it last fall. He told me about the things that run through his head when he is at school or with his friends. He was asked to switch seats with someone and he actually gor sick thinking about how he might be giving these things to that person. The school called me to come pick him up that day. I had no idea the toll it was taking on him until he confided in me. We had a good talk then. He has been a sole supporter of me this past few months. I think I can honestly say that this is the worst thing in my life I have had to deal with without my mother. Truly on my own thing. No pick me up, you can do it, how can I help, I love you daughter thing. If I didn't have all of you I would have been committed. I am fortunate in an unfortunate situation. GOD Bless.manymites <manymts@...> wrote: Ray- thank you for your conforting words. I too have started to look at people and life so differently because of this problem.I had about 20 boxes of documents and belongings stored for a couple of months and over the weekend I decided to bag them and gas them to try to clean them and I think that's how I got so heavily reinfested.I'm going to throw away everything I had in boxes except the most important documents.I remember you mentioned that you would see the white little things moving in the air and you were sure there were not dirt. I'm confirming the same, except that I see tons of it. If I shake my pats at the end of the day I can see a bunch of these crap flying around. Could they be colonies of protozooa?I bathed on windex for a couple of days and it just made my skin really bad. Please don't try that anybody.Thanks-MM> > It would seem I lost my job today, I made arangements for my > cats to go,> > my condo has been leased and I am out on the 23rd, and my car had > two> > flat tires. This has been a far worse experience than losing my > mother.> > Oh GOD, what am I going to do? I have never had a panic attack in my> > life and I almost did today. I started hyperventilating, but I > caught> > it quickly and just breathed.> > > > > > > > > > > > ---------------------------------> > Looking for last minute shopping deals? Find them fast with > Search. > > > > > > > > > > ---------------------------------> > Never miss a thing. Make your homepage.> >> Looking for last minute shopping deals? Find them fast with Search. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 24, 2008 Report Share Posted January 24, 2008 Frito Lay: I have cried many a nights for my parents through this ordeal. They are gone now and I sure miss them. My son started crying the other day, because he doesn't know how to handle this situation with me. It is effecting him, too. I don't know what to do about it. It made me feel bad, that, at his really great time in life, 21, he should be enjoying himself and growing. I feel like I am holding him back. But, he endures,and so do I. Every day is a new day and a new hope. Take care, FritoLay.fritolay66 <fritolay66@...> wrote: MM...Thank you...I look at people so differently but I also look at myself differently as well. What you are going through at work is along the same lines as me but I lost. Don't give up, what amazes me is the development of my tolerance. Where I was once active, laughing, bouncy happy, I am now quite and withdrawn. Quite the serious sort the past year. Lost my sense of humor most hours of the day. It rips me up knowing my son is suffering. He actually broke down about it last fall. He told me about the things that run through his head when he is at school or with his friends. He was asked to switch seats with someone and he actually gor sick thinking about how he might be giving these things to that person. The school called me to come pick him up that day. I had no idea the toll it was taking on him until he confided in me. We had a good talk then. He has been a sole supporter of me this past few months. I think I can honestly say that this is the worst thing in my life I have had to deal with without my mother. Truly on my own thing. No pick me up, you can do it, how can I help, I love you daughter thing. If I didn't have all of you I would have been committed. I am fortunate in an unfortunate situation. GOD Bless.manymites <manymtsgmail> wrote: Ray- thank you for your conforting words. I too have started to look at people and life so differently because of this problem.I had about 20 boxes of documents and belongings stored for a couple of months and over the weekend I decided to bag them and gas them to try to clean them and I think that's how I got so heavily reinfested.I'm going to throw away everything I had in boxes except the most important documents.I remember you mentioned that you would see the white little things moving in the air and you were sure there were not dirt. I'm confirming the same, except that I see tons of it. If I shake my pats at the end of the day I can see a bunch of these crap flying around. Could they be colonies of protozooa?I bathed on windex for a couple of days and it just made my skin really bad. Please don't try that anybody.Thanks-MM> > It would seem I lost my job today, I made arangements for my > cats to go,> > my condo has been leased and I am out on the 23rd, and my car had > two> > flat tires. This has been a far worse experience than losing my > mother.