Re:Shari: michelle-disability stuff

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Dear Shari, again, I just read what Cricket had to say and I liked

it. I had to move out of my house and down size. I have a beautiful

little home now, even with a dog and small yard. I have a washer and

dryer, a 1 bdrm. and large living room. It's hugs, but it's not a 2

brdm. with yard and garage, but I'm fine. It's within my means and I

on't get kicked out. You can live comfortably downsizing for sure.

and anything you save can go to your vitamins and meds. Hang in

there, you will recover. How long has it been since you had you

implants out? I'm sure the stress is hindering your recovery. SS is

hard to get. Focus on healing. I'll help you anyway I can. Love,

> >

> > Thanks for the info - Actually I am not going for SS yet - I have

> short/long

> > term disability benefits through work. they gave me a

> big " interview "

> > yesterday and now are supposed to be calling my employer to see

if

> they saw me having

> > problems w/ my job duties. That is a little weird if you ask

me.

> I am

> > freakin' sick - have several doctors notes saying that as well as

> one saying that I

> > need to be off of work but it isn't good enough for them I

guess.

> I am

> > really upset over this and I don't know what to do. I know I

need

> to get more

> > treatment as well as seeing a psychiatrist as my

> depression/anxiety is getting so

> > much worse with all the worrying about money and stuff. The

> problem is that I

> > barely have enough to pay my bills so how can I afford more

doctor

> appts? It

> > is a vicious circle. I feel like I am gonna have a nervous

> breakdown -

> > between all of the constant pain, depression, worrying, fighting

> for benefits...

> > aghhhhh!!! I just don't kow where to go from here. My symptoms

> are getting

> > worse w/ the pain - I am having a lot of foot and hand pain and

am

> having

> > problems walking and I have a toddler to take care of to boot!

My

> hubby helps a lot

> > but of course he works full time and now I am getting to the

point

> of not

> > being able to afford preschool due to my disability not coming in

> and I am

> > stressing bigtime.

> > This is horrible but my hubby actually had to take our guns out

of

> the house

> > last Thursday as he is so worried about my depression - sometimes

> I really

> > would like to just die so all of this mess would be over with but

> I could never

> > do that to my family and young son. My husband is really scared

> now.

> > I just don't know where to go - maybe I should file for SS but I

> think you

> > have to be out of work for 6 months... I will have lost my home

> by then. Even

> > if I could get SS I don't know how much money I would get. I am

> only 33 and

> > have been working since 18 making a pretty decent salary but I

> have no idea

> > what kind of money that will amount to. If it is only $200 a

> month then it

> > wouldn't be worth it - I am trying desperately to not lose my

home

> as we worked so

> > hard for it. Any advice on any of this mess would be

appreciated.

> Sorry for

> > the venting...

> > love

> > shari