Guest guest Posted May 5, 2008 Report Share Posted May 5, 2008 Barb what a lovely post, but did anyone read it without crying or am I just a big blabberer nowadays??? At first I kept looking for ways that CML had changed my life but I too cherish all the things you mentioned and realize what a changed person I am. Barb I wish I could give you a huge hug, here comes a cyber one..... Love Donna x --- In , " Barb Stanley " <barbarastanley@...> wrote: > > Hello All, > > Each year this time rolls around and my mind goes back to the day of > diagnosis – 5-5-2002. I had buried mom the previous November with > complications from CLL. At the same time, I was suffering from > bone pain, extreme fatigue and night sweats and I just chalked it up > to menopause and the death of a parent. > > There are few moments that will stick in someone's mind like a > diagnosis. And usually they are happy times, times of wedding vows > and births. This was not a joyous occasion but one that has changed > my life forever – and for the good. > > > > In the short 6 years tomorrow that I have had CML, it has gone from > a fatal disease to a chronic condition. Oh don't get me wrong, it > has the power to take your life, but the medical studies and the > treatments available for it are multiplying like rabbits. What was a > 3-5 year survival rate at diagnosis is now something that can be > treated and managed for a good number of years. Life expectancy for > those of us lucky enough to reach remission and PCRU (undetectable) > has as little as a 3% chance of relapse. Those are pretty good > odds. I have always had a streak of luck in me. > > The drug treatment will be a life long thing. I have had to switch > from Gleevec to a new drug: tasigna. There is no cure right now but > they are working on one as well as a vaccine for leukemia. Wonders > never cease. God is so good. > > > > Each year at this time, I take stock of my life…. And especially the > last 6 years. Here are some things that seem different for me: > > I no longer swear at the cars that cut me off. In fact, I let folks > in. > I remember to say I am sorry a lot easier. > I tell my kids I love them every single day. Bill too. > I took up gardening and plants. Caring for them somehow helps me to > care for myself. > I began to pray to, think about, and try to be with the angels. > I spend quality time in both private and community prayer > I found a job that absolutely lets me make a difference in my world > and that of others – a sheer joy to my heart! > I take at least two days off of wearing makeup now, because my skin > needs a rest and it doesn't seem as important to me to have my face > look perfect – I discovered my family loves me anyway! > I make sure my grand baby gets plenty of loving every possible time > I can get my hands on her! > I make time to see more movies with Bill, sit at the fire pit on > cool nights and talk and hold his hand more… > Recently I made a bucket list and am busy checking things off…( > rode in a NASCAR at 165 MPH April 5!!!) and Ireland will see me in > July of 2009. The list is growing….. > And finally, I find that people, who have come into my life, are > there for a purpose. > > > My point is this: I want to say thank you – to all the people in my > life who have held my hand, prayed for me (the ONLY reason I am in > remission) and given me support and love during these past 6 years. > The diagnosis identifies your friends and defuses your enemies. It > also brings people who want good for you into your life. It tells > you not to sweat the `small stuff' and to make the time for really > intentional living. > > Blessings to all you CML warriors...... > Barb in AZ > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 5, 2008 Report Share Posted May 5, 2008 Right back atcha kiddo!! Barb > > > > Hello All, > > > > Each year this time rolls around and my mind goes back to the day > of > > diagnosis – 5-5-2002. I had buried mom the previous November with > > complications from CLL. At the same time, I was suffering from > > bone pain, extreme fatigue and night sweats and I just chalked it > up > > to menopause and the death of a parent. > > > > There are few moments that will stick in someone's mind like a > > diagnosis. And usually they are happy times, times of wedding vows > > and births. This was not a joyous occasion but one that has > changed > > my life forever – and for the good. > > > > > > > > In the short 6 years tomorrow that I have had CML, it has gone from > > a fatal disease to a chronic condition. Oh don't get me wrong, it > > has the power to take your life, but the medical studies and the > > treatments available for it are multiplying like rabbits. What was > a > > 3-5 year survival rate at diagnosis is now something that can be > > treated and managed for a good number of years. Life expectancy > for > > those of us lucky enough to reach remission