Re: I did something crazy yet satisfying....long email

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Shari,

You made my night, how I would have loved to have seen you, and the faces of the women in the office. Maybe this will be a good healing start for you. I guess you could say "you got it off your chest in more ways than one"

Love Cricket

halvey70@... wrote:

Hello allI did the craziest thing today that I just had to share... I guess most of you know that I am fighting the battle w/ my disability through work. Yesterday they called and said that they would partial pay but needed medical records from my other docs since explant (weird - they won't approve me based on fibro but they will if I can show them a timeline of events showing that I went down hill since the implants-kinda the opposite of what I thought..)Anyways, I had to go today to my ENT's office to sign a release for them to fill out my med records form for the disability people. I had my little boy Logan with me and as usual I felt like crap. I went to the ENT' office who happens to be the same complex as my original implanting PS. As we were getting

back into the car I was having trouble lifting him into his car seat as usual and he said "mommy, are you still sick. but why are you so sick?" the same questions he asks me daily that breaks my heart everytime he says it. something hit me then - I am not sure what it was but I pulled him back out of the car and went back into the bldg and down to the PS's office. I walked in and there were several women in the waiting room filling out paperwork. I just stood there holding him and didn't say a word for several minutes. The lady behind the counter asked if she could help me (there were two at the desk) and I said "No Ma'am... My baby son here was just asking me why I am sick for the millionth time and I wanted to bring him here before his mommy dies to let him see the place that made her sick and the reason why he also was sick. Logan said "is this a bad doctor mommy?" and I said "well baby.... this is the doctor that didn't tell mommy the truth and now

I have made you sick too and I am sooo, sooo sorry." (I was tearing up) "This is also the doctor that wouldn't help mommy after he made her sick when she was begging him for help". Then I smiled, thanked her, and walked right out the door. that lady's mouth dropped and she didn't say a word - in the middle of it l looked up and saw that the women in the waiting room had stopped and were staring at me and my son with the look of fear in their eyes. Crazy - yes probably but man how good I felt when I left there. It was like a ton of bricks of hatred were off of my shoulders.just thought I would share thatloveshari

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yes I agree - it made my night too!

[Guest guest]

Good for you Shari, I think that is right on!

In , halvey70@a... wrote:

> Hello all

>

> I did the craziest thing today that I just had to share... I guess

most of

> you know that I am fighting the battle w/ my disability through

work. Yesterday

> they called and said that they would partial pay but needed medical

records

> from my other docs since explant (weird - they won't approve me

based on fibro

> but they will if I can show them a timeline of events showing that

I went down

> hill since the implants-kinda the opposite of what I thought..)

>

> Anyways, I had to go today to my ENT's office to sign a release for

them to

> fill out my med records form for the disability people. I had my

little boy

> Logan with me and as usual I felt like crap. I went to the ENT'

office who

> happens to be the same complex as my original implanting PS. As we

were getting

> back into the car I was having trouble lifting him into his car

seat as usual

> and he said " mommy, are you still sick. but why are you so sick? "

the same

> questions he asks me daily that breaks my heart everytime he says

it. something

> hit me then - I am not sure what it was but I pulled him back out

of the car

> and went back into the bldg and down to the PS's office. I walked

in and there

> were several women in the waiting room filling out paperwork. I

just stood

> there holding him and didn't say a word for several minutes. The

lady behind

> the counter asked if she could help me (there were two at the desk)

and I said

> " No Ma'am... My baby son here was just asking me why I am sick for

the

> millionth time and I wanted to bring him here before his mommy dies

to let him see the

> place that made her sick and the reason why he also was sick.

Logan said " is

> this a bad doctor mommy? " and I said " well baby.... this is the

doctor that

> didn't tell mommy the truth and now I have made you sick too and I

am sooo,

> sooo sorry. " (I was tearing up) " This is also the doctor that

wouldn't help mommy

> after he made her sick when she was begging him for help " . Then I

smiled,

> thanked her, and walked right out the door. that lady's mouth

dropped and she

> didn't say a word - in the middle of it l looked up and saw that

the women in

> the waiting room had stopped and were staring at me and my son with

the look of

> fear in their eyes. Crazy - yes probably but man how good I felt

when I left

> there. It was like a ton of bricks of hatred were off of my

shoulders.

>

> just thought I would share that

>

> love

> shari