Where is my game? from Darlitia

[Guest guest]

Why am I so very beaten by this. Where is my game? Why can't I step up to bat? All I feel is despair, where is my anger? I need to fight this, not be a wuss about it.

Because I ignored my fabric chair at work I just majorly re-infected myself. I sat down in my chair and boom they were running off the chair to me. I didn't even bother getting up. I am so beat by this. They are all over me now crawling, crawling, crawling. I didn't even bother getting up! My morning shower meant nothing. I have got to find my game and kick it up into high gear. Be totally OCD. So easy to say, so hard to do. I went and got a plastic chair to sit in. Why did I wait to get re-infected to think of that solution? Why can't I have solution oriented thinking before hand? Instead of after the fact? Why am I failing at this? I didn't choose not to suicide just so I could live to fail. Crap...I am so screwed.

Darlitia