Carolyn & Cruel things said to you

[Guest guest]

Hi beautiful,

"If I get sick or have a speill, Sid doesn't want the responsibility of taking care of me. He has to be told everything like takr mr to the hospital. Otherwise he just stands and stares at me."

I hate it when people stare at you. My family used to stare at me when I was really sick also. They would just stand at the door with this look of pity and frustation on their face. I knew they cared though, totally different situation to you. But it was so irritating.

I asked him "What if I die because you weren't here to help me? His answer. "We're all gonna die sometime." This, I think, Is because he's scared I will need him and can't deal with it."

I wanna slap him. Shake him hard. It must make you feel so horrible to have someone say this to you :-(

"The insulin shots,, works with these for me. makes sure I have meals"

But what when you are on your own?

"What is frustrating me, is Sid keeps threatening me about leaving everyday. If I would confront him about anything at all he is ready to get out and I can't do anything without his help. He complains everyday to his family about he is the only one that does do anything around here and they naturally are all for him. One minute he will stay with me forever, the next minute he's packing and getting ready to leave. This is so frustrating. I never know which one it's going to be."

*gentle hugs*

It must be such a high stress situation? I worry about you so much.

How are you doing today sweet one?

Love Grandma Hen!!

*HUGE HUGS*isha

[Guest guest]

Hi ish

You have been really busy!!! It's wonderful that you won an award. I'm so

proud of you. You have been missed, but we understand even angels have their

limits.

I would like to hear about Leigh and and Jana. I'm sure you would too.

and I had a very pleasant week-end. We totally relaxed and rested,

Sid was gone out of town on business. The minute he got home the yelling

started and I yelled even harder. I think I cleared the air a little. He

has calmed down and is acting sweet again. I miore or less called his bluff.

doesn't understand his dad very well so he's afraid I'll push him too

hard, right out the door. I think things will be better for awhile.

Take care dear one Grandma is watching.

Hugs and kisses

Carolyn

[Guest guest]

Hello Carolyn Sweet little Hen!!

Yeah been busy!! I'm now also editor of the sarcoidosis section of http://www.dmoz.org which is a search engine. So that took up all my Saturday which is why I wasn't around then!

(For all you worry worts *looks at Helen* lol)

I feel like shit though - not well. Am really tired, but it seems everyone is tired at the moment.

Got an email from my Dr, cause I wrote and told him about the neurosarc doc getting awards (he helped write it) and he wrote back asking how I was, so I wrote back and told him I felt like shit! LOL!!! Well he did ask!

Am sooooooo happy to have heard from Leigh, and I will phone Janalise tonight my time. I have not heard from her and that bothers me lots. I am really worried about her. I know she is very sick.

" and I had a very pleasant week-end. We totally relaxed and rested, Sid was gone out of town on business."

*CHEERS HURRAY*

"The minute he got home the yelling started and I yelled even harder."

You go girl! You yell - he deserves it. Do you feel better for yelling?

Infact - are you feeling better at all? How is your breathing, the sugar levels etc?

Its really nice to have Grandma watching over her little hen, my biological one doesn't give a damn. You aint that old anyhow! Remember you are only as old as you feel .... k .... we are all ancient!!! We are all the original dinosaurs! LOL

Love ya babe! Give a *hey* for me!

*angel kisses*

Aisha

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