and PCRU (undetectable) > > has as little as a 3% chance of relapse. Those are pretty good > > odds. I have always had a streak of luck in me. > > > > The drug treatment will be a life long thing. I have had to switch > > from Gleevec to a new drug: tasigna. There is no cure right now > but > > they are working on one as well as a vaccine for leukemia. Wonders > > never cease. God is so good. > > > > > > > > Each year at this time, I take stock of my life…. And especially > the > > last 6 years. Here are some things that seem different for me: > > > > I no longer swear at the cars that cut me off. In fact, I let folks > > in. > > I remember to say I am sorry a lot easier. > > I tell my kids I love them every single day. Bill too. > > I took up gardening and plants. Caring for them somehow helps me to > > care for myself. > > I began to pray to, think about, and try to be with the angels. > > I spend quality time in both private and community prayer > > I found a job that absolutely lets me make a difference in my world > > and that of others – a sheer joy to my heart! > > I take at least two days off of wearing makeup now, because my skin > > needs a rest and it doesn't seem as important to me to have my face > > look perfect – I discovered my family loves me anyway! > > I make sure my grand baby gets plenty of loving every possible time > > I can get my hands on her! > > I make time to see more movies with Bill, sit at the fire pit on > > cool nights and talk and hold his hand more… > > Recently I made a bucket list and am busy checking things off…( > > rode in a NASCAR at 165 MPH April 5!!!) and Ireland will see me in > > July of 2009. The list is growing….. > > And finally, I find that people, who have come into my life, are > > there for a purpose. > > > > > > My point is this: I want to say thank you – to all the people in > my > > life who have held my hand, prayed for me (the ONLY reason I am in > > remission) and given me support and love during these past 6 years. > > The diagnosis identifies your friends and defuses your enemies. It > > also brings people who want good for you into your life. It tells > > you not to sweat the `small stuff' and to make the time for really > > intentional living. > > > > Blessings to all you CML warriors...... > > Barb in AZ > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 7, 2008 Report Share Posted May 7, 2008 Beautiful, Barb. And one last thing...every Survivor becomes your Brother or Sister. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 7, 2008 Report Share Posted May 7, 2008 Dear Barb, You brought tears to my eyes. May we all grow old together and usher in a cure for CML together. Thank you for putting things in perspective so beautifully. Love, --- In , " Barb Stanley " <barbarastanley@...> wrote: > > Hello All, > > Each year this time rolls around and my mind goes back to the day of > diagnosis – 5-5-2002. I had buried mom the previous November with > complications from CLL. At the same time, I was suffering from > bone pain, extreme fatigue and night sweats and I just chalked it up > to menopause and the death of a parent. > > There are few moments that will stick in someone's mind like a > diagnosis. And usually they are happy times, times of wedding vows > and births. This was not a joyous occasion but one that has changed > my life forever – and for the good. > > > > In the short 6 years tomorrow that I have had CML, it has gone from > a fatal disease to a chronic condition. Oh don't get me wrong, it > has the power to take your life, but the medical studies and the > treatments available for it are multiplying like rabbits. What was a > 3-5 year survival rate at diagnosis is now something that can be > treated and managed for a good number of years. Life expectancy for > those of us lucky enough to reach remission and PCRU (undetectable) > has as little as a 3% chance of relapse. Those are pretty good > odds. I have always had a streak of luck in me. > > The drug treatment will be a life long thing. I have had to switch > from Gleevec to a new drug: tasigna. There is no cure right now but > they are working on one as well as a vaccine for leukemia. Wonders > never cease. God is so good. > > > > Each year at this time, I take stock of my life…. And especially the > last 6 years. Here are some things that seem different for me: > > I no longer swear at the cars that cut me off. In fact, I let folks > in. > I remember to say I am sorry a lot easier. > I tell my kids I love them every single day. Bill too. > I took up gardening and plants. Caring for them somehow helps me to > care for myself. > I began to pray to, think about, and try to be with the angels. > I spend quality time in both private and community prayer > I found a job that absolutely lets me make a difference in my world > and that of others – a sheer joy to my heart! > I take at least two days off of