> > Oh GOD, what am I going to do? I have never had a panic attack in my> > life and I almost did today. I started hyperventilating, but I > caught> > it quickly and just breathed.> > > > > > > > > > > > ---------------------------------> > Looking for last minute shopping deals? Find them fast with > Search. > > > > > > > > > > ---------------------------------> > Never miss a thing. Make your homepage.> >> Looking for last minute shopping deals? Find them fast with Search. Never miss a thing. Make your homepage. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 24, 2008 Report Share Posted January 24, 2008 Mel- I hope you're keeping your chin up too...... You're in my prayers- som > > > It would seem I lost my job today, I made arangements for > my > > cats to go, > > > my condo has been leased and I am out on the 23rd, and my car had > > two > > > flat tires. This has been a far worse experience than losing my > > mother. > > > Oh GOD, what am I going to do? I have never had a panic attack in > my > > > life and I almost did today. I started hyperventilating, but I > > caught > > > it quickly and just breathed. > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > --------------------------------- > > > Looking for last minute shopping deals? Find them fast with > > Search. > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > --------------------------------- > > > Never miss a thing. Make your homepage. > > > > > > > > > > > --------------------------------- > Looking for last minute shopping deals? Find them fast with Search. > > > > > --------------------------------- > Never miss a thing. Make your homepage. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 25, 2008 Report Share Posted January 25, 2008 som. i thought you forgot about me. has anyone used hydrogen peroxide on their hands and arms with these mites. I use it and i feel so much pain whereever there are mites. does it kill them? it is a penetrant, so it does get way down into your skin.sikofmites <sikofmites@...> wrote: Mel- I hope you're keeping your chin up too......You're in my prayers-som> > > It would seem I lost my job today, I made arangements for > my > > cats to go,> > > my condo has been leased and I am out on the 23rd, and my car had > > two> > > flat tires. This has been a far worse experience than losing my > > mother.> > > Oh GOD, what am I going to do? I have never had a panic attack in > my> > > life and I almost did today. I started hyperventilating, but I > > caught> > > it quickly and just breathed.> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > ---------------------------------> > > Looking for last minute shopping deals? Find them fast with > > Search. > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > ---------------------------------> > > Never miss a thing. Make your homepage.> > >> >> > > > > > ---------------------------------> Looking for last minute shopping deals? Find them fast with Search. > > > > > ---------------------------------> Never miss a thing. Make your homepage.> Looking for last minute shopping deals? Find them fast with Search. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 25, 2008 Report Share Posted January 25, 2008 som. i thought you forgot about me. has anyone used hydrogen peroxide on their hands and arms with these mites. I use it and i feel so much pain whereever there are mites. does it kill them? it is a penetrant, so it does get way down into your skin.sikofmites <sikofmites@...> wrote: Mel- I hope you're keeping your chin up too......You're in my prayers-som> > > It would seem I lost my job today, I made arangements for > my > > cats to go,> > > my condo has been leased and I am out on the 23rd, and my car had > > two> > > flat tires. This has been a far worse experience than losing my > > mother.> > > Oh GOD, what am I going to do? I have never had a panic attack in > my> > > life and I almost did today. I started hyperventilating, but I > > caught> > > it quickly and just breathed.> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > ---------------------------------> > > Looking for last minute shopping deals? Find them fast with > > Search. > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > ---------------------------------> > > Never miss a thing. Make your homepage.> > >> >> > > > > > ---------------------------------> Looking for last minute shopping deals? Find them fast with Search. > > > > > ---------------------------------> Never miss a thing. Make your homepage.> Looking for last minute shopping deals? Find them fast with Search. