Re: Re: Pain Pain Pain.... need support

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I know you are feeling down and blue. Especially that people aren't

understanding your situation. You feel this the time where people need to be

more supported of you. Focus on what is good in you life. Take one day at a

time. Don't look at the over all picture. I know you have the strength and the

will to overcome. Stay busy and focus on how to tackle on problem at a time. Ask

god to give you peace and wisdom in your circumstance. Hang in there!

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Re: Pain Pain Pain.... need support

>

> I think the past few months have been trying to prepare me for what

> was coming. I have been able to find more pain than I thought

> possible. My left leg from hip to toes has been in spasms since

> December 22. That day my husband tok me to the ER. The doctor

> there was kind and respectful to what was going on. He gave me

some

> reasonable pain medication; in fact he was the first to give me

> proper medication. So, I actually felt quite well over Christmas.

> That was it. I saw my doctor the other day and he sneered and

said,

> people who take that level of pain medication should be dying of

> cancer etc.

> In the meantime, I am starting to feel sad, and I am on Effexor,

and

> a very large dose of that. I am afraid for my life. I am afraid

of

> losing my handsome, active caring husband, because this sucks for

him

> too. He has found some entertainment that does not include me, but

I

> still fear. He says he loves me and would never leave, but I know,

I

> just know how hard it is for me, so it has to be equally difficult

> for him, though in different ways.

> Friends, co workers, my mother, they all look at me as if to

> say, " what is it now... "

>

> I read recently that the #1 cause of death among people with

chronic

> pain was suicide. Don't get me wrong I am NOT suicidal at all.

But

> I understand what they are saying. Life is constant pain, and I

feel

> like I am watching it go by. For the first time in my life I

> understand that suicide is not about being sad, in fact it is about

> wanting to unburden others and about not feeling this pain that no

> one seems to understand anymore.

>

> I love my husband and my kids with my whole heart, soul, fibre and

> being. I just wish I didn't feel like such a burden to them.

>

> Then there is light... I know my fight is for a reason, even if I

> can't quite figure that out right now. I know God wouldn't give me

> more than I could handle. Would he?

>

Oh Carmen,

I can feel ur pain and despair. My life situation is not the same as

yours but all the pain, physical and emotional are the same. I go

thru the same feelings, like right now. I believe what u asked above

(God wd not give us more than we can handle).

Somewhere he must be trying to lead us to solutions (and, no, suicide

is NOT the answer).

That is why I'm glad Dominie set up this group. I'm new here and sure

how to navigate everything. I'm hoping that somehow all of us

together sharing, that there will become a more positive life for us

thru ideas, tips, knowledge and comfort and whatever it takes to

learn from each other gather knowledge and feel good (healthy content

with our life:)

Opps, I meant I'm not sure how to navagate this site. Sorry

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