Re: Funny skin things...and husbands

[Guest guest]

Hi all, there are days when I have no idea whether what I'm having is implant related or not, so here goes.....

For the 2nd time I have this funny red spot on the inside of my calf, just above my ankle. The first time ( slightly lower down), it came up a perfect circle, quite small, looked like a ruptured blood vessel ( bright red) and it remained there unchanging for about 2 months, not sore or anything. I applied Comfrey ointment and suddenly it left. Now there's another one, but this has a centre part that looks like it could weep if I messed with it, same colour/size/shape and I've started with the comfrey again which is helping...could this be bits of silicone casing erupting thru the skin ? It's different to the pinprick ones on my chest.....

Wish I knew where to start to claim some sort of disability or sue someone here in SA. What I couldn't do with all the money I've wasted on drs over the past 7 years.....My explant is scheduled for end of April, finally, due to financial and other issues.

Had to deal with something quite personal and nasty in myself the other day: Caught myself wishing that a woman w/implants I was talking too and who thought I was a hypochondriac ( she's had no health issues from implants that she knows of), would find out the truth by getting a bit sick.....I was ashamed of myself afterwards, this is not something to wish on anyone. Just showed me how immature I can sometimes be about HAVING to be right all the time and proving I'm not just looking for attention with being ill.....I asked for forgiveness right away and suddenly understood how deep my anger and frustration with this thing really runs.....just so tired of trying to prove to the world that I am really ill.

One thing I did realise about it is that it is not always the best thing to share all the gory details with ones husband/partner. It can be detrimental to the relationship, almost like force feeding a child or something. Some things are just better shared here and not at home. I've resolved to not complain about anything for the next 30 days, not pain, not tiredness, not doctors, nothing ! It's doing my wellbeing no good, nor my relationship with my hubby, and it sure doesn't fix things. Men are hard-wired to fix things their wives complain about and it must be hugely frustrating for them to have to listen to us go on and on about this, but unable to do anything about it. So upwards and onwards ! If we want the long-term love and support of our loved ones, we gotta give them a break, and not bore them to death with our constant yakking about implants etc., no matter how excited we are about something new we found out...

I'm also having to deal with accepting the "unfairness" of the fact that some of us get sick from implants and some of us don't. Never looked at this part of myself till now, and then I realised how silly it was: Each person has some weak parts/places/organs in their body ( unless you are my husband, then you have the constitution of an Ox !) and just b/c I have an immune system that is hyper, doesn't make me a lesser being than the next person. She might have to face Osteoporosis later, or the loss of hearing or whatever. And if the next woman gets to 93 w/o any health issues, good for her ! I have no business standing there waving my fist skywards raging at God for giving me such a troublesome body, because it wasn't troublesome to begin with. Time, bad judgement on my part, and a toxic environment I have little control over, have all brought me to where I am. No point in getting mad, DEAL with it and enjoy every single day I am priviledged to open my eyes to......

OK I'm getting off my soapbox guys, not wanting to lecture to anyone, just needed to share some things running through my head this am (3am, can't sleep, can you tell ? VBG).

Lots of love to you all out there, may you have a great day !

Fiona

Re: Seeing Dr.Feng In May!

