Re: Denene

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Whatever u decide to do, Please do NOT act on any of ur thoughts about doing

horrible things to yourself!

I have been there n it turns out I was no where near the burden on others as I

thought I was.....most friends n family prefer helping to care for us than not

have us at all.

Please look for some kind of counseling...if they have experience with chronic

pain patients all the better! There are also many anti-depressants which can

help with ur mood n feelings.

The absolute worst thing u can do is act on ur feelings n thoughts!!!!!!

If u need to talk email me with a phone number or something!

It's perfectly ok to express ur feelings in this group...that's why we r here,

to support each other! We have all been thru this at some point or another, you

have already done the hardest part....find us n then reach out. That's a

positive sign that u don't really truly want to go thru with anything

harmful....Good Job!

Deanna

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On Dec 29, 2008, at 8:16 PM, " Denene " <servicedogmom@...> wrote:

I have fallen so many times and injured my back. I had a

stimulator placed in my lower back March 2008 in Oklahoma City by a

doctor. My chronic pain has progressed and now my stimulator isn't

doing me any good. The doctor is owed big amount of $$ because my

medicare didn't pay alot of it. We can't pay with my husband didn't

get the income he was promised at his job. He has now quit and

looking for another job. The doctor won't see me and or take the

stimulator out because of the a mount owed him he wants it in full

first.

I am in alot of pain and don't know if I just maybe need more

little feeders to help cover more of my back area or what. I don't

know how to go about finding a doctor or if there is one in Oklahoma

City that also works with Medotronics (my stimulator) company brand

to help me with this issue.

I am in ALOT of pain and the doors are closing on me more and

more and once my husband is gone I can't be falling or in so much

pain he worries about me and will quit the job because of it. Any

suggestions. Please let me know I am so desperate. I am thinking of

doing horrible things to myself to be out of pain and so people won't

have to deal with me and the pain I am in anymore and it is getting

me so depressed.

I am sorry if there is anything in this email that I

shouldn't write I am so desperate for help and in so much pain right

now. Thank you very much!!!

Denene