I Thought

[Guest guest]

I thought that getting the diploma will make me happy

I thought that getting this certain job will make me happy

I thought that following this career will make me happy

I thought that having this money will make me forever happy

 

I thought that going to those interesting places in the world will make me happy

I thought that a visit to sacred places in Asia will make me happy.

I thought that getting success will make me happy

I thought that having the fame will make me forever happy

 

I thought that marriage will make me happy

I thought that material things will make me happy

Avalanche of “I thoughts”

Those all “I thoughts” are really just thoughts that I thought will make me forever happy.

 

I think about what I have done in the past that made me happy.

I think about what will I do in the future that will make me happy.

I think about what I did yesterday.

I think of what I will be doing tomorrow.

Puerile reverie!

 

Past and future, yesterday and tomorrow are just thoughts…

And my present, I’m not sure if it is also a thought or a dream or a movie,

Or maybe the present is only the reality that I have.

True friends and my family though contributed to my real happiness

but for sure happiness is a stream flowing to a lagoon of sensation, and  it’s wellspring is within me.

 

~Champs Ulysses Cabinatan

*poem draft