Incarceration

[Guest guest]

Well group - a devastating thing has finally reared its ugly head and is now

a reality - I'm headed to federal prison for something I really didn't

commit (I know it sounds like a cliche) but got caught in the spider's web as

my

attorney puts it. That's all I'll say about that and that it stemmed from a

business I was involved in 10 years ago and am no longer.

I know for many of you, even the thought of incarceration for even a day

would be inconceivable from a survival standpoint, compounded by the fact that

many of who are still quite ill at present. I am somewhat in a denial fog that

this has actually happened to me even though it was always a possibility

that loomed over my head for the last 5 years. The only good thing I can say is

at least it finally puts an end to a very long and agonizing period of

tension, anger, depression, and terror of the unknown for myself and my family

members. I know that at least there's finally closure in this repect, but now I

have to face the unknown of being able to survive and cope with a new

lifestyle for up to 2 years. Fortunately, I do not have classic CFIDs where I'm

bedridden or anything like that, although I do not have a steel-belted immune

system either. The only current symptoms I suffer from are intermittent dull lo

w-grade headaches (always from fatigue and tension) and 3-4 colds per year and

have some food and airborne allergies. I also have to keep in mind that the

immense psychic stress from dealing with this case over the last 5+ years has

got to have taken its toll to some degree on my health in general, but I

can't really put my finger on it. At least I'm not going through this when my

health was much worse when I was younger.

Let me make this clear, I am not looking for sympathy, even though we are

all human, so much as I am at looking for ways to help me cope with the

dietary, health, and sanitation issues that will definitely impact my ability

to

survive in a low security (probably a prison camp) facility. Therefore, the

most

important and obvious issue is being able to at least maintain my current

health status that I've worked for 25 years to regain, which I have for the

most part, although I still have to take more supplements than anyone I know

of,

have to be on a very strict diet, and live alone in an almost sterile air

residence. Soon, I will be forced to shared that same breathing air with

hundreds of other men. My attorney feels there is a way for me to get a special

diet and have my supplement regime on the inside, although this not been

confirmed and is still a big worry for me. He did warn me that we don't want to

" oversell " my medical issues to the authorities since they may be so inclined

to

recommend I go to a prison medical facility which, according to my attorney,

is much worse than prison itself.

If any of you have ever been incarcerated or know of any friends or loved

ones that have been that have also had health and dietary issues to contend

with, please let me know. I just felt this group was the best to spill the

beans

to with respect my unique health issues.