a bit of a teary today

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hi folks,

i've noticed that others have written when they are feeling lousy,

so today it is my turn ):

the following message feels very self indulgent and 'poor me' but

i'm going ahead and will send it. i try to adhere to my plan to get

well and there aren't too many times when i feel like a sook, but

today is one of those days.

i was supposed to be picking someone up about 20 minutes ago, but

called them 1/2 hr before i was supposed to go to let them know that

i was feeling shaky and quite unwell because i wasn't able to get to

sleep until 4am. I told them i intended on coming to get them but

needed more time because of the way i was feeling. the person i

called is another person who has hashimoto's and is hypo.

she then started to ask whether i'd taken my electrolytes this

morning (for some reason she really pushes this since i told her

that the naturopath suggested this might be a good idea), then told

me that i shouldn't be eating so late into the night because it

might be affecting my sleep (when i told

her that i've been unable to sleep since about mid way through last

year and that i've eaten late for years and years [by the way, it is

quite normal in India to have dinner at 9pm - not that i'm Indian]

she said well it might

be affecting my sleeping and that she might stand on one leg for

years and then work out that she can't anymore so she has to stop

doing it - that didn't make too much sense to me but i think i know

what she meant), and then asked in a bit of an inpatient way what i

was doing differently and whether i was still taking certain

supplements etc. i felt like i was in the middle of a spanish

inquisition. she then told me not to go back to bed but to get in

the shower and i told her i had to lie down because i didn't feel

well enough to shower or drive to her place, but with a rest i

might. i then said that it sounded like she was angry with me.

she said no, not angry, just frustrated because she had planned to

do the thing that we had planned today and she was frustrated

because the plans were mucked up. i left it until half an hour

before we were supposed to go to call her because before that time i

was hoping that i might feel better. she sort of 'spat' her words

out at me and was really quite bossy. this might be a bit nasty of

me, but this person takes thyroxine and a supplement that i

suggested and doesn't really do anything else to help their own

health along despite having quite poor health. most days i really

love this person, but today they are giving me the #$%^ &

this all sounds a bit of a jumble, mainly because it is. my brain

feels foggy today and i feel extremely tired on the outside and a

bit buzzy on the inside. it feels absolutely awful. i am trembling

and my eyes and face look really puffy today (not from crying - i

haven't cried). i really want to go and do the thing we planned

today because it involves my daughter and it is a very special

experience for her, however i feel terrible. i will go, but it is

going to take a bit of a self-imposed push.

i will get in the shower now and get myself ready, but really i will

be absolutely dragging myself there and after our telephone call it

has sort of spoilt the nice feeling i had about going. the person i

spoke to is a relative so it makes it feel even worse and the fact

she also suffers from the same thing as me makes it feel even, even

worse.

when i pick her up, if she starts on again i'm going to tell her

that i don't want to discuss it and to back off. i don't need to be

lectured nor have her tell me what to do. i'm responsible for my

own well-being and don't need someone else telling me how to manage

my own health.

Phew. thanks for listening. i'm sure that others have been in

similar situations. i'm not normally a whining , but today I

am.

P