Very low

[Guest guest]

I just wanted to say how I feel today. I am waiting for the armour

thyroid to arrive from the States. These past few weeks, I have

been getting more and more listless - I struggle to have a bath and

then get dressed, particularly in the mornings. My day starts

properly a around 5 pm. I know my corisol is lowest in the morning

from the saliva tests.

However, today I feel very low. I am getting more and more tearful

and now have absolutely no enjoyment with my food which is so

strange as I am in recovery from binge eating disorder. I never go

off my food.

This last year I have seen a naturopath, 2 nutrionists, a life

coach, a counsellor (ongoing and helpful) and an acupuncturist just

lately who says from the needling there is no joy in my life. I am

also in recovery from alcoholism. I am on a special diet to help

the adrenals as the cortisol is so low but my body is screaming for

coffee - just something to pick me up a little.

I know I have abused my body. I am fed up with life. I will be 50

this April and feel like a very old lady.

I know I need to keep positive but it is so difficult and I live on

my own too - sorry about this poor me but I know most of you will

understand.

I have my appointment with Dr Peatfield booked for the end of March

and I will be getting away for a couple of days to do that.

I know I look normal so it is difficult for people to understand

what's going on inside.

There is hardly any fight left.