does anyone else ever feel suicidal?

[Guest guest]

I wrote and told Sheila recently about how I am on the phone to Samaritans a lot

recently, emailed them today as I felt it would help to just type out how I am

feeling in some detail that I would not have been able to do on the phone.

A lot of family stress going on quite apart from taking thyroid meds for five

years and still being hypoT!

And what is making it all excruciating unbearable is I am also going through

severe withdrawals from epam which were given to me by a doctor who will

remain unmentionable for v severe insomnia, sleep reversal in effect over years.

My GP then started to withdraw me from the benzos and did it all wrong and I

hardly knew my own name for a month.

I have advertised today for an occasional carer for when I have to make the next

reduction. It is beyond unbearable and worse than withdrawal from heroin and,

wait for it, could take two to three years before I am finally off of them and

even then there is no guarantee that my brain will recover.

So death seems a welcome release when it gets that bad. Benzos aside, I thought

if anyone else felt this way?

Mo