Thank you all for the very warm welcome!

[Guest guest]

I read all your wonderful, kind responses - never before have I been

received with such open arms. Thank you, thank you.

I read through the stories in Files last night and viewed all your

Photos. Oh my. I felt sick and couldn't sleep after that because

seeing the implants removed and moldy, and all your stories of

suffering just are so heartbreaking. Of course, I can relate to the

stories and right now, can only imagine what my implants look like

inside my body.

I do not know that I can have surgery soon, even this year as we are

living abroad (UK) and I honestly do not have faith in the PS out

here to remove my implants in the best way possible so that I could

have a chance at continuing to breastfeed. I wish I knew more about

the explant options, if someone can direct me to procedure info, that

would be helpful. I thought that a smaller incision could be made

and the implant deflated (as it was valve inflated first time around)

and removed rather simply but perhaps I am wrong about that.

I always planned on having a lift (I have extreme ptsosis at this

point) once I was done breastfeeding children but at this point, I'm

planning the explant most likely without a lift in order to get the

implant out and have my breasts back, pstosis and all.

I've read Dr. Kolb's entire site, including the newsletters she has

there and I'm really sad I didn't know any of this prior to my

implantation. I knew about caps, I knew about the risks to

breastfeeding (and chose a PS who was very good at protecting my

chances for b/fding and it worked), knew about rupture rates, future

surgeries. But had no idea that salines could cause immune

dysfunction. Now the FDA has that on their website...day late,

dollar short for ones like me.

It couldn't be a worse time to have this come up with two little

ones, round the clock breastfeeding, living in a foreign country,

nothing and no one familiar around except husband and my precious

children.

My husband said this morning that he fully supports me in the

explant. He thinks that I have a genetic component to this as both

of my parents have arthritis and had that from an early age, but of

course, we'll not know for sure if I would have these symptoms

without implants or the implants stimulated this immune response,

activating my genetic tendencies.

I honestly cannot wait to have these things out and I wish we could

move back to the States so I could avail myself to the PSs who know

about this and how to remove, etc.

Crystal, I cried reading your response. May I ask, are you

breastfeeding? If so, how do you feel about that?

Sorry for the rambling. I am glad to find you all and angry that I'm

here, too, hope that makes sense. I am so frustrated that I got

myself into this and it's all unraveling at a time where I have the

least amount of options to resolve. If I weren't away from our home

in the US, and not breastfeeding, I'd schedule the explant asap.

Oh, one more thing: I am worried about deflation type of results

after the explant. Is that what the lift helps to resolve? I know

this is a cosmetic issue but when I read from Dr. Kolb that 50% of

her explant patients opt to have salines put in due to wanting full

breasts, I got to thinking.

[Guest guest]

,I am not breastfeeding, however, I always had intentions

to.While pregnant I attended brestfeeding classes & purchased many

books on it as well. I definitly wanted to but my daughter was

very 'lazy' and didn't want to latch on. I tried & tried but it was

very difficult. I pumped for a few weeks but due to my aches & pains

it was hard. At the time I naturally blamed it on " just having a

baby " (through a c-section) & was very dissapointed. Dissapointed in

myself for giving up & also for the nutrition my daughter would be

lacking from not recieving my milk.

I now feel relieved I didn't breastfeed for now I would be soooo

worried that she might become sick from whatever might be going on

inside of me. I will not know if my implants are infected, leaking or

whatever until explant. I believe there was a " reason " she didn't

latch on & therefor I am no longer feeling any guilt.

I also believe it's more important for my daughter to have a healthy

mother vs. my milk because a child NEEDS there mother more than

ANYTHING! We still have a bond but more importantly I have to make

sure I'm here until I'm old & gray so she can have the best life I

can provide! I want to see her grow up and simply enjoy the " beauty "

she exudes in every motion she makes!! As a mother yourself, I know

you understand what I mean.

Nothing makes me more upset than to think about this 'elective'

surgery has now had unimaginable reprecutions. I too have become

obssesed with this issue and all it represents (as well as this web

site). My mind NEVER stops thinking about it and I can't sleep at

night.This whole thing is crazy and I wish I could just have

my " normal " life back.

I wish you well,

Crystal

> I read all your wonderful, kind responses - never before have I

been

> received with such open arms. Thank you, thank you.

>

> I read through the stories in Files last night and viewed all your

> Photos. Oh my. I felt sick and couldn't sleep after that because

> seeing the implants removed and moldy, and all your stories of

> suffering just are so heartbreaking. Of course, I can relate to

the

> stories and right now, can only imagine what my implants look like

> inside my body.

>

> I do not know that I can have surgery soon, even this year as we

are

> living abroad (UK) and I honestly do not have faith in the PS out

> here to remove my implants in the best way possible so that I could

> have a chance at continuing to breastfeed. I wish I knew more

about

> the explant options, if someone can direct me to procedure info,

that

> would be helpful. I thought that a smaller incision could be made

> and the implant deflated (as it was valve inflated first time

around)

> and removed rather simply but perhaps I am wrong about that.

>

> I always planned on having a lift (I have extreme ptsosis at this

> point) once I was done breastfeeding children but at this point,

I'm

> planning the explant most likely without a lift in order to get the

> implant out and have my breasts back, pstosis and all.

>

> I've read Dr. Kolb's entire site, including the newsletters she has

> there and I'm really sad I didn't know any of this prior to my

> implantation. I knew about caps, I knew about the risks to

> breastfeeding (and chose a PS who was very good at protecting my

> chances for b/fding and it worked), knew about rupture rates,

future

> surgeries. But had no idea that salines could cause immune

> dysfunction. Now the FDA has that on their website...day late,

> dollar short for ones like me.

>

> It couldn't be a worse time to have this come up with two little

> ones, round the clock breastfeeding, living in a foreign country,

> nothing and no one familiar around except husband and my precious

> children.

>

> My husband said this morning that he fully supports me in the

> explant. He thinks that I have a genetic component to this as both

> of my parents have arthritis and had that from an early age, but of

> course, we'll not know for sure if I would have these symptoms

> without implants or the implants stimulated this immune response,

> activating my genetic tendencies.

>

> I honestly cannot wait to have these things out and I wish we could

> move back to the States so I could avail myself to the PSs who know

> about this and how to remove, etc.

>

> Crystal, I cried reading your response. May I ask, are you

> breastfeeding? If so, how do you feel about that?

>

> Sorry for the rambling. I am glad to find you all and angry that

I'm

> here, too, hope that makes sense. I am so frustrated that I got

> myself into this and it's all unraveling at a time where I have the

> least amount of options to resolve. If I weren't away from our

home

> in the US, and not breastfeeding, I'd schedule the explant asap.

>

> Oh, one more thing: I am worried about deflation type of results

> after the explant. Is that what the lift helps to resolve? I know

> this is a cosmetic issue but when I read from Dr. Kolb that 50% of

> her explant patients opt to have salines put in due to wanting full

> breasts, I got to thinking.

>

>