Guest guest Posted January 26, 2000 Report Share Posted January 26, 2000 I bet everyone on this list has a " guilt " story. I know I have more than one. Guilt is such an insidious thing! And it so feeds on fear! I often need help in even identifying that that's what I'm doing, feeling scared or guilty; people here have helped me see when I'm beating up on myself. Now here's my " I can't believe I did that " story that produced tons 'o guilt: Ava was 6 and we were doing some craft project and she wanted me to cut something for her, a gift wrap tube. I kept starting to cut and she would dart her hand in to stop me " NO! Not there, here! " . After a zillion times I finally yelled " stop it I'm cutting right now! " ..............and cut her thumb. I was horrified! She needed 6 stitches. Why was I so impatient, why didn't I tell her to mark it and then I'd cut it, why didn't I just put it down and walk away, why why why etc.? Even now I hate to think about it. But Ava is more resentful that she can't watch some show she wants to watch. She never got upset with me for cutting her, not even at the time. She thought the stitches looked funny (hey mom look, my thumb's having a bad hair day) and kept telling people that " Fiskar makes the best and sharpest scissors - you should get some! " . Wishing you peace and self forgiveness, Dana in NC Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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