Re: Re:Bad Idea--I'm not good at this.....

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maybe my post was misunderstood.........

PLEASE do not feel bad-I don't think your advice was stupid - I think maybe others misinterpreted your point in giving the advice. Don't feel down about it - I appreciate your time in trying to help me. I know you didn't intend it to look like you were just telling me to go hog wild in willy nilly spending as I knew I would have to file bankruptcy anyways - I think others may have understood your message as saying that but I knew what you meant. you thought that I had not already explanted in which i fully understand the advice you gave - maybe it was worded in a way that people misunderstood your intentions. I agree that if I had not already explanted and didn't have the money to do so then I would use a card if I had to then work w/ the consequences later - I don't think there would be any shame in that as I think sick people getting their implants removed is an emergency and calls for drastic measures. Luckily at the time I explanted I was OK financially. I have gotten much sicker lately in which the $$$ issues have begun. I was/am having a bad week also and have been really bummed about everything lately, health, money, etc. I am still pretty far from making such a drastic financial decision like bankruptcy as we are getting by now. I am just worried that if my disability doesn't go through that within a year or so we will be in trouble and I wouldn't want to lose my home.

My message that you have responded to here was not for you - it was for others so they would know that I wouldn't do anything foolish like thinking it is OK to go crazy w/ my credit cards and thinking there would not be any recourse. I know things like that happen and I think that is a terrible thing - I worked with a guy a few years back to did that and thought he was very wrong in doing it.

I am right there w/ you as far as the anger goes with my decision making skills. It is also hard to get over the fact hat my health problems are from a decision I have made even though I was mislead. I was just talking about that to my therapist on Friday

I know God is listening to you even though you may not see it - please don't lose faith now as we have all been so far.

let me know if you need any help

love shari

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Yeah, that was some stupid advice I dispensed to Shari about bankruptcy, huh?No need to worry, no more advise from the peanut gallery.

Just a warning, I'm feeling really bad today, so if you don't want to hear my rant, stop reading a press "delete."

About the advice I gave to Shari, I gave the advice in hopes to help, albeit a feeble attempt. It was sorry advice just as I have made so my sorry unalterable mistakes with my own decisions.

It was my decision to get breast implants, really bad idea as well as believing the oral surgeon in 99 who told me I had a growth in my gum that was never there, now I have nerve damage in my lower right chin/ lower right lip.I just let him cut right into me, no thoughts about seeking at least a second opinion.I have nerve damage as a result--not enough to ruin my life or anything, just another dumb decision to live with.

I also have nerve damage in my breasts from my revision surgery(in 02) to match my chin/lip.I did not have nerve damage until AFTER my May 02 surgery.My entire breast, including the bottom part--along the crease is numb-- and I do me NUMB.I wonder if this "just happens" to some women or was it my choice in surgeons, in other words did he do something wrong? When I asked him about the numbness, he said, and I quote, "I have no explanation for this." Maybe he's right, they're are no explanations, just unfortunate mishaps.

Again, blind allegiance to another M.D., I began injecting myself with HGH injections last 7/03 not even CONSIDERING the risks, I just asked the doctor, "is this safe?" she said "yes" and on that note, I was good to go.In my flesh that needle went, day after day until it lead me to the ER.Now in addition to the surgeries I undergone, I now have even MORE hair loss--at least 60%.I can see my scalp now. How charming.

I never THOUGHT things like this happen. I was naive just as I am naive to dispense advice to Shari about finances. The only thing I know about money is how to spend it.I've never had to earn a damn thing in my life, it's all been done for me.

Yet another brilliant decision I made the other day was to get a highlight streak(a thing strip in the front) in my hair. I thought this can't hurt, right?It will look cool I though, I was wrong. The color they put in was yellowish blonde--really gross. So I contacted the salon in hopes they would honor their word and fix the mess, but they never got back to me so I went to another salon today and this idiot just put light color brown right over it. It was not covered well and now it looks "ashy." I've cried all day and I'm so upset I have diarrhea. Why couldn't I just well enough alone? My natural virgin hair color is pretty. Now I have this freak streak in my hair in front and more than half my hair gone.Why? Because I got implants/explants/(revisions because of the darn implants) and injected myself with HGH hormones.I've paid a very dear price for not using my head. What on Earth am I thinking to dispense advice to others? My

heart was in the right place but evidently, not my head.

On Wednesday, I have an appointment with ANOTHER dermatologist about my telogen effluvium, if she's says I won't get my hair back, I'm DONE.This is just too devastating. There's no way I can get through law school this fall like this.This has made me so full of despair and anxiety that my cognitive function has decreased immensely.

I prayed to God, but evidently He doesn't care.

halvey70@... wrote:

no need to worry - I would NEVER consider running up bills and doing thatshari

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I would not get down on myself for that. We all do the knee jerk thing now

and then.

Sounds like you are having a bad day. We all have those also.

I tried to frost my hair once, turned out blond and had to go back and redo

the whole thing! Never again!

I have been fighting a groin pull for almost a year, and when it gets

better, somehow I re-injure it. Damn painful. Keeps me from doing as much

exercise as I want, and today I was stuck with an ice pack for about 3

hours, off and on. If I just step down the wrong way, it hurts and I am

back to the ice pack.

My hair has been falling out, but I think it is my thyroid. I have upped

my dosage and it seems to be growing out. Time will tell.

To top this off, my 15 year old grand-daughter told me last night that she

is pregnant.

I am thinking of running away from home, but have always found out that my

problems follow me.

My friend, who almost died of hemolytic anemic last fall says I cannot run

away if she cannot die ( I told her she was not allowed to die!).

Oh well, we can both rant! Maybe we will feel better!