hi shannon, my name is lisa and i also have an appt. with dr. feng-may 20th. it was the hardest phone call i ever made, but you are right, linda was wonderful! my primary symptom has been an autoimmune skin disorder, but i also have these boil-like things on my face that don't go away for a very long time-too weird?!it's good to meet someone on the same path as me -hope to talk soon! blessings, lisadraw4u2day@... wrote: Hi everyone,It's me . I have not been here for a while so I apologize for not being an active participant. I am 25 years old and woke up this morning not wanting to live anymore from the pain and discomfort I am in. For the past couple of years I have had a wide range of illnesses. It started out as gastrointestinal with episodes of nausea and vomiting, then it went away and after losing some weight, I began developing several serious reactions to medications as well as heart palpitations, shortness of breath, and more digestive problems. I get a globus sensation and problems with GI motility-including frequent belching and pressure in my chest that I never experienced before. I have had a battery of tests including endoscopies. I have a small hiatal hernia, but this should not be causing the wide range of symptoms that I am experiencing. I get terrible pain that shoots down my arm on the side where my implant is and I also have swelling a tenderness along my rib cage. Coughing even hurts at times. I also have a malar rash on my face that the doctors have called 'rosacea' which I know is not rosacea. I have been getting boils on my face that won't go away despite using various remedies. I have had strange sensations that something is stuck in my upper chest and neck and it is trying to push upwards. I also get bizarre pressure sensations in my head. Not to mention the fibromyalgia. All this for two years.Well, I got up this morning wanting to die and I said to myself, "This is my life- I need to do something." God gave me courage and I called the LuFeng Clinic and a wonderful lady named counselled me. I about cried. She asked me if I was a smoker because I sounded so short of breath on the phone. I do not smoke, but as she explained many implant victims have this problem. She also asked me if I had a 'textured' implant. I about went numb. I have a McGhan BioCell 468 and when I told her she told me that she knew what was wrong. Apparently, the textured parts of the implant flake off and enter the tissues and bloodstream. These flakes are composed of silicone, mercury, and platinum. also told me that these chemicals have been found in babies who nurse from mothers with implants. So, if I wanted to have a baby one day I would not be able to nurse it. This goes clearly against the design and plan that God has for mothers and their babies. Needless to say I was shocked and ready to solve this dilemma. explained the capsulectomy and insurance issues and without any hassle- made me an appointment for May 18th. It was amazing really. I consulted the surgeon who originally did the implant procedure. He was condescending and attributed my issue to being 'psychological' in nature. Well, shame on him and may he see the pictures of my capsule and implant one day!Thank you so much everyone for letting me vent and may we all find justice for the terrible crimes that Inamed has committed against millions of women like ourselves. God Bless!Love

[Guest guest]

Fiona, I have moments of great weakness where I just want to yell at everyone that I know of with implants...mainly my mother-in-law. She has had silicone gel implants for over 15 years and has never had any problems (that she's aware of). We have to be able to forgive ourselves for losing it every once and a while. We've been through a whole lot and after all, we are only human. It is so hard...when I think of how long I've been sick and at such a young age (I've been sick since I was 20), it makes me so angry. Every time I see something on tv about a woman getting implants (like on that terrible Extreme Makeover show), I just break down and cry. I don't want to be that person...so bitter and angry at everyone...I just have to remind myself what a character building experience this has been and be thankful for that....but man is it hard. Colleen

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Date: Wed, 17 Mar 2004 04:09:35 +0200

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Subject: Re: Funny skin things...and husbands

Hi all, there are days when I have no idea whether what I'm having is implant related or not, so here goes.....

For the 2nd time I have this funny red spot on the inside of my calf, just above my ankle. The first time ( slightly lower down), it came up a perfect circle, quite small, looked like a ruptured blood vessel ( bright red) and it remained there unchanging for about 2 months, not sore or anything. I applied Comfrey ointment and suddenly it left. Now there's another one, but this has a centre part that looks like it could weep if I messed with it, same colour/size/shape and I've started with the comfrey again which is helping...could this be bits of silicone casing erupting thru the skin ? It's different to the pinprick ones on my chest.....

Wish I knew where to start to claim some sort of disability or sue someone here in SA. What I couldn't do with all the money I've wasted on drs over the past 7 years.....My explant is scheduled for end of April, finally, due to financial and other issues.

Had to deal with something quite personal and nasty in myself the other day: Caught myself wishing that a woman w/implants I was talking too and who thought I was a hypochondriac ( she's had no health issues from implants that she knows of), would find out the truth by getting a bit sick.....I was ashamed of myself afterwards, this is not something to wish on anyone. Just showed me how immature I can sometimes be about HAVING to be right all the time and proving I'm not just looking for attention with being ill.....I asked for forgiveness right away and suddenly understood how deep my anger and frustration with this thing really runs.....just so tired of trying to prove to the world that I am really ill.

