Re: I'm having a bad day!!!

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judi

i am so sorry you are feeling bad - I am having a horrible one too! headaches and depression are really getting me down along with the fear that my toddler is sick because of me. I hope you feel better soon - please let me know if I can help you in anyway!

love

shari

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Hey there, I am not having a really good day either, nothing specific

just down in the funk dump today. Not sure what it is but I have been

feeling funky since having to have a TB test. Not sure it is related

but who knows. I can relate to your feelings for sure. I am gonna try

to get some exercise to see if that helps. It seems that there are

allot of angry people lately, i wish everyone could see that we are

only trying to give advice, no one has to take it, sheesh!

anyhow I hope you feel better soon. Are you on any medication for

your back?

Pain sucks, I know been there, done that

arg

In , " jaylow2100 " <jaylow2100@a...>

wrote:

> Hi,

>

> I am having a very bad day. My back hurts sooo bad and I feel very

> depressed. My back isn't getting any better after 18 months of

> terrible pain. I feel very discouraged because I have spent over

> $20,000 last year going to so many doctors and not one of them

helped

> me one bit. They gladly took all of the money but no one did any

> rresearch or anything to help me. I try to keep up my spirits but

> today I am crashing. HELP

> Love

> Judi

[Guest guest]

Hi ,

Thanks for answering. It's just one of those days. It's hard to live with

chronic pain. Some days I can handle it better than others. I try not to take

any pain pills but today I did. I'm trying to save my immune system till they

get a cure for this disease which I hope will come some day. I know my immune

system is attacking my ligaments and muscles. Some days it is bearable and some

days it is not. I know stress really adds to the pain. My boss is being a jerk

to me and I know that makes it worse. Anyway, it is great to be able to vent and

know that all of you understand how awful this can be. My daughter says " Oh

you're just getting old " . She has NO IDEA how this feels, it is not getting

old, it is being poisoned. I am still detoxing like crazy and I do feel better

if it weren't for the pain.

Love

Judi

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Hi Judi,

I really don't know much about you. Have you been explanted yet?

Where are you from?

I am so sorry that you are having such a bad day. I know how you

feel. There have been days I've just wanted to crawl into a hole.

Not that any of your doctors really know whats wrong with your back,

but what have they said the problem is.

Hope you get relife soon.

Cricket

> Hi ,

> Thanks for answering. It's just one of those days. It's hard to

live with chronic pain. Some days I can handle it better than

others. I try not to take any pain pills but today I did. I'm

trying to save my immune system till they get a cure for this

disease which I hope will come some day. I know my immune system is

attacking my ligaments and muscles. Some days it is bearable and

some days it is not. I know stress really adds to the pain. My

boss is being a jerk to me and I know that makes it worse. Anyway,

it is great to be able to vent and know that all of you understand

how awful this can be. My daughter says " Oh you're just getting

old " . She has NO IDEA how this feels, it is not getting old, it is

being poisoned. I am still detoxing like crazy and I do feel better

if it weren't for the pain.

> Love

> Judi

[Guest guest]

Sorry Judi. I hope you start feeling better. Do you have problems

with your disks? Or is it just general pain?

Just wanted to say hang in there and I hope you feel better.

Pam

- In , " jaylow2100 " <jaylow2100@a...>

wrote:

> Hi,

>

> I am having a very bad day. My back hurts sooo bad and I feel very

> depressed. My back isn't getting any better after 18 months of

> terrible pain. I feel very discouraged because I have spent over

> $20,000 last year going to so many doctors and not one of them

helped

> me one bit. They gladly took all of the money but no one did any

> rresearch or anything to help me. I try to keep up my spirits but

> today I am crashing. HELP

> Love

> Judi

[Guest guest]

If it helps at all I can tell you pain has been the slowest thing to

go away for me. I did allot and have come far but still have a few

issue with pain. Most of them are gone, but my feet.

ahh it does suck, pain meds help and I do not believe as some do,

that they are so bad to take. I have researched and believe there are

some safe ones out there.