wearing makeup now, because my skin > needs a rest and it doesn't seem as important to me to have my face > look perfect – I discovered my family loves me anyway! > I make sure my grand baby gets plenty of loving every possible time > I can get my hands on her! > I make time to see more movies with Bill, sit at the fire pit on > cool nights and talk and hold his hand more… > Recently I made a bucket list and am busy checking things off…( > rode in a NASCAR at 165 MPH April 5!!!) and Ireland will see me in > July of 2009. The list is growing….. > And finally, I find that people, who have come into my life, are > there for a purpose. > > > My point is this: I want to say thank you – to all the people in my > life who have held my hand, prayed for me (the ONLY reason I am in > remission) and given me support and love during these past 6 years. > The diagnosis identifies your friends and defuses your enemies. It > also brings people who want good for you into your life. It tells > you not to sweat the `small stuff' and to make the time for really > intentional living. > > Blessings to all you CML warriors...... > Barb in AZ > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 7, 2008 Report Share Posted May 7, 2008 You are a wise and wonderful young woman in your own right.We will grow old together and we will rejoice in the cure - for us and everyone.... Blessings my young friend, Barb > > > > Hello All, > > > > Each year this time rolls around and my mind goes back to the day > of > > diagnosis – 5-5-2002. I had buried mom the previous November with > > complications from CLL. At the same time, I was suffering from > > bone pain, extreme fatigue and night sweats and I just chalked it > up > > to menopause and the death of a parent. > > > > There are few moments that will stick in someone's mind like a > > diagnosis. And usually they are happy times, times of wedding vows > > and births. This was not a joyous occasion but one that has > changed > > my life forever – and for the good. > > > > > > > > In the short 6 years tomorrow that I have had CML, it has gone from > > a fatal disease to a chronic condition. Oh don't get me wrong, it > > has the power to take your life, but the medical studies and the > > treatments available for it are multiplying like rabbits. What was > a > > 3-5 year survival rate at diagnosis is now something that can be > > treated and managed for a good number of years. Life expectancy > for > > those of us lucky enough to reach remission and PCRU (undetectable) > > has as little as a 3% chance of relapse. Those are pretty good > > odds. I have always had a streak of luck in me. > > > > The drug treatment will be a life long thing. I have had to switch > > from Gleevec to a new drug: tasigna. There is no cure right now > but > > they are working on one as well as a vaccine for leukemia. Wonders > > never cease. God is so good. > > > > > > > > Each year at this time, I take stock of my life…. And especially > the > > last 6 years. Here are some things that seem different for me: > > > > I no longer swear at the cars that cut me off. In fact, I let folks > > in. > > I remember to say I am sorry a lot easier. > > I tell my kids I love them every single day. Bill too. > > I took up gardening and plants. Caring for them somehow helps me to > > care for myself. > > I began to pray to, think about, and try to be with the angels. > > I spend quality time in both private and community prayer > > I found a job that absolutely lets me make a difference in my world > > and that of others – a sheer joy to my heart! > > I take at least two days off of wearing makeup now, because my skin > > needs a rest and it doesn't seem as important to me to have my face > > look perfect – I discovered my family loves me anyway! > > I make sure my grand baby gets plenty of loving every possible time > > I can get my hands on her! > > I make time to see more movies with Bill, sit at the fire pit on > > cool nights and talk and hold his hand more… > > Recently I made a bucket list and am busy checking things off…( > > rode in a NASCAR at 165 MPH April 5!!!) and Ireland will see me in > > July of 2009. The list is growing….. > > And finally, I find that people, who have come into my life, are > > there for a purpose. > > > > > > My point is this: I want to say thank you – to all the people in > my > > life who have held my hand, prayed for me (the ONLY reason I am in > > remission) and given me support and love during these past 6 years. > > The diagnosis identifies your friends and defuses your enemies. It > > also brings people who want good for you into your life. It tells > > you not to sweat the `small stuff' and to make the time for really > > intentional living. > > > > Blessings to all you CML warriors...... > > Barb in AZ > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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