Venting for a moment

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Hey all! I hope you don't mind if I vent for a few, but you (the

fibromites) are most likely the ONLY ones that will understand what

I'm feeling right now. Anyway, here goes...

I saw my rheumatologist this week (as I do about every 6 weeks).

Since last summer, he has told me I have R.A., fibro and possibly

lupus. I was taking Plaquenil for the possible lupus, trammadol for

pain, Indocin for inflamation.... anyway, this last visit my doctor

must have been having a really bad day. I told him the Trammadol

made me itch and he said to stop taking it then. (okay) He asked me

how I was doing... to which I replied that I was learning to deal

with the pain and get used to it. Some days were better than others

but I was dealing fairly well considering the circumstances. He told

me that NO ONE gets used to that type of pain. That obviously

nothing he was doing for me was helping. (He was very frustrated

with me!) He also told me to stop taking the Plaquenil since THAT

wasn't doing any good either. I tried to explain to him that I was

trying to adjust my attitude and make the most of my situation. He

wouldn't hear of it!

When I asked for suggestions that may ease my pain since I couldn't

take the Trammadol, he said " I'm not giving you high powered

narcotics! " (with that tears came to my eyes). I told him I didn't

ASK for those. I felt he was accusing me of just wanting drugs

although my blood work shows extrememe inflammation, an elevated SED

rate among other things. He then prescribed the Lyrica. He said,

your insurance may or may not pay for it. But that's all I can do

for you.

I left crying and felt so hurt and alone at that time. It still

bothers me, but have others dealt with this? I feel like I am at the

starting point again. I feel as if people thinkg I am imagining this

pain and all that comes with it!

Sorry for the long post. I'm just a little down about this still.

Thanks so much for reading my vent session.

(Gentle) Hugs to you all...

in TN