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 26, 2008 Report Share Posted January 26, 2008 Hi all, I just wrote the longest response and it all got deleted ugh! I want to say that I feel your pain. I am quite depressed right now. I have been doing the epsom salt coating and i find black things in the bowl when i dip my fingers back into it after rubbing the mixture onto my skin. I am going to take these black specks to my dr to look at them. I went to Mammoth Ski Resort last week and I felt much better up there...the elevation in the town is 8000 feet i think... I think the bastards could not handle that altitude for a sustained amount of time. But as soon as we left...I started feeling them again. The lower the elevation--the more i felt them again...I think the eggs in the car were hatching even tho many of the adults died from the elevation and cold. I am thinking about moving up there. But last winter I moved to Salt Lake City, Utah --elevation 5000 feet and I still felt them....but i was able to get rid of them in 3 months there. Any thoughts about elevation effecting the bastards???? I look at the world so differently now... I used to be happy, positive, bouncy, and athletic and pretty and social. Now I am depressed, negative , tired , out of shape, and haggard. I do not talk to any of my friends. It makes me sick to hear about their petty little problems. I would give ANYTHING to have just their littlte fucking pathetic problems. An example of this--a nosy mother-in-law. That is what my best friend complains about to me all the time. It makes me so pissed off I just want to yell at her that she should be happy all of the time. I will never spend a second being unhappy if I could get rid of this hell!!! This is the worst thing I have ever had in my life!!! And no one understands--except you all. I could use some inspiration...I think about suicide all the time. I just want to live in a different body. Dont worry--I wont kill myself only because of the 1 simple fact that I love my little dog and could not leave her. Does anyone have any thoughts that can help me??? I am so depressed I cant stand it... Love, L --- Mel <iggydoll@...> wrote: > som. i thought you forgot about me. has anyone used > hydrogen peroxide on their hands and arms with these > mites. I use it and i feel so much pain whereever > there are mites. does it kill them? it is a > penetrant, so it does get way down into your skin. > > sikofmites <sikofmites@...> wrote: > Mel- I hope you're keeping your chin up too...... > You're in my prayers- > > som > > > === message truncated === ________________________________________________________________________________\ ____ Be a better friend, newshound, and know-it-all with Mobile. Try it now. http://mobile./;_ylt=Ahu06i62sR8HDtDypao8Wcj9tAcJ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 26, 2008 Report Share Posted January 26, 2008 Lucy Lu.... You have put into words what I have been thinking. Except the suicide thing. I would love to have different skin. Inspiration from SOM......you know what they will never understand. Life is too beautiful to take it away purposely, whether we are ugly on the outside. I was also considered pretty until all of this. My skin is so badly damaged, I won't ever be able to have that label again. Very athletic as well too, but not like I used to be. I dread the spring and summer when short sleeves and string tops come back into favor. Ugghh. How do we fake that one? So many suffer... I keep trying to find avenues in which I can pursue outside of the mite thing, like biking at dusk, and running when no one is about. I walk by the river in full dress, as cold as it is here, no one else is there. Please keep salting. It is working but it will take time. I don't know about your skin, but my scar borders were still raised after months and months. Those are dissappearing so incredibly slowly but they are changing. The color is changing, my pores are changing, again ever so slowly. My nails, feet, and hair seem to be improving. My nose is still a problem, but I figure what ever comes out of it will die with the salt and MSM. I have found mixing it with clay, MSM, and EV Coconut Oil works even better. It has given me hope when I was out of it. I think depression comes with this. Bipolar, Schizophrenia, paranoia,....I joke around that I have more personalities than Sybil. I took some of the info you gave about healthwalk, the Samento, Burbur, and Cumanda. My family likes this stuff. They have said it makes them feel better and I concur. I haven't spoken with Healthwalk personally, but I have researched Dr. Cowdens protocol extensively after your posts. I really like his way of thinking. I thought it may be helpful to you to know that there are people out there in which you are helping, like me, even though you are suffering. Its wierd you would mention altitude. I am originally a Denverite. We spend time in Utah as well. Funny, but your right....the higher the altitude, the less activity. You have given me another avenue to research. In my worst moments of depression, I tear apart my house and clean it OCD like. Afterwords, I always feel better. Then I shower, treat, and go for a walk. Eat dinner, and it seems to turn me around a bit. I have to force myself to do it sometimes. Lucy...keep going forward....I think together this forum is having some great things happen, they just never seem to happen fast enough. Together, we shall persevere. Lucy Lu <lucylu62@...