One thing I did realise about it is that it is not always the best thing to share all the gory details with ones husband/partner. It can be detrimental to the relationship, almost like force feeding a child or something. Some things are just better shared here and not at home. I've resolved to not complain about anything for the next 30 days, not pain, not tiredness, not doctors, nothing ! It's doing my wellbeing no good, nor my relationship with my hubby, and it sure doesn't fix things. Men are hard-wired to fix things their wives complain about and it must be hugely frustrating for them to have to listen to us go on and on about this, but unable to do anything about it. So upwards and onwards ! If we want the long-term love and support of our loved ones, we gotta give them a break, and not bore them to death with our constant yakking about implants etc., no matter how excited we are about something new we found out...

I'm also having to deal with accepting the " unfairness " of the fact that some of us get sick from implants and some of us don't. Never looked at this part of myself till now, and then I realised how silly it was: Each person has some weak parts/places/organs in their body ( unless you are my husband, then you have the constitution of an Ox !) and just b/c I have an immune system that is hyper, doesn't make me a lesser being than the next person. She might have to face Osteoporosis later, or the loss of hearing or whatever. And if the next woman gets to 93 w/o any health issues, good for her ! I have no business standing there waving my fist skywards raging at God for giving me such a troublesome body, because it wasn't troublesome to begin with. Time, bad judgement on my part, and a toxic environment I have little control over, have all brought me to where I am. No point in getting mad, DEAL with it and enjoy every single day I am priviledged to open my eyes to......

OK I'm getting off my soapbox guys, not wanting to lecture to anyone, just needed to share some things running through my head this am (3am, can't sleep, can you tell ? VBG).

Lots of love to you all out there, may you have a great day !

Fiona

Re: Seeing Dr.Feng In May!

hi shannon, my name is lisa and i also have an appt. with dr. feng-may 20th. it was the hardest phone call i ever made, but you are right, linda was wonderful! my primary symptom has been an autoimmune skin disorder, but i also have these boil-like things on my face that don't go away for a very long time-too weird?!it's good to meet someone on the same path as me -hope to talk soon! blessings, lisa

draw4u2day@... wrote:

Hi everyone,

It's me . I have not been here for a while so I apologize for

not being an active participant. I am 25 years old and woke up this

morning not wanting to live anymore from the pain and discomfort I am

in. For the past couple of years I have had a wide range of

illnesses. It started out as gastrointestinal with episodes of

nausea and vomiting, then it went away and after losing some weight,

I began developing several serious reactions to medications as well

as heart palpitations, shortness of breath, and more digestive

problems. I get a globus sensation and problems with GI motility-

including frequent belching and pressure in my chest that I never

experienced before. I have had a battery of tests including

endoscopies. I have a small hiatal hernia, but this should not be

causing the wide range of symptoms that I am experiencing. I get

terrible pain that shoots down my arm on the side where my implant is

and I also have swelling a tenderness along my rib cage. Coughing

even hurts at times. I also have a malar rash on my face that the

doctors have called 'rosacea' which I know is not rosacea. I have

been getting boils on my face that won't go away despite using

various remedies. I have had strange sensations that something is

stuck in my upper chest and neck and it is trying to push upwards. I

also get bizarre pressure sensations in my head. Not to mention the

fibromyalgia. All this for two years.

Well, I got up this morning wanting to die and I said to

myself, " This is my life- I need to do something. " God gave me

courage and I called the LuFeng Clinic and a wonderful lady

named counselled me. I about cried. She asked me if I was a

smoker because I sounded so short of breath on the phone. I do not

smoke, but as she explained many implant victims have this problem.

She also asked me if I had a 'textured' implant. I about went numb.

I have a McGhan BioCell 468 and when I told her she told me that she

knew what was wrong. Apparently, the textured parts of the implant

flake off and enter the tissues and bloodstream. These flakes are

composed of silicone, mercury, and platinum. also told me that

these chemicals have been found in babies who nurse from mothers with

implants. So, if I wanted to have a baby one day I would not be able

to nurse it. This goes clearly against the design and plan that God

has for mothers and their babies. Needless to say I was shocked and

ready to solve this dilemma. explained the capsulectomy and

insurance issues and without any hassle- made me an appointment for

May 18th. It was amazing really. I consulted the surgeon who

originally did the implant procedure. He was condescending and

attributed my issue to being 'psychological' in nature. Well, shame

on him and may he see the pictures of my capsule and implant one day!

