, we WILL do this (confession time and long)

[Guest guest]

I am sorry, , that I have been neglecting the computer, and you.

Okay, confession time. Yesterday, I had a total meltdown. It was

not pretty, but it was the meltdown that made me get on the computer

today looking for you. I just weighed in at 247. That is after I

bought and ate 1 whole bag of mini candy bars. Didn't look at the

calorie count, didn't care. I guess I forgot to mention that I am on

the borderline of being diabetic. I am on no medication, but diet

controlled. I am sure that bag of candy helped. Didn't dare check

the BS. Also, I am on several psych drugs for depression, all of

which are responsible for weight gain. I also have high B/P, RLS,

high cholesterol and sleep apnea. I would say that all of this

" stuff " is related to being overweight. So, why can't I do anything

about it? I have a very special friend who held my hand yesterday and

guided me back to where I need to be. (at least for the day). The

fact that I work nights only compounds my problems, lack of sleep,

when to eat, etc. I have spent today reading, sleeping and praying

for us. Not just for me, but for all of us who are trying so

desperately to lose weight. So, If you will hang in there with me, we

will attempt to make this trip together. How about it??? Kim in MO