> wrote: Hi all,I just wrote the longest response and it all gotdeleted ugh!I want to say that I feel your pain.I am quite depressed right now.I have been doing the epsom salt coating and i findblack things in the bowl when i dip my fingers backinto it after rubbing the mixture onto my skin. I amgoing to take these black specks to my dr to look atthem.I went to Mammoth Ski Resort last week and I feltmuch better up there...the elevation in the town is8000 feet i think...I think the bastards could not handle that altitudefor a sustained amount of time.But as soon as we left...I started feeling them again.The lower the elevation--the more i felt themagain...I think the eggs in the car were hatching eventho many of the adults died from the elevation andcold.I am thinking about moving up there.But last winter I moved to Salt Lake City, Utah --elevation 5000 feet and I still felt them....but iwas able to get rid of them in 3 months there.Any thoughts about elevation effecting thebastards????I look at the world so differently now...I used to be happy, positive, bouncy, and athletic andpretty and social.Now I am depressed, negative , tired , out of shape,and haggard.I do not talk to any of my friends.It makes me sick to hear about their petty littleproblems.I would give ANYTHING to have just their littltefucking pathetic problems.An example of this--a nosy mother-in-law. That iswhat my best friend complains about to me all thetime. It makes me so pissed off I just want to yellat her that she should be happy all of the time.I will never spend a second being unhappy if I couldget rid of this hell!!!This is the worst thing I have ever had in my life!!!And no one understands--except you all.I could use some inspiration...I think about suicideall the time.I just want to live in a different body.Dont worry--I wont kill myself only because of the 1simple fact that I love my little dog and could notleave her.Does anyone have any thoughts that can help me???I am so depressed I cant stand it...Love, L--- Mel <iggydoll > wrote:> som. i thought you forgot about me. has anyone used> hydrogen peroxide on their hands and arms with these> mites. I use it and i feel so much pain whereever> there are mites. does it kill them? it is a> penetrant, so it does get way down into your skin.> > sikofmites <sikofmites > wrote: > Mel- I hope you're keeping your chin up too......> You're in my prayers-> > som> > > === message truncated ===__________________________________________________________Be a better friend, newshound, and know-it-all with Mobile. Try it now. http://mobile./;_ylt=Ahu06i62sR8HDtDypao8Wcj9tAcJ Be a better friend, newshound, and know-it-all with Mobile. Try it now. Be a better friend, newshound, and know-it-all with Mobile. Try it now. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 26, 2008 Report Share Posted January 26, 2008 Lucylu- we all share the same common frustrations. I used to be a very positive person but since some months have turned very quiet and reserved. I've also thought at times of moving to the desert (AZ) or Alaska then I think about my family and dog realize that in addition to my pride, I have too much to fight for and cannot afford to give up. I agree with SOM that as a consequence of this experience we become better human beings at the end. In trying to overcome my feelings of depression I have come to realize that I have more clarity in my reasoning and problems for normal people seem easier to figure out or put up with. Life, as I knew it before have become so precious that only a few can understand. I also recognize that even with so much taken away from me, there are others less fortunate than us that still lead happy lives. I often think that our unbearable problems would seem like the mother in law story to people that never get the chance to walk or see. I don't wan't to sound mediocre. On the contrary, the good news is that our condition is not a permanent one. It is something that we can and will overcome soon. (God nows when) In my case, the biggest battle is mental keeping motivated and focused on continuing with our lives and searching for the way to better ourselves. Think about all the things you would like to do when you get rid of these things and make a plan for the first year. Try to visualize it that way and start planning a month at a time. Remember that these things are only temporary and it's only a matter of time before you are completely free of them. God Bless you- MM > > > === message truncated === > > > > ________________________________________________________________________\ ____________ > Be a better friend, newshound, and > know-it-all with Mobile. Try it now. http://mobile./;_ylt=Ahu06i62sR8HDtDypao8Wcj9tAcJ > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 27, 2008 Report Share Posted January 27, 2008 Mel...I don't know what is the matter with me lately. I just wrote you a book and I deleted it again. Geishh.....It's three oclock in the am so I will write it all over again in the afternoon. You will laugh. Mel <iggydoll@...