On T4, feeling lobotomised, visiting dr's. Please help!

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Hi

I've just joined the group and I apologise if my request has been made before (I

suspect it has).

My history: I'm 43 and male. I was diagnosed with over-active thyroid some years

ago. This was " cured " with radioactive iodine, leaving me under-active. My

levels were stabilised over time on 100mcg Levothyroxine. I was subsequently

(year or so later) off work with depression, treated with anti-depressants.

I started a new job in January after 4 months without work and struggle everyday

to do it. As a computer programmer it requires all day thinking of weird and

wonderful issues. I feel I am barely hanging on by my fingernails and that I

will be found out anyday (they do, however, like me). I spend 4 hours commuting

by rail and underground everyday.

In hindsight I also struggled in my previous role, as a contractor in Canary

Wharf for an investment bank. I put this down to working in a huge, lifeless

corporate in an industry I pretty much despise. In hindsight however...

I'd say my symptoms are pretty compelling that something is wrong; depression,

moody, tiredness, memory and concentration, slow heart-rate, lack of interest,

life's a drag, etc...

I am visiting my GP tomorrow (Friday) and want to make some changes. I have been

reading " Stop the Thyroid Madness " , Dr J C. Lowes articles, etc and feel T3 or

NDT are the way to go. However, I'm anxious my GP will tell me to go away; " your

levels are normal " , etc, etc.

I don't want to go back on anti-depressants (even though they sort of worked).

I suppose I'm wondering what tack to take with my GP, which tests to demand or I

can expect? I'd really like to experiment with synthetic T3 or go on NDT.

I've researched a number of articles (BTA committee statement and the rebuttal

by Dr Lowe in particular).

Can anyone help?!?

Thanks,