re: weddings

[Guest guest]

Dear ,

Our marriage was fine - we had already been living together for what seemed like eternity. It was the first year together that we had severe problems due to my becoming sicker by the day, and G going into therapy from childhood problems. But I agree with you, all relationships take work. That's what makes or breaks a couple. And both have to be prepared to do their share!!

"I know Leigh and I are going to have several times where we feel like knocking some sense into each other."

LOL hon they are not going to leave either! You will always have those moments even in the most perfect of relationships! hahaha... sorry!!

"Sorry to hear about you being sick for your wedding. It is better to be sick on your wedding day then not to get married though. I am sure you had abeautiful wedding!"

I had a dreadful wedding.

It was originally thought that I had a brain tumour and that I would have to undergo an operation. If that was the case G wanted to marry me before hand in case I died. He wanted me to be his wife. And I wanted to be his wife. I did not have a tumour. So this didnt happen. However after a really bad doctors visit we came home extremely depressed with no hope of the future ever being anything that we dreamed. I made the decision that we had to grab what we had and just do it anyway. So we talked about it that night, and announced that in 6 weeks (my b'day) we would get married.

We got married as we thought that I might not ever get any better so we had to live how we wanted to, which was as husband and wife. We cancelled out dream wedding three times prior the year before when I was dying.

On the day, our wedding was horrible, asides from the fact that we got married. I was so drugged on pain meds and other pills that I dont remember alot of it. I was in bed stressed and sick until I had to go to the loungeroom for the ceremony. My wedding dress arrived the day before it but was made with lots of lining so I could not wear it as it was too heavy and hot. Gwydion had to go out that morning and buy me something to wear as all I had were pj's. My grandmother was a complete bitch, did not even hug me. I talked to her and in the middle of doing so she walked accross the room to talk to someone else - deliberately. I dont know why they bothered to even come, other then out of "duty" and the fact that my good aunt had just about ripped out their throat when they mentioned that they might not be able to make it. She then waited out the front of the house until they could leave as my family took them out to dinner so G and I had a little time together. We had no friends so invitations were few. Our list of do's and dont's was longer then the invitation. The cake was great LOL ... but it was a horrible day. I do not regret being married. I love being married. Our wedding however was filled with pain, betrayl, illness and was very tense cause of it all. I have one or two good memories of that day, but the rest are just hurtful and filled with sorrow. I am glad we got married, and am glad it was on my birthday etc etc... it was just another thing that never happened as I would have liked.

So you and Leigh must do what is right for you both when it is right for you. Dont let either of your dreams be distroyed.

Love Aisha.