Re: Freaking out again!-Sheila

December 15, 2005

In a message dated 12/15/2005 2:49:09 P.M. Eastern Standard Time,

yrulooknback@... writes:

dropped lower again but my anc count it still OK so

> far. Has anyone

> ever had this problem and will things ever get

> " normal " I was

> curious how long some people take to get into

> remission? Then to

> top it off this past week four people in this small

> town that I live

> in passed away ~ all having cancer and they

Sheila, I know how you feel. It took me a year and a half to gain a good

remission. That was 5 years ago and I'm still here, so don't freak out. As many

people in the past have mentioned on the groups, this disease is a roller

coaster ride. One minute you're up, next your down, then up again. It takes

patience and of course, lots of courage and mind games, but you can do it.

Someone once told me to imagine the Gleevec as little soldiers that go into

your bone marrow and kill off the evil cells.

As far as all those people dying in the town, I had the same thing happen.

My husband died 2 years before my diagnosis at age 43 of small cell carcinoma.

15 people in our neighborhood (former neighborhood): 4 Leukemias, 4 small

cell carcinomas, 3 breast, 2 prostate, and 2 cervical. Most under the age of

45. So, I can understand how you feel.

Also, you are the second person this week to tell me that they lost their

dog. And the dog died of leukemia of all things!! Well, I told her what happened

with us, when we lost ours. It was terrible because she was like our child.

I know it sounds heartless to say it, but the thing I did was to go right

out and get a puppy. I told my friend that, and tonight she called me to say

her husband surprised her with an early Christmas present. When she got home

there was a little black lab waiting for her in the kitchen! She told me she

still cries over the loss of her ZuZu, but this precious little pup has her

crying for joy.

I have two of my own and I don't know what I'd do without their love, and

company.

So, " freak out " , you're definitely one of " us " now, and know that as far as

I'm concerned, I can say I understand you and know what you are going through.

We are all here for a common purpose, and that is to lend support and to

" talk " it through, especially rough times. Hang in there, and any time you want

to " talk " just give me an email, even privately if you'd like. Hugs, Lynne

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