Lynda

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, man, sorry about your pull, and I hope your thyroid thing comes around, I know what you must be feeling with the hair thing. I had for a while, until I was on the right meds. Hang in there-

Re: Re:Bad Idea--I'm not good at this.....

I would not get down on myself for that. We all do the knee jerk thing now and then.Sounds like you are having a bad day. We all have those also.I tried to frost my hair once, turned out blond and had to go back and redo the whole thing! Never again!I have been fighting a groin pull for almost a year, and when it gets better, somehow I re-injure it. Damn painful. Keeps me from doing as much exercise as I want, and today I was stuck with an ice pack for about 3 hours, off and on. If I just step down the wrong way, it hurts and I am back to the ice pack.My hair has been falling out, but I think it is my thyroid. I have upped my dosage and it seems to be growing out. Time will tell.To top this off, my 15 year old grand-daughter told me last night that she is pregnant.I am thinking of running away from home, but have always found out that my problems follow me.My friend, who almost died of hemolytic anemic last fall says I cannot run away if she cannot die ( I told her she was not allowed to die!).Oh well, we can both rant! Maybe we will feel better!Lynda

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Dear :

Thanks for your kind words. After I get this color job toned down, that's it, no more! If I EVER talk about dying my hair again, kick my butt please! I've learned ny lesson. I don't like change when it comes to my hair. Other than a trim, that's it--no more.

Some women look good with hair color, you look great, I'm not one of them!!!!

Your hair looks great in your recent pics, don't go platinum, it may damage your beautiful hair.

I hope this is just hair loss from the HGH. If it's something else, I can't even think about it.......

Thanks again for your kindness.naturalbeauty38 <naturalbeauty38@...> wrote:

JaneTry to calm down as hard as it seems to do right now. You made a few mistakes, but it is not your fault and no one here is going to be mad at you for your posts thus far you have been kind and considerate.Please try to relax about the numbness, after my explant and lift I was numb for 2 years, it takes time for nerves to regenerate, and the feeling may come back.as for bad hair coloring nightmares, ha since I moved to Idaho I had a few of those, it took me over 2 1/2 years to finally find the girl that I trust with my hair, even when it was shedding like crazy, so that can always be fixed. The best way to find out if a hairstylist is good is to find someone with the hair you want most, then try to get to that persons stylist, I did that, with someone at work, and it worked out well. I would recomend a hair weave with a few

different shades in it rather than trying to just have one or two streaks, it usually ends up looking really fake, just a few thoughts for you.Try not to be too sad, it sounds like your body has been through a ton of crap and if you let it all settle down I bet it will all get better in time. It took my hair time to come back, yours will eventually come back, stop doing any type of surgery if you can, until it has fixed itself, unless it is life threatening. I would avoid any unecesary fixes at least cosmetic ones, for now.hang in there-In , Jane Doe wrote:> Yeah, that was some stupid advice I dispensed to Shari about bankruptcy, huh?No need to worry, no more advise from the peanut gallery.> > Just a warning, I'm feeling really bad today, so if you don't want to hear my rant, stop reading a press

"delete."> > About the advice I gave to Shari, I gave the advice in hopes to help, albeit a feeble attempt. It was sorry advice just as I have made so my sorry unalterable mistakes with my own decisions.> > It was my decision to get breast implants, really bad idea as well as believing the oral surgeon in 99 who told me I had a growth in my gum that was never there, now I have nerve damage in my lower right chin/ lower right lip.I just let him cut right into me, no thoughts about seeking at least a second opinion.I have nerve damage as a result--not enough to ruin my life or anything, just another dumb decision to live with.> > I also have nerve damage in my breasts from my revision surgery(in 02) to match my chin/lip.I did not have nerve damage until AFTER my May 02 surgery.My entire breast, including the bottom part--along the crease is numb-- and I do me NUMB.I wonder if this "just happens" to

some women or was it my choice in surgeons, in other words did he do something wrong? When I asked him about the numbness, he said, and I quote, "I have no explanation for this." Maybe he's right, they're are no explanations, just unfortunate mishaps.> > Again, blind allegiance to another M.D., I began injecting myself with HGH injections last 7/03 not even CONSIDERING the risks, I just asked the doctor, "is this safe?" she said "yes" and on that note, I was good to go.In my flesh that needle went, day after day until it lead me to the ER.Now in addition to the surgeries I undergone, I now have even MORE hair loss--at least 60%.I can see my scalp now. How charming.> > I never THOUGHT things like this happen. I was naive just as I am naive to dispense advice to Shari about finances. The only thing I know about money is how to spend it.I've never had to earn a damn thing in my life, it's all been done for

me.> > Yet another brilliant decision I made the other day was to get a highlight streak(a thing strip in the front) in my hair. I thought this can't hurt, right?It will look cool I though, I was wrong. The color they put in was yellowish blonde--really gross. So I contacted the salon in hopes they would honor their word and fix the mess, but they never got back to me so I went to another salon today and this idiot just put light color brown right over it. It was not covered well and now it looks "ashy." I've cried all day and I'm so upset I have diarrhea. Why couldn't I just well enough alone? My natural virgin hair color is pretty. Now I have this freak streak in my hair in front and more than half my hair gone.Why? Because I got implants/explants/(revisions because of the darn implants) and injected myself with HGH hormones.I've paid a very dear price for not using my head. What on Earth am I thinking to dispense

advice to others? My heart was in the right place but evidently, not my> head.> > On Wednesday, I have an appointment with ANOTHER dermatologist about my telogen effluvium, if she's says I won't get my hair back, I'm DONE.This is just too devastating. There's no way I can get through law school this fall like this.This has made me so full of despair and anxiety that my cognitive function has decreased immensely.> > I prayed to God, but evidently He doesn't care.> > > halvey70@a... wrote:> no need to worry - I would NEVER consider running up bills and doing that> > shari > >