Thank you so much everyone for letting me vent and may we all find

justice for the terrible crimes that Inamed has committed against

millions of women like ourselves. God Bless!

Love

[Guest guest]

Hi Fiona,

I had something similar right before I had my implants. I started getting

bruiselike round spots on my legs. It freaked me out. I went to several doctors

and they all didn't know what they were. My blood tests were OK. Since explant

they have gone. I read in one book written by a naturaph doctor that that can be

one of the symptoms of silicone poisoning.

I bet all will go away after explant.

Hamg in there.

Judi

[Guest guest]

Fiona, I don't know what silicone eruptions would look like. I've

heard other women say something about them, but I haven't had

anything like that.

I know what you're feeling when you wished that woman would get

just " a bit sick " from her implants. I did the same thing. My

sister-in-law just got implants last month. She knew what I went

through and how sick I am and she chose to ignore it. She thinks I'm

just a whiner and that I'm trying to find excuses for my illnesses

and that the implants can't be it. I really don't want her to get

sick because she may never get well if she does and I wouldn't wish

that on my worst enemy. I pray for her too and I've asked God to

forgive me for being such a brat!

You're so right about your husband. I know that they feel like they

have to " fix " everything. I didn't realize that until just a few

months ago and I'm sure it was someone in this group that told me. I

can't imagine how frustrated my husband is that he can't " fix " my

problem. I try not to complain too much but it's hard to hide how I

feel when he looks at my eyes, he knows.

Pam

> Hi everyone,

>

> It's me . I have not been here for a while so I

apologize for

> not being an active participant. I am 25 years old and woke up

this

> morning not wanting to live anymore from the pain and

discomfort I am

> in. For the past couple of years I have had a wide range of

> illnesses. It started out as gastrointestinal with episodes of

> nausea and vomiting, then it went away and after losing some

weight,

> I began developing several serious reactions to medications as

well

> as heart palpitations, shortness of breath, and more digestive

> problems. I get a globus sensation and problems with GI

motility-

> including frequent belching and pressure in my chest that I

never

> experienced before. I have had a battery of tests including

> endoscopies. I have a small hiatal hernia, but this should not

be

> causing the wide range of symptoms that I am experiencing. I

get

> terrible pain that shoots down my arm on the side where my

implant is

> and I also have swelling a tenderness along my rib cage.

Coughing

> even hurts at times. I also have a malar rash on my face that

the

> doctors have called 'rosacea' which I know is not rosacea. I

have

> been getting boils on my face that won't go away despite using

> various remedies. I have had strange sensations that something

is

> stuck in my upper chest and neck and it is trying to push

upwards. I

> also get bizarre pressure sensations in my head. Not to mention

the

> fibromyalgia. All this for two years.

>

> Well, I got up this morning wanting to die and I said to

> myself, " This is my life- I need to do something. " God gave me

> courage and I called the LuFeng Clinic and a wonderful

lady

> named counselled me. I about cried. She asked me if I was

a

> smoker because I sounded so short of breath on the phone. I do

not

> smoke, but as she explained many implant victims have this

problem.

> She also asked me if I had a 'textured' implant. I about went

numb.

> I have a McGhan BioCell 468 and when I told her she told me

that she

> knew what was wrong. Apparently, the textured parts of the

implant

> flake off and enter the tissues and bloodstream. These flakes

are

> composed of silicone, mercury, and platinum. also told me

that

> these chemicals have been found in babies who nurse from

mothers with

> implants. So, if I wanted to have a baby one day I would not be

able

> to nurse it. This goes clearly against the design and plan that

God

> has for mothers and their babies. Needless to say I was shocked

and

> ready to solve this dilemma. explained the capsulectomy

and

> insurance issues and without any hassle- made me an appointment

for

> May 18th. It was amazing really. I consulted the surgeon who

> originally did the implant procedure. He was condescending and

> attributed my issue to being 'psychological' in nature. Well,

shame

> on him and may he see the pictures of my capsule and implant

one day!

>

> Thank you so much everyone for letting me vent and may we all

find

> justice for the terrible crimes that Inamed has committed

against

> millions of women like ourselves. God Bless!

>

> Love

>

>

>

>

>