Re: does anyone else ever feel suicidal?

[Guest guest]

HI MO

Your not the only one to experiance family problems, and drugs for depression

make things worse especially if the side effects are constipation and fluid

retention, and I have taken an overdose twice.

Marital problems along with alcohol to contend with I seperated in 2001 and

divorced in 2009. My two Daughters do not keep in touch depriving me of knowing

my Grandchildren. Many of us have several problems to deal with.

Instead of drugs I was provided with CPN's, but this does not always work out

either, and at the moment I amgoing through a complaint with the help of ICAS,

as my CPN suddenly stopped seeing me and having seen a psychiatrist who wanted

to put me on yet more drugs along with the harmful effects which I have refused.

I have now received a diagnoses of being a deluded hypochondriac, and this

remark has appeared in previous records, so I am going to ask that these remarks

be removed and a letter of apology be placed in my records.

I am also going to fight for better treatment and proper thyroid tests for all,

as what the NHS offer are not reliable, and many are having to pay for drugs

from abroad.

My interest in photography has kept me going, so my suggestion is that you get

an interest in a hobby. I have also found that these forums help as it helps to

know that others suffer from the same symptoms, and that it is not all in ones

mind.

When I had cancer it helped to be with others that had undergone the same OP. I

am also quite sure that a drug I was placed on for 14 years caused cancer along

with a worsening of other problems, but nobody will bombard me with drugs like

they have in the past.

All I can say is don't do the same as I did, and keep your mind focussed on

something even if its a chat on the chat forum.

Kathleen xxxx

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> I wrote and told Sheila recently about how I am on the phone to Samaritans a

lot recently, emailed them today as I felt it would help to just type out how I

am feeling in some detail that I would not have been able to do on the phone.

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> Mo

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[Guest guest]

Hi Kathleen

Thank you for responding, it certainly does help to know there are others out

there who can understand when the pain becomes unbearable.

I have to face the next reduction in the benzos in a week's time and I am not

looking forward to it I can tell you.

I am advertising for a carer to look after me cos if it is anything like the

last two reductions I am going to need all the help I can get.

Hope things improve for you, I like your fighting spirit.

Mo

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> HI MO

> Your not the only one to experiance family problems, and drugs for depression

make things worse especially if the side effects are constipation and fluid

retention, and I have taken an overdose twice.

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[Guest guest]

HI MO

I wish you well, and join if you have not already done so THE CHAT FORUM as you

can chat about anything to take your mind off feeling low. The morning seems to

be the worst time for me, so I have to get up, and at times when I have been in

much pain in the middle of the night I get up to take my mind off it, but good

luck and hope that you get off the benzos OK.

It is my own family that have caused me much heartbreak, but I have a feeling

that they will suffer in turn, but I try to foget them as much as possible now,

which is getting easier now that I can get about more.

I also do not experiance the chest infections that I got before the divorce

apart from pneumonia that I ended up with by spending a night in hospital next

to a patient with a nasty chest, and it could have been prevented with correct

hospital care. Chest infections can pull you down, but drugs causing weight gain

are not good for ones lungs or heart. I don't know how I survived 1999 plus a

Husband who offered no support, but in turn no computer or Thyroid forums to

seek help either.

Kathleen xxx

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> Hi Kathleen

> Thank you for responding, it certainly does help to know there are others out

there who can understand when the pain becomes unbearable.

> I have to face the next reduction in the benzos in a week's time and I am not

looking forward to it I can tell you.

> I am advertising for a carer to look after me cos if it is anything like the

last two reductions I am going to need all the help I can get.

> Hope things improve for you, I like your fighting spirit.

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> Mo

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