Re: Re: michelle-disability stuff

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It's true, disease(from toxins and other illness) and hormone problems can result in depression and suicidal ideations.naturalbeauty38 <naturalbeauty38@...> wrote:

I think you are really onto something there. I agree, with all of it. I do believe the toxicity can lead to suicidal and emotional issues. Like I was saying about how I would go crazy and go on 50 mile bike rides, that was totally insane and I would wear headphones too, and ride on busy streets sometimes, I think I actually wanted to get killed or something. Anyhow it never happened. There were many days I wanted a car to hit me, or thought about driving off a cliff, but I figured with my luck I would live and be crippled or soemthing, so I never did it. But ya that might help her disibility for sure.good idea-CIn , "" wrote:> Dear Shari: YOu sound like me when I was just realizing I was > getting sick. I can tell you what finally

won me my disability. > diagnosed with Bipolar disorder and suicidal ideations. I have no > doubt these insane panic feelings and suicidal thoughts came from the > nuerological damage from the implants. As your body is physically > affected it affects your thought processes, from memory, to > depression and suicide. I would work on getting these feelings > documented. You will win my seeing a shrink and therapist. YOu may > even need hospitalized for severe depression. I did. thats how I > finally got it. It's possible that my silicone toxicity was taken > into account as the poison that onset the illness, I'm not sure. but > it was not my fibromyalgia and physical illnesses that won my > disability. I would apply for disability even if you're not banking > on it. It does takes a long time unless you're severe, meaning > hospitalizations and suicide ideations, and possible

attempts. If > you want more informaiton perhaps I can speak more openly to you if > you want to email me directly. And there is a way to find out how > much you would get. there is a form to fill out on ssa.gov or call 1-> 800-772-1213, they can help you. If you workded that long you > should problably get a lot. You'll need a good psychiatrist. I'll > keep helping you, as I know we are very unfairly not represented. > How would you say. Life isn't treating us fair. Love, > > > > > > Thanks for the info - Actually I am not going for SS yet - I have > short/long > > term disability benefits through work. they gave me a > big "interview" > > yesterday and now are supposed to be calling my employer to see if > they saw me having > > problems w/ my job duties. That is a

little weird if you ask me. > I am > > freakin' sick - have several doctors notes saying that as well as > one saying that I > > need to be off of work but it isn't good enough for them I guess. > I am > > really upset over this and I don't know what to do. I know I need > to get more > > treatment as well as seeing a psychiatrist as my depression/anxiety > is getting so > > much worse with all the worrying about money and stuff. The > problem is that I > > barely have enough to pay my bills so how can I afford more doctor > appts? It > > is a vicious circle. I feel like I am gonna have a nervous > breakdown - > > between all of the constant pain, depression, worrying, fighting > for benefits... > > aghhhhh!!! I just don't kow where to go from here. My symptoms > are getting > > worse w/ the pain

- I am having a lot of foot and hand pain and am > having > > problems walking and I have a toddler to take care of to boot! My > hubby helps a lot > > but of course he works full time and now I am getting to the point > of not > > being able to afford preschool due to my disability not coming in > and I am > > stressing bigtime. > > This is horrible but my hubby actually had to take our guns out of > the house > > last Thursday as he is so worried about my depression - sometimes I > really > > would like to just die so all of this mess would be over with but I > could never > > do that to my family and young son. My husband is really scared > now.> > I just don't know where to go - maybe I should file for SS but I > think you > > have to be out of work for 6 months... I will have lost my home

by > then. Even > > if I could get SS I don't know how much money I would get. I am > only 33 and > > have been working since 18 making a pretty decent salary but I have > no idea > > what kind of money that will amount to. If it is only $200 a month > then it > > wouldn't be worth it - I am trying desperately to not lose my home > as we worked so > > hard for it. Any advice on any of this mess would be appreciated. > Sorry for > > the venting...> > love> > shari