> wrote: Ms. Frito Bandito. You are strong. Things will get better and better for you. I don't usually pray, but tonight I will. Thanks for posting about scrub typhus, even though you are feeling bad, you still come through for us. you are too much, girlie. Melfritolay66 <fritolay66 > wrote: SOM, MM, Mel.... Thank you Mel...I laughed and then I cried. Emotionally MM, I am failing too. You guys, what GF dude is experiencing is Scrub typhus. It is caused by infestation or infection of the mite that infects you. It is commonly referred to as mite fever. It can be a rickettsia infection. Quite similar to the Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever, except it doesn't usually end up that bad. Som...thank you....MM...I will pray for your family. I am sorry, I am upset, and going to bed. I just have to make it and fake it until friday. I can't go to work with swollen eyes or else they will know that they have beat me up. fritolay66 <fritolay66 > wrote: It would seem I lost my job today, I made arangements for my cats to go,my condo has been leased and I am out on the 23rd, and my car had twoflat tires. This has been a far worse experience than losing my mother.Oh GOD, what am I going to do? I have never had a panic attack in mylife and I almost did today. I started hyperventilating, but I caughtit quickly and just breathed. Looking for last minute shopping deals? Find them fast with Search. Never miss a thing. Make your homepage. Looking for last minute shopping deals? Find them fast with Search. Be a better friend, newshound, and know-it-all with Mobile. Try it now. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 27, 2008 Report Share Posted January 27, 2008 Lucy Lu, Mel & Ray, I read your posts again this morning and it makes me very sad to think that things are so bad you think about suicide. Please Please don't go there. Every time it flashes through your mind pray about it. I don't know if you are a christian, but if you are, God has promised he would not give us more than we can bear. I know it seems at times that is such a trite saying, but it is one I believe in strongly. I am not the best christian in the world but I do try to pray for others besides myself and all of you are some of my top priorities. I firmly believe we can overcome this pestilence with time and God's help. More and more is being found all the time and we have at last caught a little bit of media attention which is bound to spread. I'm sure there are people who will never believe us but there are lots more now who do. Please keep your chin up and remember everyone who would be so unhappy to lose you. If the friends you have now do not support you, they are not true friends and there are a lot of good people out there who will believe you and support you. DON'T GIVE UP OR GIVE IN. Joan > > > > > === message truncated === > > > > > > > > > ________________________________________________________________________\ \ > ____________ > > Be a better friend, newshound, and > > know-it-all with Mobile. Try it now. > http://mobile./;_ylt=Ahu06i62sR8HDtDypao8Wcj9tAcJ > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 27, 2008 Report Share Posted January 27, 2008 MM- that was an AWESOME and totally inspiring post- you make me want to go beat up a side of beef and then run up the stairs of the local library in my grey sweats....... som > > > > > === message truncated === > > > > > > > > > ______________________________________________________________________ __\ > ____________ > > Be a better friend, newshound, and > > know-it-all with Mobile. Try it now. > http://mobile./;_ylt=Ahu06i62sR8HDtDypao8Wcj9tAcJ > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 27, 2008 Report Share Posted January 27, 2008 Dear Lucy Lu,I can relate to your depression, frustration and suicidal ideation. If I had had a gun handy last summer, I would have blown my brains out on a couple of occasions, but like you, I didn't want to abandon my pets. Not to mention that suicide is a really cruel thing to do to your loved ones.I don't have any words of inspiration for you, but highly recommend that you go outdoors and exercise, at least walk around. It's hard to feel depressed and suicidal when you're outside exercising. Sunlight will help your mood. Staying indoors too much, cooped up with the bugs, makes your mental condition worse.If you live in the L.A. area, I'm sure there are some excellent acupuncturists, and Ayurvedic practitioners in your area. If your health insurance doesn't cover acupuncture, Ayurveda might be more economical.I hope things get better for you soon Lucy Lu.Aloha,Seiko Looking for last minute shopping deals? Find them fast with Search. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 27, 2008 Report Share Posted January 27, 2008 Nice visual experience.....thank you SOM.......lolsikofmites <sikofmites@...> wrote: MM- that was an AWESOME and totally inspiring post- you make me want to go beat up a side of beef and then run up the stairs of the local library in my grey sweats....... ;)som;)> > >> > === message truncated ===> >> >> >> >> ____________________________________________________________\> ____________> > Be a better friend, newshound, and> > know-it-all with Mobile. Try it now.> http://mobile./;_ylt=Ahu06i62sR8HDtDypao8Wcj9tAcJ> >> Never miss a thing. Make your homepage. Be a better friend, newshound, and know-it-all with Mobile. Try it now. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 27, 2008 Report Share Posted January 27, 2008 SOM- thanks for the comments, I'm glad you liked it. I think you do a great job motivating everyone in addition to your constant research for products and solutions. Thanks for all the good work! MM > > > > > > > === message truncated === > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > ______________________________________________________________________ > __\ > > ____________ > > > Be a better friend, newshound, and > > > know-it-all with Mobile. Try it now. > > http://mobile./;_ylt=Ahu06i62sR8HDtDypao8Wcj9tAcJ > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 23, 2008 Report Share Posted February 23, 2008 Hi Keri I am so sorry that you are feeling so low today and it is difficult to know what to say to you to re-assure you that this feeling will not last forever. I can re-assure you that the majority of us have been there and have felt the low depths, but probably not been in exactly the spot that you are right now. I can promise you however, that joining this forum is probably the best thing you have done because you will get lots of help and support to guide you through all this. Food to help boost your adrenals will not be enough, you need adrenal glandulars - probably cortisol itself. The best person on this forum to talk to you about adrenal supplementation is probably Bella as she has suffered with very low adrenal reserve and has studied up on the subject. You will be amazed how much better you will feel when they have been straightened out. You ARE a strong women, you must be because you have overcome an eating disorder and also overcome alcoholism, even though you are still in recovery, probably always will be, but as time goes on, it honestly does get better and there is light at the end of the tunnel, so continue to be strong until you see Dr Peatfield, who, you will find out soon, is a wonderful man and a great healer. He knows what he is talking about when it comes to thyroid and adrenal problems and has made thousands of people well again. Also, think of the members of this forum as your new friends. We are here to help each other. So treat us like friends - ask us loads of questions, there will always be somebody around to hopefully give you an answer. We also have another 'chat' forum where you can chat away about anything other than thyroid - so this may help lift your spirits when you feel so low. Maybe Lilian has already sent you an invitation to join that, but if not, she soon will. You obviously need a couple of days away, I wish I could move our clinic and our Yorkshire Get Together day forward, but I can't, and Dr Peatfield is so busy because so many people need to see him. This shows how badly the NHS treats hypothyroid sufferers. I know you will enjoy it and make even more new friends. Swapping our stories helps to know that there ARE other people who know exactly what you are going through. Meanwhile Keri, go and buy some Siberian Ginseng and some good old fashioned liquorice. I used to buy the hard black black liquorice and pour boiling water on it and make strong liquorice tea. This is a wonderful boost for your adrenals. luv - Sheila I just wanted to say how I feel today. I am waiting for the armour thyroid to arrive from the States. These past few weeks, I have been getting more and more listless - I struggle to have a bath and then get dressed, particularly in the mornings. My day starts properly a around 5 pm. I know my corisol is lowest in the morning from the saliva tests.However, today I feel very low. I am getting more and more tearful and now have absolutely no enjoyment with my food which is so strange as I am in recovery from binge eating disorder. I never go off my food.This last year I have seen a naturopath, 2 nutrionists, a life coach, a counsellor (ongoing and helpful) and an acupuncturist just lately who says from the needling there is no joy in my life. I am also in recovery from alcoholism. I am on a special diet to help the adrenals as the cortisol is so low but my body is screaming for coffee - just something to pick me up a little.I know I have abused my body. I am fed up with life. I will be 50 this April and feel like a very old lady.I know I need to keep positive but it is so difficult and I live on my own too - sorry about this poor me but I know most of you will understand.I have my appointment with Dr Peatfield booked for the end of March and I will be getting away for a couple of days to do that.I know I look normal so it is difficult for people to understand what's going on inside.There is hardly any fight left. No virus found in this incoming message.Checked by AVG Free Edition. Version: 7.5.516 / Virus Database: 269.20.8/1289 - Release Date: 20/02/2008 10:26 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 23, 2008 Report Share Posted February 23, 2008 Hi Kericaswell An emergency supply of B vits (A good high strength one would get you started) and some vit C (maybe 500-1000mg) is called for to support your adrenals; it might also be worth getting hold of some vitamin B5 (pantothenic acid) separately....to add it to the 'mix'...from there onwards, other sources (vits/minerals) may be helpful.....could need zinc, but best get it tested if you can (Zn,Cu,Fe ~ zinc,copper,iron) best wishes Bob > > I just wanted to say how I feel today. I am waiting for the armour > thyroid to arrive from the States. These past few weeks, I have > been getting more and more listless - I struggle to have a bath and > then get dressed, particularly in the mornings. My day starts > properly a around 5 pm. I know my corisol is lowest in the morning > from the saliva tests. > > However, today I feel very low. I am getting more and more tearful > and now have absolutely no enjoyment with my food which is so > strange as I am in recovery from binge eating disorder. I never go > off my food. > > This last year I have seen a naturopath, 2 nutrionists, a life > coach, a counsellor (ongoing and helpful) and an acupuncturist just > lately who says from the needling there is no joy in my life. I am > also in recovery from alcoholism. I am on a special diet to help > the adrenals as the cortisol is so low but my body is screaming for > coffee - just something to pick me up a little. > > I know I have abused my body. I am fed up with life. I will be 50 > this April and feel like a very old lady. > > I know I need to keep positive but it is so difficult and I live on > my own too - sorry about this poor me but I know most of you will > understand. > > I have my appointment with Dr Peatfield booked for the end of March > and I will be getting away for a couple of days to do that. > > I know I look normal so it is difficult for people to understand > what's going on inside. > > There is hardly any fight left. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 23, 2008 Report Share Posted February 23, 2008 Hi again Keri, I almost forgot, you may need folic acid (could need 5mg/day for a few months) and magnesium (but make sure it's available as a soluble salt of some sort ~ magnesium ascorbate or perhaps the lactate ... there are others .. best wishes Bob > > I just wanted to say how I feel today. I am waiting for the armour > thyroid to arrive from the States. These past few weeks, I have > been getting more and more listless - I struggle to have a bath and > then get dressed, particularly in the mornings. My day starts > properly a around 5 pm. I know my corisol is lowest in the morning > from the saliva tests. > > However, today I feel very low. I am getting more and more tearful > and now have absolutely no enjoyment with my food which is so > strange as I am in recovery from binge eating disorder. I never go > off my food. > > This last year I have seen a naturopath, 2 nutrionists, a life > coach, a counsellor (ongoing and helpful) and an acupuncturist just > lately who says from the needling there is no joy in my life. I am > also in recovery from alcoholism. I am on a special diet to help > the adrenals as the cortisol is so low but my body is screaming for > coffee - just something to pick me up a little. > > I know I have abused my body. I am fed up with life. I will be 50 > this April and feel like a very old lady. > > I know I need to keep positive but it is so difficult and I live on > my own too - sorry about this poor me but I know most of you will > understand. > > I have my appointment with Dr Peatfield booked for the end of March > and I will be getting away for a couple of days to do that. > > I know I look normal so it is difficult for people to understand > what's going on inside. > > There is hardly any fight left. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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