Re: No good news - Lottie

[Guest guest]

Dear Lottie,

Oh, I am so very sorry to hear that you're back to 100% PH+. Of

course, you're angry about the results!! I'm afraid I have no

suggestions, but please do know that I am thinking about you.

Love,

JoAnn

>

> I received my results from my last BMA, finally after enough note

writing and I am back to 100% Ph+. I am angry, mad as a wet hen,

frustrated, irritated and hot under the collar. I guess if I was a

swearing person, I would be doing that, too. The last time I had gone

up to 35% normal diploids and now I am back to the ground floor. I

don't know where to go from here. I know I will come to my senses and

my ire will die down, but for now, I am all of the above. The smell

of sweet success has evaded me yet again. Had it not progressed to

the level it had, I would have been content to go my merry way as I

have for all these years. I feel that something is missing in this

equation and it may be so simple that no one is seeing it.

>

> Well, Jimmy's hair is about a 1/2 inch and he feels like

, so I have to take him to the barber and bring back the heart

monitor so they can check his heart rate for the last 24 hours.

Meanwhile, I hope this turmoil from within will simmer down by chat

time this evening.

>

> Peace and blessings,

> Lottie

>

>

[Guest guest]

Lottie,

What is this all about - Only that not getting down to those magic figures being

disappointing and frustrating.

In the breadth of things, does it really matter - you have done well over 8

years and been a trail blaser for one and all.

You put so much back to the community, your family, the CMLers who are another

extension

of your family. When I was so ill, you emailed privately to lift my spirits. We

all need mentors even adults - and that

is what you do each day with your postings.

Though I never have met you only thru your postings, I know that you lead a

full and productive life and that is returned

to you 10 fold.

I do not think it can be better clarified on a " philosophy of life " from Bobbie.

Sounds a good philosphy to have, So take heart.

Bobbie's comment in part.

" BUT I DON'T THINK IT MATTERS THAT MUCH ANYWAY IF WE REACH REMISSION OR NOT,

EXCEPT MAYBE TO SAY " WE'RE MEMBERS OF A MUCH DESIRED CLUB. "

IF WE FEEL OK, AND CAN GET ON WITH OUR LIVES, THAT SAYS A LOT, RIGHT THERE. LOOK

AT IT THIS WAY; WE NEVER GOT TO BE 0.0005, AND THEN HAD A HEART ATTACK BECAUSE

WE WENT UP TO 0.0003 !! ............

" SO, JUST PUT THOSE FIGURES OUT OF YOUR MIND, AND SETTLE ON FEELING AS GOOD AS

YOU CAN AND REMEMBER, 8 YEARS AGO NONE OF THESE FIGURES EXISTED TO BEGIN "

Keep in good health

Sue (Australia)