I really cannot stand to see anyone suffer

Hugs

In , jaylow2100@a... wrote:

> Hi ,

> Thanks for answering. It's just one of those days. It's hard to

live with chronic pain. Some days I can handle it better than others.

I try not to take any pain pills but today I did. I'm trying to save

my immune system till they get a cure for this disease which I hope

will come some day. I know my immune system is attacking my

ligaments and muscles. Some days it is bearable and some days it is

not. I know stress really adds to the pain. My boss is being a jerk

to me and I know that makes it worse. Anyway, it is great to be able

to vent and know that all of you understand how awful this can be. My

daughter says " Oh you're just getting old " . She has NO IDEA how this

feels, it is not getting old, it is being poisoned. I am still

detoxing like crazy and I do feel better if it weren't for the pain.

> Love

> Judi

[Guest guest]

Shari

I am so sorry you have been having such a hard time. Please don't

be scared about your son. Try to put him in God's hands and ask Him

for direction as to whom to take him for evaluation. I will keep

you both in my prayers. I know that the boy who lives next door

seemed to always be sick with something when he was a baby and

toddler. I mean constantly! Fevers, one virus after

another,pneumonia, asthma--you name it. He seems fine now. I

always see him out playing. Also a friend of mine's first son--who

was breastfed exclusively by the way---was always getting sick too.

She finally had to keep him out of nurseries at church--he seemed to

have no immunity. He finally pretty much outgrew it. By the time

he started school he was getting sick alot less. Hopefully your son

will be like that. Certainly if you could find a holistic physician

it might be helpful to get him some testing and maybe see what could

be done to strengthen his immune system. Have you ever heard of Dr.

Ritchie Shoemaker? He does alot of work with people who are

chronically ill. He is supposed to be very good. I think he may be

in North carolina. If you are interested I will dig out the info on

him more specifically. He is mentioned often on another support

site for chronically ill people. Take care.

kathy

> judi

>

> i am so sorry you are feeling bad - I am having a horrible one

too!

> headaches and depression are really getting me down along with the

fear that my

> toddler is sick because of me. I hope you feel better soon -

please let me know if

> I can help you in anyway!

> love

> shari

[Guest guest]

Thanks Shari,

I can totally relate to everyone suffering on this site. Sometime I have very severe depression when I think about how I wasted so much of my life with this sickness. I keep trying to be positive and I do definately feel better than I did but my back hurts chronically. We al have to take it day by day. I know what it is like to worry about your child. I got my implants after I nursed my kids but I do think I passed on to them the candida that I had when they were little. They are okay now. They are both in their twenties and doing fine. If youir little boy has candida he can get rid of it. Don't worry, He will be fine, probably just needs some candida treatment and lay of any sweets (which is hard with kids). Hope you start feeling better soon. When was your explant???

Love

Judi

[Guest guest]

Hi IPam,

No X-rays show that my discs are fine and that I have slight arthritis in my back. I think this is an inflammation of the ligaments and muscles. That is what is feels like. Anyway, I hope it gets better in time.

Love

Judi

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Hi Cricket,

I lilve in Santa Fe, NM and had double lumen iimplants in for 17 years. I was explanted 18 months ago. I have improved energy and don't feel so sick like I used too, It's just the pain that is still there. I am hoping over time it starts lessening. I am detoxing like a fool, exercising and stretching. I used to have pain in my legs and feet too but that has gone. I am trying to stay positive. I had a positive ANA once about10 months ago and then the last one was negative. They have tested my for lupus, scleraderma, MCD, and a whole slew of other autoimmune diseases and those tests were all negative. I think I have Silicone disease. I am fasting, detoxing, going in a suana everyday and jaquizzi, 80% raw foods, on primal defense and oregeno leaf and the whole works. (coffe enemas etc.)Some days the pain is not that bad. I do want it to go away.

Love

Judi